This songfic takes places right after Glinda and Elphaba sing "For Good" in the musical and before the melting scene. It is what is going through Elphaba's mind. The song is "Look At What I've Done" by Chris Cagle. It's an amazingly beautiful song. This is my first songfic so I would really appreciate any comments!
I saw it in her eyes when I was saying goodbye
That girl, she ain't gonna be all right
'Glinda, please, don't cry.' I thought to myself. 'Please don't make this any harder than it has to be.'
'Cause I could tell, she'd be going through a living hell
And I wouldn't be there by her side
The beautiful, bubbly blonde that stood in front of me looked away as tears began to spill over her eyelids, leaving black streaks in their wake.
And Lord, I felt so bad as I sat and watched her cry
Thinking I was moving on and she was barely getting by
If I could change this, everything that had happened, I would, just for her. I hated seeing her this way. Girls like her weren't suppose to have their world turned upside down. They were suppose to be happy.
Yeah, look at what I've done to her
Look at how I've made her feel
Tears threatened my own eyes as I pulled her into a hug. The last hug that we would ever share. I felt her sob into my shoulder and it shattered my heart.
And look at what it's done to me
You've got to know it tears me up
I gave it everything I had and lord, it just wasn't enough
I tried. They didn't accept it. No one in Oz would, except for her. There isn't any other way to end all this fighting. I have to do this. I have to die. But strangely, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. As I gazed into her eyes, I gave her a small smile and wiped away her tears. I would do this for her. I had the strength to surrender because of her. I just wish there was another way. Oz, what I would give for another way.
Hurting her like this seems so wrong
Look at what I've done to her
Now she's alone