Okay, Wow.. Well this is my second fan fic... so I hope you guys like it... flame me if it really sucks that bad... but please review either way...
Disclaimer I don't own MSCL... nor do I ever plan too.
But what was the worst part about it was that I still loved him. No matter what he did I still loved him. It was sickening to think about it. He had so much control over me. It drove me insane. I don't think it will ever change. I shouldn't think that way but it's pointless. I will never change. Ever. It is sad what he can do to me. He acts like it doesn't effect him. Like at all. Or at least he can hide it. I don't know.
Oh my God. Stop thinking about it Angela, I can't. It is impossible. No its not. Am I kidding myself. I am totally and forever in love with Jordan Catalano.
But what was the worst part about it was that I still loved him. No matter what he did I still loved him. It was sickening to think about it. He had so much control over me. It drove me insane. I don't think it will ever change. I shouldn't think that way but it's pointless. I will never change. Ever. It is sad what he can do to me. He acts like it doesn't effect him. Like at all. Or at least he can hide it. I don't know.
Oh my God. Stop thinking about it Angela, I can't. It is impossible. No its not. Am I kidding myself. I am totally and forever in love with Jordan Catalano.
So after I bickered with myself for what felt like forever, I put on some music to cool myself down. And guess what was playing. 'Late At Night' by Buffalo Tom. That didn't help at all.
It was a very long restless night. Thoughts and questions poured through my head all night. 'Does Brian really love me' 'is Jordan really like this' 'was it all a weird dream that I will wake up from to find myself blonde and without a life again' 'Will me and Rayanne ever be friends again' and finally, the biggest one 'Will Jordan and I ever be together again?'
I finally fell asleep around two. Yes two in the morning. So you can imagine what I was like that morning when my alarm went off ... loudly. Then I had to deal with 'How was your date with Jordan last night?' and 'Did you have fun?'
I lied. I said it was great and I had fun. I was never a great liar but for some reason everyone believed me, or pretended too.
I ate some breakfast and got ready for school. Twenty minutes later I trudged down the stairs half-heartedly. Kissed my mom bye and walked out of the door. And guess who was there with that stupid red car, leaning beautifully on the door with his long brown hair in his eyes. (A/N No offence to the car, I love it and Jordan too.)
He was waiting for me I guess. Why else would he be there.
Ugg. I don't want to do this.
"Hey," he called.
"Oh hey," I responded not looking at him. I walked to the curb slowly. Keeping my eyes away from his face.
"Well do you want a ride to school?"
"No" I sounded so cold... I guess I meant to.
"oh" he sounded hurt, "Are you sure?"
"yep"
"Why won't you look at me?"
I didn't answer.
"Why were you so quiet last night?"
"Why do you think?"
"Should I know?" he asked puzzled.
"Nevermind, just leave me alone," That must have hit something cuz he didn't say anything else. Just got in his car and drove away. I waited for the bus for a few minutes before it arrived. I took a deep breath and walked on hoping that Brian was sick, but he never was sick so he sat on the bus staring out of the window. I shut my eyes just to open them again and see him still sitting there. I took another deep breath and walked over to him.
"Hi." I said while smiling fakely.
"oh... its you." he replied.
"I'm sorry I left you there last night."
"You know you wanted to leave." he quickly said nastily.
"Dont't do that to me, gosh I'm sorry okay"
"No," he yelled a little to loudly. "Its not okay. How do you think I felt? Why are you here anyway... shouldn't you be with Jordan?"
Wow he was pissed. I had never seen him like this. "No I came to talk to you," oh I was getting mad. "I'm sorry that I can't feel the same way about you as you feel about me. Oh my God you are so annoying."
I got up and went to sit by Sharon.
"Are you okay?" she asked concerned.
"Yeah its just Brian. See Jordan came bye when I was at Mr. Katimisky's."
"What happened?" was was so curious.
"Well I guess he talked to my mom, but when Mr. Katimisky brought me home Brian was outside on his bike. Then he kinda admitted he loved me."
"Oh my God, Chase Face, are you okay?"
"Yeah, its just Jordan didn't even apologize," I felt tears coming to my eyes.
"Oh no, Angela, I don't know what to say."
"Its okay. I just don't want to see him again today."
"Again?"
She looked confused.
"He came to ask me if I wanted a ride to school."
"oh."
By that time we were at the school. I got off the bus as fast as I could so I didn't bump into Jordan or Rayanne. I went straight to my locker. Ricky was there waiting.
"Angela, are you okay?"
"Not really."
"What happened, you look a little flushed."
"I just can't see Jordan or Rayanne." Saying their names together caused me to cry.
"Angela come here." Ricky pulled me into a hug. I cried into his shoulder.
"Thanks Ricky."
"For what?'
"Being such a good friend"
"Oh." I guess he didn't know what to say.
"Guys, oh my gosh Guys, guess what?" came Sharon from a couple of feet away. I pulled away from Ricky as she appoached. We waited til she caught her breath. "There's a new student."
"Okay so." I said not really caring.
"He's really hott! you guys have to meet him."
"Okay." we followed Sharon down the hall to some lockers.
"There he is."
Wow he was hott. Black hair to his shoulders, wide green eyes, tall, rocker style. He looked over and smiled at me. At least I think it was me. I smiled back and he walked towards us.
"Hi," he said. His voice was smooth. "I'm James. What are your names?"
"I'm Sharon, this is Ricky, and Angela." Sharon said excitedly.
"Nice to meet you." His eyes stayed on me. Like he was examining me. I blushed and looked down letting my hair cover my face. He looked away to Ricky.
"Ricky, whats that short for?"
"Enrique" (A/N: sorry if I spelt it wrong.)
"Cool name"
"Thanks" I could tell Ricky was blushing too.
Sharon piped up. "Well I need to find Kyle."
"Yeah I should go find Delia." Ricky said. "Nice to meet you James."
"Yeah you too." He turned back to me. "Can I do the honor of walking you to class."
"I don't know what kind of honor it will be but sure."
"Cool." We started to walk towards my homeroom class."So what are you freshman?"
"Sophomore"
"Oh me too."
"Cool... Well this is my stop. Thanks for walking me to class."
"No problemo. Maybe we will have some classes together."
"Yeah."
He walked away swiftly. I turned around to be face to face with Jordan.
"What do you want?" I mumbled
"Just to say hi."
"Jordan I'm not in the mood."
I tried to walk past him but he blocked me. "Can we go somewhere and talk."
"Why?"
"Because... I have something to tell you."
"I don't care anymore."
I managed to walk past him into the classroom before he could stop me. Class went by slow as usual. The bell finally rang. I got up and walked out to see James waiting for me. I smiled when he did.
"So how was your first class?" I asked.
"Okay.. how was yours?"
"Boring."
"oh."
We continued to walk down the hall to our next class. Jordan was at his locker with his friends. I looked at him and he gave my practically a death stare.
"Oh yeah"
He looked over at Jordan.
"Who's that?'
"Jordan Catalano."
"Really. How do you know him?"
"We dated. Listen can we not talk about him, it kinda ended badly."
"Well I think he still likes you."
"Doubtful. Why?"
"Because he won't stop staring at you."
"oh"
"Well I will see you later. Bye" He turned and walked away.
"Bye"
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Jess
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