Back to December

by ArtemisDianaApollo

A short lancitty songfic. It takes place after Mainstream and is about how I think they should have made up, and what I think they were feeling at the time. Rated T because I'm a bit paranoid about what Kitty called Lance in the show.

Okay,

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Kitty's POV

I'm so glad

you made time to see me

Okay, so you didn't, like, really make time to see me, but its hard not to talk when you're lab partners.

how's life?

Tell me how's your family

I haven't seen you in a while

I'm doing my best to break the uncomfortable tension, but its not really, like, working.

That's okay, I can take a hint. Sadly, I turn back to our work.

You've been good

busier than ever

small talk

work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Then all of a sudden you begin to talk, tentative, as though a bit unsure, but at least its something.

Your guard is up, and it doesn't take a genius to figure out why.

because the last time

you saw me

is still burned in the back of your mind

you gave me roses

and I left them there to die

Its, like, because of what I said to you. What I called you. You'd, like, been so good to me, and in return I stabbed you in the back.

so this is me swallowin' my pride

standin' in front of you

sayin' I'm sorry for that night

I, like, almost want to apologize for what I called you, but I can't bring myself to do it. My pride is in the way.

and I go back to December

all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

wishin' that I realized

what I had when you were mine

When we ended it, I thought that it would be easier. I wouldn't have to worry about fighting an enemy I was going out with. Then the X-Men ended up battling the Brotherhood again, and I realized even though we weren't together, I still didn't want to fight him, and hurting him was pretty much out of the question.

I go back to December

turn around and make it all right

I go back to December all the time

In my mind, as I'm going to sleep each night, I go back to that night and instead of leaving with the other X-Men, I pull you aside and apologize for what I said to you. I tell you the truth, that I didn't mean it, that I was just angry that you ruined what the other X-men and I had worked so hard for, and that I love you.

Lance POV

These days I haven't been sleepin'

stayin' up

playin' back

myself leavin'

I can't believe that I didn't stop you from leaving and apologize for attacking. Or that I even did that in the first place, knowing how much it meant to you to stay in school.

when your birthday passed

and I didn't call

I almost called you on your birthday, but then I remembered we weren't speaking anymore and it would be weird to call you for that all of a sudden. Even so, it still hurt to know I couldn't even tell you happy birthday.

then I think about summer

all the beautiful times

I watched you laughin'

from the passenger side

Last summer was amazing, we were friends, not quite yet something more, though I think we both wanted it. One of my best memories of us was that day we went to the movies. I drove you home after and we joked about what Logan and Scott would say if they saw us together. You were laughing and I couldn't help but laugh with you.

and realized I love you

in the fall

It took me a surprisingly long time to realize that I love you. We spent all that time together during summer, but I only realized how I felt about you that fall.

Both POV

and then the cold came

the dark days

when fear crept into my mind

That winter, fear crept into my mind. Maybe it was the lack of sunlight, people say that it does strange things to people, or maybe it was all the fighting, but that winter fear came. I began to doubt how you really felt about me, and maybe that was why I let you go.

Kitty POV

you gave me all your love

and all I gave you was good-bye

You did everything to show you loved me, you even tried to join the X-Men, but instead of doing the same for you, I called you a hood.

so this is me swallowin' my pride

standin' in front of you

sayin' I'm sorry for that night

There you are now, standing by your locker, all alone. Sighing, I decide its time to apologize, and I take a deep breath and start to walk up to you.

and I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin

your sweet smile

so good to me

so right

and how you geld me arms that September night

the first time you ever saw me cry

maybe this is wishful thinkin'

probably mindless dreamin'

if we loved again

I swear I'd love you right

"Hey Lance," I say, "Look, I don't, like, really know how to say this, but I, like, really miss you. So, like, maybe this is optimistic of me, but I was, like, wondering if you'd forgive me for what I said."

I'd go back in time and change it

but I can't

so if the chain is on your door

I understand

He looks at me as though I'm joking, so I say, "Look Lance. I really didn't, like, mean what I said that night. I was just, like, mad at you for trying to disrupt the assembly. I, like, understand if you don't forgive me, but I, like hope you'll give us a second chance."

Lance POV

but this is me swallowing my pride

standin' in front of you

sayin' I'm sorry for that night

and I go back to December

I sigh and rake my fingers through me hair, "I'm sorry too. I didn't really mean what I said either. I was having a bad day that day, and I just snapped. Forgive me?"

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

wishin' that I realized

what I had

when you were mine

I go back to December

turn around

and make it alright

I go back to December

turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

all the time

She smiles and kisses me on the lips, short and sweet, then says, "I'll forgive you if you forgive me." I smile and kiss her back in reply, deeper and more passionate this time. I'd forgotten how much I really missed her.