I own Nothing! Twilight Belongs to the One and Only Master Mind Stephenie Meyer
I love the Twilight series, but I just couldn't bear reading the Bella-Jacob romance scenes(especially in Eclipse)…I love Edward and Bella. So, once I finished reading BD, I thought that I would write my own version of a particular scene from Eclipse. I wrote this a long time ago...I just didn't have the courage to publish it. Now, I have mustered some and am publishing it!
I would love to know your opinion. So, please, please, please do leave a review and I hope you guys enjoy it! I have changed the story a little bit… and I have rearranged the sequences of some dialogues and modified some other dialogues so that the story(eclipse) can continue to BD the way SM has written.
"Jake", I whispered.
"Get it over with, Bella!" he snapped.
I flinched at his detached tone. His expression was undecipherable.
"Jake, don't go, please!" I begged when he started to walk away.
"I have to GO!" he shouted back.
"Please, Jake. For me!" I pleaded.
"Well…ask me!" he murmured.
I whimpered, "Please, Jake! Stay!"
How much more could I beg? What more could I ask him, that would stop him? It took me some minute to figure out his words -"Ask me"-He wanted me to ask him to….
"Kiss me! Kiss me, Jake! And then come back!" I blurted out .
As soon as those horrible words slipped through my lips thoughtlessly, a sharp pang of self hatred enveloped me.
Jacob closed the gap between us in two long strides and put his fingers under my chin to lift my lips to his!
The world seemed like a vacuum to me-a Black hole…trying to suck all my happiness out of me…
I couldn't think about anything else but EDWARD!
MyEdward!My Edward!I loved him .Only him.What would my thoughtless words do to him? Though I didn't love Jacob, I wondered whether it would still hurt Edward, when he hears that I had asked him to kiss me(whatever may be the reason for that!)?
My Edward -who loved me…who would sacrifice anything and everything for me….who would die for me. I loved my Edward with all my heart! With everything that I am, I loved him…I belonged to him…my mind, my soul, my body… I could not even think about loving someone else! Why should I , when I had my Edward? Why would I ever want someone else?
I hated Jacob completely…for making me ask him that…for existing…for loving me!
A sob began to rise in my chest, my shoulders fell…my body shook with my quivering lungs.
I realized then, that…I COULD NOT kiss Jacob-not even for saving his Life! Nothing mattered to me more than my Edward! Nothing! If I let Jacob kiss me, it would be the largest possible sin…the largest pain I would bring to myself!
I just couldn't kiss him…
Instantly, my body started resisting him from coming closer to me. Jacob ignored my struggles and leaned down…to kiss me…but my body protested with my mind just as wildly.
I had never really been a Believer …in God. But, in that second, I just did. I closed my eyes and prayed to Him…'to stop Jacob'
And he did. He released me at once and looked at me with heavy eyes. "Ok! I will just go away and kill myself…I will free you from me. I would no longer be a trouble for you". He whispered.
I felt angry... so angry that I thought I could burn the Sun.
Why was Jacob doing this to me? Why was fate always so cruel to me?
With all my hate for him, I grabbed his head, pulling on his hair with as much force I had … letting him do it! Let him do it! I hate myself and him, anyway! Nothing was going change the hatred! Let him do the sin and feel the remorse of it…My feelings for Jacob would never change-Jacob had always been my friend and he would always be just a friend. I would never fall in love with him! Never!
I knew that Jacob would exploit this opportunity. He cupped my face in his hands and leaned down to me...
To be contd...