Shido's POV
I gasped for breath at the side of an alleyway. I no longer knew what town or even what country I was in anymore. All I knew was that I needed to get away from Cain.
Cain...All I knew is that I needed to get away from him. I could feel that which is mortal—human—in me slipping away simply by being in his presence. Even though I can't stop feeling his touch...
Stop it. I don't need it anymore. I can live without. I mentally slapped myself, but my sinful thoughts brought me right back to the reason of my flight.
I stepped out of the alleyway, and began the search for a hiding spot before the dawn found me. But everywhere I looked, all I saw was him. I heard his voice calling me, and his touch upon me many times before I found an inn willing to house me in the cellar. And when I closed my eyes, all my dreams were of him before oblivion finally found me.
The next night it took every ounce of willpower and stubbornness in me to keep me from flinging myself before Cain that instant and begging his forgiveness.
I won't go to him, and I certainly won't beg. I felt my resolve begin to harden once more, and left the cellar, leaving quickly enough not to be seen by the innkeeper. I had no money, and I had no wish to harm a human so soon after that pledge I made to myself, that pledge not to harm another human ever again.
I walked down the street, ignoring the stares people gave me, and heading in the direction I hoped was west.
I saw a child that looked just like her, just like that little girl I turned into a vampire. She was the one who awakened my heart again, when I realized what I had done. Of the many mortals I either killed that day or caused to be killed, she was the only one I really remembered. She had a chance at eternity, and threw it away at the first opportunity. No, stop thinking about it.
But how could I not think about it? It was her, really, that drove the wedge between Cain and I. It was because of her I realized not all fledgling vampires lost their memories. It was because of her that I learned that lover, my maker, had lied to me. And that was the final blow that spurred my decision to run from Cain, to never see him again.
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye, but I think he will let me go.
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