This is an idea I got one night, I'm not sure how it's going to turn out yet but I hope you enjoy it.

Summary: Hermione wonders what it was like growing up as a Black and Sirius shares memories with her to give her an idea. As he does so, it begins to reopen old wounds and he starts to really miss what use to be. Also, Sirius is trying to help Narcissa with a mission of her own.

Disclaimer: I do not own the wonderful world of Harry Potter, that belongs entirely to Joanne Rowling, however, I am really jealous of her genius work.

Sirius sat on his bed, staring at a letter that had been waiting for him when he woke up this morning. It was a letter from his youngest cousin, Narcissa. Once again, he picked it up and examined the neat manuscript.

Sirius,

I am so lost. I do not know what to do.

I am about to lose everything that I have not already lost.

I need you.

Love Always,

Narcissa

P.S. 4:30pm

Sirius looked at his watch. It was only 7 in the morning, so he decided to go down and get some breakfast. He walked over to the stove, noticing the kettle was warm. There was only one person who was awake this early on a Saturday. Hermione.

Wandlessly cooking some breakfast, he began making some tea. As he finished, he piled everything on a tray, and eventually headed to the library.

He quietly crept into the library, cautious not to disturb the bookworm from her reading, and began to make his way back to his favorite section of the library. As he passed the bay window that Hermione usually occupied, he caught a glimpse of her curled up holding a book, but upon closer inspection, he noticed that she wasn't in fact reading at all. Instead, she was concentrating on a particular spot in the room, and she had the same expression on her face as she does when she reads a new book for the first time, absorbing every detail.

Curious what she was so intensely focused on, Sirius walked closer to her, and found the object to be an old portrait of himself, his brother, and his three cousins, before they had been torn apart from their loyalties. Sirius sat his tray down on the table, breaking Hermione's concentration. She blinked twice and looked up at him, a bit doe-eyed.

"Something catch your eye, Hermione?"

She stood up, walking over to the picture and picking it up. "Just this."

Sirius extended his hand and she handed the portrait over, Sirius looked at it closely. It was taken so long ago, they had all still been in school. He looked at the five teens as they happily smiled back at him. The picture contained a playful Sirius, who would stick his tongue out at Bellatrix, who would in turn crinkle her nose in a way Sirius always thought was adorable, then he would pull on one of Andromeda's loose ringlets of hair, who would give an exasperated sigh and swat him away. Narcissa would give Sirius a stern look and Regulus would give Sirius a small tap on the back of the head, which caused a fit of giggles from the three girls. As the laughter calmed down, the five took on their "portrait faces." A few seconds later it cycled through again.

"It's so funny to see how happy we were. This was the summer before Bella and I graduated, Meda was about to go into her sixth year, Reggie and Cissy were going into their fourth. That year was the year things started changing and the following year, I knew nothing would ever be the same."

"What was it like?" Hermione asked. Sirius gave her a confused look, not understanding what exactly she was asking, so she added, "Growing up in such a wealthy, pure blooded family?"

"In the beginning, it was like I pictured any other family. I remember being six or so and playing tag in the fields at the Black Summer Manor. Cissy and Reggie where still very young. It was so funny to watch them try to run through the fields. Also we would catch fireflies at night, which was always fun." He paused to laugh. Hermione smiled and thought to herself, Sounded so perfect, not what I expected.

"Cissy and Reggie, like Bella and I, were so close in age, we were like two sets of twins, and when one was scared of something the other usually followed pursuit. And let me tell you, Reggie was petrified of fireflies, Cissy not as much, but when Reggie got scared so did she. Hell, I don't even know if she knew what he was scared of! But she was just as scared." He was freely laughing now and Hermione sat there absorbing every detail he gave, with a huge smile on her face.

When he finally calmed down, he continued on. "Oh but Bella just loved them. She was amazed by there "magic," even though she had grown up with magic her entire life. Even as teenagers, we would sneak off into the field and we would just stand in the middle of the field, in the dark, while they surrounded us. It was beautiful, and calming. But it made her sad that every time we took, Cissy and Reggie with us, they would be scared. Bella wanted her to see what we saw, how beautiful they were. So, when we were about eight or nine, Bella, Meda, and I took Cissy on the back patio and Bella tied a cloth around Cissy's head, so she couldn't see. I carried Cissy when the ground was too rough, or Bella and Meda would hold each of her hands, we wanted her to know she was safe. Finally, we made it to the middle of the field and Bella untied the cloth from Cissy's face. It was a full moon that night, so we could see Cissy's face perfectly. She was so amazed at the beauty of it all. The next night, she all but dragged Reggie out there and with her at his side, he wasn't as scared. It's one of my favorite memories."

As Sirius finished telling the story, Hermione noticed the distant look in his eye and a smile on her face.

"Hey, you guys need to get some fresh air, or at least out of this musty library and get some grub." Leave it to Ron to be worried about food.

"Ok, Ronald we'll be down in a minute." With that Ron nodded to Hermione and took off toward the kitchen.

"Will you tell me another story later?" Hermione asked Sirius, with a grin, excited to hear more stories from his childhood.

"Tomorrow." He said with a smile and walked with her down to the kitchen.

So I hope you really enjoy this first chapter. Please Read and Review.