.repetition.and.wet.dreams.
.a.harry.potter.fanfic.
.by.hesperos.
***
Harry Potter was responsible for Ron Weasley's wet dreams.
Because they weren't wet dreams, per se.
Because they weren't really dreams.
Because sometimes, in the middle of the night, he couldn't take it anymore, and he'd
reach under his bed and grab his invisibility cloak and creep over to Ron's side of the
room and sit next to his bed and watch him breathe, sometimes.
Sometimes that wasn't enough.
Sometimes he couldn't help himself, and he would reach out, almost against his will, and
run hesitant fingers down Ron's face, afraid that he'd be seen, that he'd be felt, that
he'd be caught.
Sometimes his fingers ran lower.
Sometimes his breath caught in his throat, and he'd almost get up, almost run away, but
he didn't want to go.
He wanted to be there.
He wanted to be there, fingers playing with Ron's hair, dancing over Ron's neck and chest
and stomach, and for a long time that was all.
For a long time he was content to sit and make his fingers dance.
For a long time he was content with the ghost of a smile gracing Ron's lips.
For a long time he was afraid.
Afraid to take the next step.
Afraid to do what he wanted to do.
Afraid to even think about what he wanted to do.
He wanted to go further.
He wanted to keep his fingers dancing, to have them minuete and waltz their way down.
He wanted his fingers to do it of their own accord.
He wanted to avoid the blame, for it to be someone else.
For it to be out of his control.
For it to be someone else stroking his best friend in the middle of the night.
For it to be someone else dreaming days and nights about one-sided midnight sessions.
For it to be someone else moving slowly, hesitantly.
For it to be someone else doing these terrible, terrible things.
For it to be someone else's secret, someone else who knew things Ron Weasley didn't know.
Ron Weasley didn't know about this.
Ron Weasley didn't know how much he was wanted.
Ron Weasley didn't know what went on in the middle of the night.
Harry Potter didn't know that Ron Weasley knew where he kept his invisibility cloak.
Ron Weasley was responsible for Harry Potter's wet dreams.
***
~owari~
***
it's 6.08 am. i haven't slept in something like twenty-two hours.
.a.harry.potter.fanfic.
.by.hesperos.
***
Harry Potter was responsible for Ron Weasley's wet dreams.
Because they weren't wet dreams, per se.
Because they weren't really dreams.
Because sometimes, in the middle of the night, he couldn't take it anymore, and he'd
reach under his bed and grab his invisibility cloak and creep over to Ron's side of the
room and sit next to his bed and watch him breathe, sometimes.
Sometimes that wasn't enough.
Sometimes he couldn't help himself, and he would reach out, almost against his will, and
run hesitant fingers down Ron's face, afraid that he'd be seen, that he'd be felt, that
he'd be caught.
Sometimes his fingers ran lower.
Sometimes his breath caught in his throat, and he'd almost get up, almost run away, but
he didn't want to go.
He wanted to be there.
He wanted to be there, fingers playing with Ron's hair, dancing over Ron's neck and chest
and stomach, and for a long time that was all.
For a long time he was content to sit and make his fingers dance.
For a long time he was content with the ghost of a smile gracing Ron's lips.
For a long time he was afraid.
Afraid to take the next step.
Afraid to do what he wanted to do.
Afraid to even think about what he wanted to do.
He wanted to go further.
He wanted to keep his fingers dancing, to have them minuete and waltz their way down.
He wanted his fingers to do it of their own accord.
He wanted to avoid the blame, for it to be someone else.
For it to be out of his control.
For it to be someone else stroking his best friend in the middle of the night.
For it to be someone else dreaming days and nights about one-sided midnight sessions.
For it to be someone else moving slowly, hesitantly.
For it to be someone else doing these terrible, terrible things.
For it to be someone else's secret, someone else who knew things Ron Weasley didn't know.
Ron Weasley didn't know about this.
Ron Weasley didn't know how much he was wanted.
Ron Weasley didn't know what went on in the middle of the night.
Harry Potter didn't know that Ron Weasley knew where he kept his invisibility cloak.
Ron Weasley was responsible for Harry Potter's wet dreams.
***
~owari~
***
it's 6.08 am. i haven't slept in something like twenty-two hours.