Disclaimer: One day, I might own all this...until then...meh.
Author's Note: This is set the night after Judgment Day, if you don't want any spoilers, don't read it.
Keeper
I want to love, I want to leave
I want you to love me, I want you to leave me
Tony sat on his couch and ran his hands through his hair.
He didn't know what he wanted anymore.
Used to, it was simple, all he wanted was booze and a one-night-stand...now...he didn't know.
I want to stand where I can see
I'm watching you love me, I'm watching you leaving me now
He knew that what had happened didn't help him any, if anything it mad his decisions harder to make.
Inside he knew that he wanted more out of life than what he had.
I wish I could be somebody else
Wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
But sometimes he doubted if he wanted anything at all.
He wished that he knew what he was thinking.
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
Now he didn't even know if he would have time to sort out what he needed to think about.
He was heading out to the U.S.S. Ronald Reagan tomorrow, what if he still wasn't sorted out by then?
I want to know if I could be
Someone to turn to that could never hurt you
He didn't know if he was even letting this get any farther.
What if this was real?
What if?
What if?
What if?
God! He needed to talk to her!
But I know what you think of me
You had a break through and now I'm just bad news for you
He wasn't even sure if she would want anything to do with him.
At one time there may have been a chance for something to happen, but now he didn't even know if there was a chance left.
I wish I could be somebody else
Wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
If only he had taken that chance when he had it!
If only he had acted on his feelings then!
If only...If only...
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
He couldn't let her go, that had already happened once...but was that real?
It doesn't matter anymore! He gave that one a chance to see if it was real, and he didn't even have any feelings when it started!
This one was based on feelings, what could go wrong?!
I should have told you everything
I never gave you anything
Was he really going to let her go without telling her how he felt?
Was he really going to leave without letting he know how he felt?
I should have told you everything
If I could give you anything
Then I would tell you everything
He had to tell her, he had to tell her now!
He grabbed his coat and ran out the door.
I wish I could be somebody else
Wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
Was there really anything that he could say that would save this?
Well, it was worth a try, wasn't it?
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me
He ran up to her door and knocked frantically, she pulled open the door and looked at him, confused.
"Tony, what are you-"
"Wait, please let me talk."
"Okay..." she said, even more confused.
I should have told you everything
"You know...I've been having these...feelings for a while now, but I've never knows exactly what to say...I mean, there's no easy way to say what I've gotta say to you..."
"Tony, what is it?"
I should have told you everything
"I should have told you this a long time ago...I really don't know how to say this...I'm not even sure that I know what I'm saying...I've never said this before and not have been...set up..."
"Tony, what are you saying?"
I should have told you everything
"I think I love you, Ziva."
"Tony...I..."
"Oh, oh...well, if you don't- I'm sorry, I just thought- Wow...wow, I feel like a total idiot..."
"What? Tony, no, its just that I...wasn't expecting this...now..."
"Hey, if you don't feel the same, I'll just-"
"No! No, Tony it's not that! I...just I didn't know what to say...Tony, I...I love you, too."
A.N.: Hooray for fic 3 of my Pre-Premier Fic-A-Thon!
...This is really sappy, sappy...awww!
The song is Keeper by Yellowcard
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