My first songfic =]
Disclaimer: I don't own Gallagher Girls, Ally Carter does. I don't own Vanilla Twilight, Owl City does.
November 19th
The stars lean down to kiss you
I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Today is November 19th the day Chris disappeared, I sit here staring at the ceiling wishing that he'll appear. Silent tears go down my cheeks as I think of his smile. How could this have happened? He promised to come home. But I should know better than anyone, promises can be broken.
Today is November 19th, the day I disappeared. I sit here on the ground wishing it all was a dream. My arms scream in pain but I'm used to it by now, 25 years I've been here, and that's never going to change. I miss my old life, especially my old wife. How could have this have happened? I promised I'd come home, but I should know in our world promises can't be held.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I slowly begin to drift off, hoping that you'll be here when I wake up. To tell me all those jokes and bless our daughter's marriage. Oh Chris, we both miss you but I know there's no hope in finding you. But I can't help feeling optimistic that you're still alive out there.
The pain is becoming too much, I can feel myself slipping into blackness; I hope I'll wake up once more. If I don't you must know, my life's not complete without you. Oh Rachel, I love you.
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
My eyes can't seem to stop watering, and I can't seem to stop thinking. How could this have happened? You were the best they've ever seen. Now my ears pick up a small noise, I listen hoping it's you. Quietly I whisper, "I love you." But it's not the same without you to answer my plea for love.
The silence isn't so bad
'Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I wake up to find myself in a new dark room; I know I've never been here before. I look at my surroundings, hoping to find an exit. But all I can see are my hands, which are splayed across the ground. My heart starts to clench as I think of our first date. How your hands swayed to the rhythm with mine. Rachel, we were made for each other, I'll never forget it.
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
I look around this room, and I think it's all because of you. From the way I used your favorite colors, to the sweatshirt I always wear, I did it all for you. Hoping that one day, while I'm asleep you'll find your way back to me. It hurts me so deeply, to think that you're gone. Oh, please come home.
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thoughts because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I can hear the water dripping somewhere in the distance. The silence is almost deafening. I close my eyes real tight and picture you beside me. You see we are at home, discussing your cooking skills. When I think of all the good times I feel like you're actually here with me.
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
The way you used to laugh, the way you always called me sweetheart, they all make me want to cry. But now I welcome the tears because they bring me closer to you. When I think about you, it makes you seem closer to home.
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
I see a man coming, but I'm not so sure. I hope that I'm wrong. But no matter what, I'll always think of you. Because when I let them hit me, I'm doing it for you. The new brightness is blinding, I blink my eyes to get used to it. Every time I blink, my thoughts run to you. You'd be blinking just like this, when our baby would smile. Rachel, please stay safe for me.
When violet eyes get brighter
When heavy wings get lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
I finally fall asleep; thankfully this dreadful day is done. I can't help it if I hate this date; it always reminds me of what I lost. My dreams are all so peaceful; you're always there with me. We frolic in the meadow; you know the one at your parents' ranch? We're finally together, no harm done. I wish we could stay like this, but before I can ask you to stay you begin to disappear. Once you're gone I start to cry, I never got to tell you good bye, and oh Chris please forgive me. If it wasn't for me, you'd never have gone missing. I wish I never told you to take that mission.
And I'll forget the world I knew you
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
They tie me to this chair and begin to circle me. They ask me all these questions, but don't worry I won't answer. They ask me if I want you dead, but I tell them I never knew you. I know that sounds harsh, but I just want you safe. They ask me about Cammie, yes they know who she is. I'm sorry Rachel that I couldn't keep her safe. But they heard me mumble in my sleep. I whisper quietly to myself as they hit me with the bat. Just then the door flies open and in comes a girl in all black. She quickly kills all of the captors and then runs over to me.
She tells me everything will be fine, that I'll be home soon. She unties my hands as she cries, I wonder why that is? Some one yells chameleon and I stare up in shock. This is my daughter coming to rescue me. I tell her to run but she doesn't listen. Oh Rachel I'm sorry I can't keep her safe. Men come flying into the room as she finished all the knots, I'm too weak to help so I sit there helplessly. She's more deadly then I could have imagined, she takes all six out in 5 minutes. She calls in for Night as well as Probee. They come running in and carry me on their shoulders.
We are now out of the building and in a car; Cam is sitting with me, asking me questions. But I can't come to answer, because I keep thinking that I wish you were here. But Rachel don't worry, I kept my promise. I'm finally coming home.
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