What am I going to tell the kids?
What will I tell them if I come home, covered in soot and blood and bruises, with the knowledge and burden that their Auntie Nat was killed? What if I end up being the one killed her? What will I say then? Will I say anything at all? Or will I keep it a secret and tell them lies, trying to explain why she hasn't visited? What then?
What if I don't come home at all?
What will I tell his kids?
What will I tell them if their father is killed? Will I just walk in and announce the news? Will I break it to them slowly? Will I tell Laura first, and let her pass it on? What if I'm the one who kills him, though? What will I tell them? What will I tell her? That her baby will grow up not knowing his father because of me? Because we chose two sides of a coin and he chose the wrong one? Because we got in a fight? Will they still love me? Will they trust me? Or will I lose another group of souls that I thought I knew? Will I lie, like I have so many times before? Will they see right through it? How long could I keep that secret, until they grew worried and I cracked, or I died of shame and grief?
Is this worth it? Do the losses outweigh the wins? Do the futures on that farm mean more to me than victory? Do I really care? Will I choose the right side? Is my side the right one?
When will this war end?
How will it end?
Please, God, don't let me kill him.
He has children. He has a wife. He has something to live for.
The same can't be said for me.
A/N: A quick shot of feels, concerning Natasha and Clint. We're all so worried about Tony against Steve, poor Bucky, and the epic fight scene in the trailer. But Clint and Nat chose different sides. They're being pitted against each other. This isn't just comrades being turned, or friends. This is family. And they're tearing each other apart.
Anyway, I hope you like!
(Sorry for the feels.)