DISCLAIMER: You know the typical mumbo-jumbo. As much as I would like to say I own Edward, and the rest of the people from the Twilight series, I do not. They are all the creation of Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter One - Considerations

I know I had tasted it before and already knew how sweet it was, but then, my purpose was to suck out the blood. This time, however, the venom that runs through my bloodless veins will be the very venom that will enter Bella's very human veins. I cannot quite figure out how I am able to do this. I always felt as though kissing her throat would numb my senses. Being away from her for so long, thinking she had died, I knew what it was like to lose something so incredibly wonderful, and this thought eased my thirst. But now, I can sense her nerves, her heart pumping so quickly, her blood shouting out to me even louder than ever before! This was nothing like sucking blood from her hand; no, I was at her throat. Even if I had enough control to make sure I didn't drink her blood, I could just as easily accidentally rip her throat. Then the blood would be spilling so quickly, singing to me so beautifully. One wrong move, and the thing I have come to love so dearly, so completely, relentlessly, will die surely in my arms.

Carlisle was by my side, as well as Esme, giving me reassurances every second. Alice, too, was nearby, ready to warn Emmett if she had a vision of Bella's death. I shudder at this much-needed precaution. Right now, Alice sees everything working out, because I decided I was going to do this right; but what if Bella's blood calls out to me, and I am unable to resist? In an instant, I will decide to kill her, and Alice will surely see this, and Emmett will restrain me as Carlisle tends to Bella to ensure no major damage has been done. Rosalie stood far from all of us, waiting, I am sure, for Bella to change her mind. As much as she does not want this to happen, she understands that it must. Next to myself, Jasper may have the most difficult job here. Once my venom enters Bella's bloodstream, once she feels the burning pain, once she screams in agony, Jasper will feel every bit of it. He sits next to Alice, holding her hand, incase the pain is too much for him, and he is unable to do his assigned job, which is to ease Bella's pain as much as he can.

I took one last deep breath, chuckling to myself for performing an unnecessary habit. I looked around my family, knowing the risks they were all taking for Bella and myself. Surely, Jacob knew what we intend to do. He will no doubt do his best to find us.

I took another deep breath. Why was I stalling?

A few more minutes, it seemed, I just stared at Bella's perfect features. She looked up at my face, smiling. Smiling, can you imagine? I'm about to take away her life. Her father. Her mother. And the most painful removal from her life: Jacob. I feel relief and joy every day when Bella wakes up in the morning and rolls over and stares into my eyes, because it reminds me that she chose me; what makes this all the more special is that it was a hard decision, yet she still chose me. I appreciate the sacrifice she made, and although I am still not sold on taking away her humanity, I am glad she chose to remain with me, to spend eternity with me. I promised her forever, and I do not plan on taking that away.

Another deep breath? I am thankful for my wonderful family who all support Bella and myself in this. They are patient; living as long as we have, most especially Carlisle, improves your patience.

This is it, my final breath, before making the biggest decision of my life.

I find it funny. Before Bella, I would always refer to my 'life' simply as my 'existence'. I didn't give anything to the planet. If I went through with my plan in Volterra, only my family and Bella would have acknowledged my disappearance. But now, after having spent so much time with this angel in my arms, I have come to realize there is more to my existence. Now that I have Bella, I have a reason to do more than simply exist; I have a reason to live.

I lowered my mouth onto her throat, inhaling her luscious scent. I kissed her once, twice, and then gazed into her eyes, her beautiful eyes. I tried to take in everything about her now, because once the venom entered her body, it would conquer her blood. I was willing to risk all this, because I became more attached to the person as opposed to the blood. I would always remember, though, that sweet smell, and its taste.

I lowered my mouth to her throat, reminding myself to be gentle.

NOTE: This is my first fanfic on here for Twilight. Lots of constructive criticism! The next one I may post in a week's time. It won't be really entertaining or adventuresome, just bear with me. I am a fan of cliff hangers, muahaha!