Readings of the Heart

By:FallingSnow7

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Yami no Matsuri characters.

Tsuzuki had just woken up from a very arousing dream featuring his partner, Hisoka and himself. His breathing was irregular and his body covered in a thin sheet of sweat that glistened in the morning's mist. Beside him on another bed slept Hisoka, cuddling up into a pillow. Tsuzuki smiled and found it hard not to touch the boy. His member twitched in agitation and he knew he'd have to get out of there if he didn't want to hurt Hisoka. Crawling painfully out of bed he dressed in his usual attire, and left the inn.

The crisp morning air on his face felt like heaven and he wanted more. Unbuttoning the four of his shirt buttons, he greeted the morning happily. His bare chest became covered in goosebumps at the sudden chill but soon relaxed. He looked up into the sky, a serene graced his heavenly features. He sat down under a large tree, whose leaves had begun to turn golden and red from the change in seasons. Fall was right around the corner and it made him sad. He sat there thinking about this past. It was fall when he had been beaten and called a monster. Unknown to him his mask had slipped and replaced by a solemn smile, not one of his usual smiles. He stayed like that thinking. His thoughts wandered to his partner Hisoka and his dream from last night. He let a small smile play on his lips before it faded with the next thought. 'You're a monster. You don't deserve to love. You don't deserve to live.'

"Stop it!" Tsuzuki covered his ears and curled into himself. The words repeated in his mind. Echoing endlessly, throughout his shattered soul. He felt the scars reopen and his world was thrown into chaos once again. He didn't deserve Hisoka. He'd only hurt him. He wanted to escape, escape from the reality. He wanted Hisoka, needed Hisoka. But, he was afraid. Tsuzuki stayed there under the tree, rocking himself slightly as his eyes with unshed tears looked into the past where memories were better off being forgotten.

Hisoka awoke when he felt Tsuzuki's distress. He sat up abruptly feeling another wave of anguish. It was hitting him repeatedly like a ton of bricks. He looked to his right expecting to see the older man there having a nightmare, but was shocked to se him not there. He had expected him to be there because he was getting very intense reading from his partner. Hisoka began to panic. If he was getting this much off of Tsuzuki then the older man must have been experiencing some excruciating pain. He quickly changed and rushed out of the inn to where he felt Tsuzuki was.

He ran till he found Tsuzuki about fifteen feet away from where he presently stood underneath a tree, hands clasped tightly over his ears and a look of fear and anguish in his eyes. Hisoka never expected to see Tsuzuki like that. He called to him. He must have reached him because the next thing he saw was Tsuzuki's eyes widening and the taller man scrambling to his feet rubbing at his eyes. He smiled a fake smile and Hisoka noticed that that was the smile he had always given him, a fake smile. All this time Tsuzuki had hidden behind a false smile to keep everyone happy and away. He had even done it to him. His own partner. Hisoka had told him everything and yet Tsuzuki had stayed away, hidden behind that deceptive smile. At once he was angry. He could no longer get a reading off Tsuzuki. He had hidden himself once again. The anger soon left him when he remembered the anguish he felt and how he had seen Tsuzuki. He walked over to the taller man. As he got closer he could feel his partner's previous feeling in the air surrounding them and on the tree Tsuzuki had earlier occupied. He staggered a little from the sudden rush of intense emotions. Seeing this Tsuzuki reached out to catch him. Hisoka's hand happened to fall on Tsuzuki's chest and as a result he got another reading. This one different from the others. It was Tsuzuki's dream. A small blush spread across his face. He heard Tsuzuki call out to him. It then accrued to him that he was wrapped in Tsuzuki's arms. He roughly pushed Tsuzuki away, bringing his hand up t his heart. For a second when he heard Tsuzuki call out to him there hearts harmonized. His blush now consumed him. He was as red as a tomato. Tsuzuki staggered back and gaped at Hisoka.

"What? What is it, Hisoka?"

"I just had a reading. It was your memories." He lied. Tsuzuki laughed.

"You do that to me. It's strange. I'm beginning to remember more and more of my past. It happens more when I'm around you." He smiled looking into his eyes.

"I'm sorry." He wasn't sure why e was apologizing, but he felt he should.

"Why are you apologizing? You didn't do anything. Actually I'm happy. Even though I don't like what I see I like that I'm remembering. Didn't you say once that you became a Guardian of Death to find out who killed you? I want to know how I died."

"Tsuzuki."

"When the time is right I'll tell you everything."

"Tsuzuki?"

"You're my partner. You deserve to know."

"Tsuzuki."

Said man only smiled. "Are you going to keep repeating my name or should we get to work?" Hisoka blushed and glared at the man.

"Let's get to work." He walked on ahead, ignoring Tsuzuki, who was laughing his head off.

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