I sighed and lied down on the couch with a flop; my 'family' had finally left to go 'out' for the day. I was just glad to have some time to myself, that my friend was a very rare occurrence. I groaned in pain and clutched my nose, there was bad smell in the house, bleach and burnt sugar. No matter what I did I couldn't get rid of it and I couldn't stop the burning in my nose and windpipes, I had had multiple nose bleeds throughout the week and that wasn't exactly the smartest thing to have happen to you in a house swarming with vampires. Yeah, that's right, I live with vampires. I wasn't a vampire; my mother was though, Bella Cullen, and the rest of the Cullen's. Yep that was me, the only human in the house... yay. It made me sick to think that she would become one of them; it made me sick how she used my father to have a baby before she turned. It also made me wonder how much of a bitch she was for taking advantage of him like that; she would have known how he would go to the ends of the earth for her and she just... used him.

My father, Jacob Black, had apparently been head over heels in love with my mother since he was five years old and was desperate to do anything to try and win her over. But she still chose Edward Cullen… Mr Ice block. The last time I had seen him was when I was eight, every time I said I wanted to visit him since then mum always made an excuse or bought something for me or took me on a holiday. I hardly remember him anymore; the only thing I really remember about him was his smile, black hair and intense yet caring eyes. I felt a wave of pain travel through my body and groaned, god, these were some intense growing pains. Yeah along with living with vampires and getting nose bleeds I was also suffering like chronic growing pains, Panadol and shit wasn't even making a dint in it.

I took in another deep shuddering breath and felt the stickiness of blood drip down my face… again, my nose was bleeding. I got up off the couch and walked to the kitchen counter, seeing the tissue box I lunged at it and tried to staunch the bleeding of my nose. I just kept bleeding, every time I seemed to take a breath the scent just burned my lungs and nose harder. Getting frustrated I picked up the hand set phone that was sitting on the counter and pitched it as the wall, watching in shock as it shattered into pieces. I felt a tremor of pleasure tremble up my spine at the slight release of anger when I felt the anger wash over and over me. I was shaking in anger, my bleeding nose forgotten and dripping blood onto the ground; I felt an exquisite pain followed by a loud 'pop' and 'groan'. I stood on trembling legs and lifted my heavy head, I whimpered when I noticed I was standing much taller than usual. I looked across where a mirror was strung up, thanks to Alice, and yelped and leapt back. WHY THE FIRE TRUCK WAS I A WOLF?

I found myself trotting around in circles trying to see my tail when I staggered over and tripped. I lay panting on my side, the coolness of the tiles seeping into me and slightly quelling the rising hysteria I found myself in. I let a mournful howl out and stood, I looked around how to get out and my only option was the glass window. I charged through it and landed lightly on the ground, looking up at my handy work. I began running, letting my instincts take over while I tried to stop my growing panic attack. Ever since I had been little I had been prone to panic attacks, I blamed it on living in a house full of vampires… your mind can tend to wander and get a little over active.

Flash back

I was at dad's house for a change, I was so excited to be there, it had been a long time since I had last seen him and I was missing him. I was at the top of the stairs when I heard raised voices trying to be quiet;

"Bella, you need to bring her around more, she needs to learn about her heritage" Daddy hissed, eyes darting around

"Your heritage Jacob, not hers, she doesn't live here" Mum snapped back before she whispered "She is perfectly fine not knowing about it. She is happy living away from here"

"At least bring her around once every year, Bella, she is my child too, don't you forget that, I helped make that little girl. I have a right to see her just as much as she wants to see me" Dad snapped back "You saw how happy she was to be here, to see me. It isn't fair on her or me, surely you of all people know that"

"Don't you bring my upbringing into this Jacob Black, hers is very different. And plus the novelty will wear off coming here, she will get sick of feeling like she has to come here for you" Mum snapped

I saw daddy's nose flare in indignation "Well if you are so intent on keeping her away from me don't call me up one day to say she has to stay here while your… family… are on holidays or something and you need me to baby sit her" Dad's voice grew louder "I will tell you the same thing I told you when she was born. I will have a life by then, maybe even children, you will need to work out what is good for you and me. Not be selfish and keep my baby girl from me, I won't stand to have my child kept from me."

"Jacob-" Mum started to say, looking furious

"No" Dad snapped, full on yelling now "So when she is 16 years old and it doesn't suit you to have her anymore, I won't have her. I can't just drop my life now for a mistake I made eight years ago for someone that didn't even love me back"

I felt tears prick at my eyes and my bottom lip tremble, even though I was still pretty much too little to understand I knew I was causing problems and daddy didn't want me. I was sitting at the top of the stairs, silent tears dripping from my eyes as I watched them argue. I heard a creak of the floor boards behind me and I turned to see Leah, my step mother, also watching the scene below unfold before she spied me. I let out a whimper and she picked me up gently, allowing me to press my wet face into her neck where I tried to block out the world where I was a problem, a mistake.

I heard the door slam and rattle in its frame and felt Leah walk down the stairs, she whispered something that I couldn't make out to whoever didn't leave and passed me off. I knew that daddy didn't leave; I pressed my face into his neck and clung to him, not willing to believe… what he had just said.

"Mackayla," Daddy cooed to me, rocking me gently despite my size "I love you, even if you don't see me often, you need to know that I will always love you. You are forever a part of me, my baby girl. I know you are young but you have to know this, while your mummy and daddy might not love each other enough anymore and may say hurtful things, we both have different lives, we can't help that but you can always write to me or give me a call."

End of flash back

That day came back to me as I ran, making me almost stumble, but I just kept going, blocking out all my thoughts and just handing myself over to my wolf. I let loose a ragged howl as I surged through the night, feeling more alone than ever but mind you… that wasn't exactly something new to me. Ever since I was little I haven't had friends… I guess that was just a side effect of having a vampire family, people feel… inferior to them. I don't know how long I ran for when I stumbled to a stop, looking out the tree line at the house in front of me. I looked inside and felt my breath catch in my throat.

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