Title: Not Over
Author: Ashley Marie aka AbayJ
Rating: T for themes.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to ABC and All My Children, the song A Sharp Hint of New Tears belongs to Dashboard Confessional.
Genre: Angst/Drama/Songfic/Three Shot/Complete/Friendship
Fandom: KenLee
Archiving: Of course, just ask.
Summery: Greenlee doesn't want Kendall and her relationship disappear.
Author's Note: My second AMC fic and second KenLee songfic. This follows from 8/15 episode.

Part 1: A Sharp Hint of New Tears

On the way home,
this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.
This weather.
The wind outside is biting.

I looked at my friend who kept crying, tears that I knew were my fault. All of this was my fault, Spike was in the hospital because of me, and he was because deaf of me. Taking a breath, I look up at her once.

"Kendall, you have to understand I am so sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen, I never wanted to hurt you or Spike…I love you both so much." I whispered to her and reached out but she moved away to quickly.

"You're wrong, you don't love me…you don't, if you did…If you ever loved me, you wouldn't have gone in the opposite, the OPPOSITE, direction of me Greenlee, you would have followed me. YOU WOULD HAVE FOLLOWED ME TO THE HOSPITAL!" Kendall said to me, her voice cold and broken. I had broken the only woman who had ever truly loved me with everything she had. The same way I loved her.

It has left me feeling tired & exposed.
You've been asking me to bleed.
It seems these kinds of questions
come too easy to you now.

She was wrong, she was, I had done a bad thing, I knew, I knew that I had but I had been planning to turn around, I…I just couldn't say that because if I did, I'd lose my life. "No…no..I..I got lost!"

I mummer quietly, knowing I was lying, I had been about to kidnap her son, and I knew all of that made me a horrible person. HORRIBLE. But didn't it count that I was going to do the right thing? That I had learned that I could never take her place, never take care of Spike?

"No, no you're lying, YOU ARE LYING!" She yells and I wanted go to her, hug her and swear that I wasn't, even thought I knew I was. I was a fool, a lying fool but that didn't mean I didn't feel or hate that I did this.

Your lack of shame comes naturally.
I should not be surprised.
I should have seen it sooner.

"Kendall, please, I need your forgiveness.."

"Tell me you didn't say that…TELL ME!" She shouts and place my hand to my mouth. She was right, how could I say that. How could I ask for forgiveness at a time like this.

"No…I…I didn't mean it like that. I…I meant…I meant, god Kendall, I just want to say I'm sorry." I whisper softly, wondering how I could do this. How could I make this better, or even if I could. At the same time, I had too. I had too.

"Oh, I know you're sorry….yes, you are one of the SORRIEST people I have ever met!" She yells again and once more, I take a breath.

You expect me to apologize
for things that you've done wrong.
While you're inciting others.
You're owning up to nothing
and I wish that I was gone,
because you're not going anywhere

"No, you're wrong…you're wrong…because I am sorry, I mean you're right, but you're wrong, I didn't do this on purpose. You have to believe that." I whisper and this time, I take a step forward and placing my hands on her shoulders. "If you don't believe me, then we'll disappear and I don't want. I don't want us to disappear." I whisper to her.

Then she began to push me away, trying to keep me away from her but I couldn't let her go yet. Holding her tightly, I look at her. "I love, I LOVE, you and Spike. You're my family, believe me, believe that. Think whatever else you want too, but know that I LOVE you both more then my own life." I say, trying to make her listen.

"GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME…" And this time, she was to strong for me and I fall, falling against the floor hard. "Did I tell you what I dreamt about? Did I?"

"Kendall…please…please get a doctor." I whisper and hold my side. I felt something crack, I heard something crack and now my breathing was becoming labored. "Please."

"I dreamt that I killed you, I dreamt that you were here with me and I stabbed, stabbed you right where you are holding now." She says in a voice that was as cold as ice. A voice I had never heard. "And it wasn't a nightmare, it was a DREAM. A dream I wanted to come true!" She says once more and the pain was getting worse.

This damp air
is fighting my defroster.
My sighs they ring victorious
& fog this tinted glass.
It's clouded
& so is my head.

"Pl…please Kendall…." I gasp out, my breathing labored even more so.

"Why should I help you? Huh? Why should I give a damn about you!" She yells down at me and she leans down to pick up something from the tray on the floor. Something sharp. "Maybe I should end your pain, how would that feel?"

"No…no, you don't want to do that." I whisper and begin to back away but I have to stop because the pain was becoming even worse.

She came closer to me, a pair of scissors clasped in her hand. I swear I saw the glint in the light, as if I was in a movie. "Kendall, please…pl…please get…get me help." I moan in pain, I felt as I was being cut in half already.

"No…this was how it was meant to be. You nearly killed my boys…you did you know, and…and now, I'm going to kill you." She was out of her mind, she had to be. She had to be, it would be the only way to explain this. To explain the scissors in her hand. "Goodbye Greenlee, it's been a hell of a ride."

The hint of these new tears are sharp.
I try to choke them back.
But it's useless.
I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease.

Then I feel something going through my other side. A ripping pain that was indescribable. "I…K…Kendall…." I manage to get out, and all of this was way to much. Way to much and then the darkness took over. A darkness that was quickly becoming my friend.

On the way home
this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.

You expect me to apologize
for things that you've done wrong.
While you're inciting others.

"Oh…oh my god….oh…ohhhh no…no what...what did I do." I whisper to myself, looking at the lifeless body of my best friend. No…no change that, the woman who once had been my best friend. Getting down on my knees, I looked at her, feeling for a pulse. When I felt one, I take a breath and then I got up and ran towards the door. "HELP! HELP ME!"

I shout and go back to Greenlee. Trying to figure out what I had done. I wanted to kill her. Didn't I? I wanted to make her hurt but why was I crying? Wiping my hand a cross my face, I began to shake. I had killed the woman I loved like a sister. Even though she had done this to Spike, even though she had caused so much pain, I loved her.

You're owning up to nothing
and I wish that I was gone,
because you're not going anywhere.

"Oh my goodness Mrs. Slater, what is going on?" A nurse asks me and I look up at her. She gives me a shocked looked and I realize Greenlee's blood must have been across my face because I was holding the wound I had caused, and after I wiped my face, it must have left a trail.

"GET HELP! This woman is DYING!" I yell and she runs off, I was still holding the wound, Applying pressure to it. "Oh god, what did I do, Greenlee, what did I do?" I ask her and myself. Tears still falling.

On the way home
this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.

Author's Note 2: I edited this on my own, so any and all mistakes are my own. I am searching for a beta, if you think you'd like to pick up the job, I'd really appreciate it.

Author's Note 3: This is a three parter and I have the other two parts done. I just want to see how this is accepted before I post the other two parts.

Author's Note 4: Please read and review! It'd mean a lot to me! All you have to do is is hit the pretty purple button.