Chapter 1
I woke up in hospital feeling like I had been hit by a bus, I turned my head slightly to see Jackson asleep in the chair.
"Jax" I said. He opened his eyes and looked at me. "welcome back sleepy head" he smiled and came over and sat on the bed. "how you feeling?" he asked grabbing my hand.
"Like I've been ran over" I sighed.
"press this button, Tara said it releases the pain meds into your system" he passed me the remote and I pressed it loads of times.
"wheres Juice?" I asked.
"he's been took for questioning" he said, "that's why I'm here, he didn't want you to come round alone."
"he was protecting me" I said
"don't worry darlin', it's just routine once you tell them what happened it will be fine" he said.
I didn't say anything for awhile and then I remembered Half Sack and Rat boy.
"oh my god, Rat boy and Sack" I said trying to sit up.
"hey calm down Rat boy is fine, Just a concussion, few cuts and bruises" he said
"what about Sack I tried to put pressure on it but he found me" I said beginning to cry.
"I'm not going to lie to you he's in a bad way, he's spleen was ruptured they're operating on him now" he said.
I sobbed then "It's all my fault, if I hadn't have stayed they wouldn't have had to protect me"
"hey, we all wanted you to stay, they offered to protect you they think the world of you, these guys have never had anyone care for them like you do. The amount of times you have gone out your way to help them is untrue, believe me they love you and would do anything for you"
Just then Tara came in, Jax gave her a kiss.
"how you feeling" she asked touching my shoulder.
"How's Kip?" I asked using Half sacks other nickname.
"the surgery went well they were able to repair he's spleen. He's in recovery now and stable" she smiled.
"Oh thank god" I said squeezing Jax's hand.
"I've got a few thing's to tell you in private" she said.
"no Jax can stay" I said.
"are you sure?, they're personal"
"no I want him to stay, if that's okay?" I asked him.
"course darlin'" he said squeezing my hand.
"okay well we ran some tests you have concussion and unfortunately I'm sorry to say you lost the baby" she said.
"what?" I asked frowning.
"it's probably due to the trauma"
"what are you on about baby? I can't have children they told me in Vegas"
"well I can a sure you you were pregnant only a few weeks gone" she said. I clasped my hand to my mouth as tears streamed down my face. "so now what?" I asked "can I conceive now or what?"
"well by the looks of it you can, but we will have to run tests when you've healed, you have quite server grazing and bruising in your vagina as if something..." she looked at Jax.
"he raped me with the rifle" I sobbed. Jax grabbed me and held me.
"I'm so sorry for what he did to you baby" he said kissing my head.
"I want to get it all said and out the way, I'm sorry" Tara said
"go a head" I said wiping my eyes.
"we did a rape kit whilst you were sedated as Juice is your next of kin on your insurance forms he gave the okay to do that" she said.
"that's fine I'm glad you did it whilst I was out of it"
"we took swabs for STD's and we have also checked you for aids, if it comes back clear you will have to be re-tested in a few months time" she said. " we have given you antibiotics incase you do have any sexually transmitted diseases, which you should continue to take when you go home. We would like to keep you in for observation but apart from that you are physically just battered and bruised, its the mental wounds I'm worried about"
"I'm not seeing a shrink" I snapped.
"there are support groups I will give you the details when you are discharged." she said.
She looked at the door "the police want to speak to you, but I can hold them off a while longer if you want?" she said
"no lets get it over and done with" I exhaled deeply. " would you mind staying?" I said to Jax.
"course darlin'" he said kissing my hand.
"you don't mind do you?" I asked Tara.
"no I prefer him to stay with you until Juice gets back, you mean a lot to me Liss and I know he will look after you" she said kissing my cheek.
"listen, before they come in you need to tell them that he had Kip's gun, we wiped your prints and placed it in his hand" Jax said as Tara left.
"why?" I asked.
"because he wasn't armed and you were holding the gun, they will send Juice down if we tell them that, just trust me darlin'" he replied.
"okay, I get you" I said.
They had sent Unser and a female officer to take my statement, as Unser was a friend of the club and I knew him well.
It took an hour to go through it all and then revisit things I had forgotten, they wanted to know why I had never reported the abuse in Las Vegas.
"so you trying to say she bought this on herself?" Jax asked getting mad.
"Not at all we just have to ask these questions." Unser said " if anything comes of it!"
"what is that supposed to mean?" Jax said standing up and letting go of my hand.
" well Mr Ortiz did shoot him from behind" the female officer said.
"have you seen the state Liss is in? Have you seen the guy lay in recovery because he was stabbed by that sick mother fucker?" Jax shouted.
"calm down son, it's not going to come to anything, once we process Alissa's and Rat boy's statements and spoke to Kip when he comes round I'm sure Juice will be released." Unser said.
"there's hospital records of my abuse and I told them exactly who did it I just never pressed charges" I said. " I told you about the phone call you made a note of it you told me, isn't that good enough?"
"like I said nothing will probably come of it" Unser said.
I was beside myself when they left and Jax held me tight "I promise you he will be out soon babe, we have all given statements and once csi have processed everything they will see. I've got Lowen on it believe me. Our stories are all straight, Tara is going to tell me when Kip comes round and hold the police off until we have spoke to him." he said.