I scrawled the answers to my math homework down quickly, angry tears falling down my face. My lips were slightly parted, easier access for the shallow, shattered breaths to escape. Math was easy to understand, simple numbers.
They never changed their minds. Boys did. That stupid jerk. How could he do this to me? I shouldn't even be thinking about him, he's insignificant now. Now that I've decided to completely erase him from my life. Him and his family.
I was sorry I had to ignore Alice, she was the only best friend I'd had, ever. I wasn't close to Rosalie, so I wasn't making any sacrifices there. Emmett was like an older brother, and I would miss talking to them, in a sense anyway. I hoped Carlisle and Esme would notice my absence; maybe miss me. I was like they're second daughter. This was going to be hard on me, but it would be better in the long run.
A lot better.
On Monday, the first day of my new life. I planned to wake up at 6:45 am exactly. I didn't get a goods night sleep, and getting up so early was tough. But luckily I managed it. If it wasn't for Charlie's cruiser pulling out at the same time, I wouldn't have had the strength to pull myself from my loving bed.
I hopped in the shower and hoped the warm water would calm my muscles. I turned the heat up until it burned my skin and waited. Today was going to be great.
I told myself that repeatedly while choosing my outfit, I wanted something cute, but not Look at me! Slutty. I eventually picked out a jean mini skirt, pink flats, and a baby pink blouse with a hot pink over the shoulder bag. Alice would be proud of me.
"No Bella! Stop thinking about them!" I thought to myself. I rushed downstairs and grabbed a apple to eat on the way to school. I was going to wait until I got to school, but I hadn't eaten last night; and I was starving. I bit my apple, enjoying the crispness. The taste reminded me of Edward, sour.
I devoured it in minutes after I hit the road. I decided to turn some encouraging music on. Now I'm that bitch by Livvi Franc seemed suitable.
I rolled the window down on my new Lamborghini. It was cherry red, a 17th birthday present from Renee. I loved my truck still, but if I wanted to make an entrance, this was the car for it.
The music boomed from my stereo, and I refused to let my thoughts penetrate the bubble of nothingness around me.
Hi, my name is…
You won't remember,
Wait till' December,
Cause' you thought I was as pure as snow,
Guess you didn't know,
Hold tight, surprise, open your eyes,
Its spring time, flowers blossoming, I am one of them;
Guess you liked how I've grown…
I noticed a silver Volvo in my rear-view mirror. Then I took in the drivers face. It was Edward, looking as gorgeous as ever. His expression shocked me though, it was angry. Why the fuck was he angry with me? What had I done? If he said one word to me at school, I was sticking to my resolution.
I would say nothing, look disgusted at him, and walk away. He was staring at my new car, he had only ever seen me drive my old Chevy truck. Alice was the only one apart from Charlie of course, that had seen me in this. I stopped ogling him to turn into school. I drove right past my old spot, next to the Cullen's; and kept on driving to the other side of the parking lot. I noticed people staring, and blushed. I really didn't like the attention. I was only doing this so I wouldn't be to lonely at school.
I pulled into a spot next to a guy named Tyler's car. Tyler Crowley, I think anyway. I didn't have much to do with them. All of his "crew" were stood next to his car. They were staring at my car. I blushed even harder. I turned my music off and stopped the engine. I grabbed my bag and tentatively opened the car door. Tyler looked shocked to see it was me. He was probably too busy admiring my car. I tried to step out of the car as elegantly as possible, and proceeded to do so. Fortunately. Maybe today was going to be great.
"Miss Cope, could I have a minute?" I tried to even my voice out. "Yes dear. What would you like to ask me about?" I cleared my throat.
"Well, I was , wondering if, um, youcouldchangemytimetable?" I rushed, causing it to come out as one word. "Change your timetable? May I ask why Isabella?" "Um, personal reasons." Colour flooded to my cheeks at my response. Couldn't I have come up with a good excuse?
"Um well if its needed I suppose. You'll have to wait a week though. We'll need to sort out the class lists and that sort of thing. Sorry for any inconvenience." She smiled genuinely. " That'll be fine. Thank you." I acted civil even though I wanted to break down and cry. A week with Edward and the rest of his family. Oh joy.
After the encounter with Miss Cope, I had walked down the hallways with stares on me, and my ass. I could feel eyes boring into my back. I wondered if any of them were checking me out. Probably. Tyler had actually approached me. "Hey Bella." He had strutted up to me, with a grin like he had just won a hundred dollar bet.
"Hey Tyler." I had smiled and put my hair over my face. Trying to cover the blush spreading across my cheek. "So, wow. You look different. In a good way."
His eyes roamed my body, stopping at my ass and chest. I remembered the hip wiggle that Alice said worked while walking. I tried it. He couldn't stop ogling me. I smirked to myself. "Thanks."
"So, would you wanna go out tomorrow? We could see a movie." He continued walking with me. "Um…" Then it hit me. This would totally make me feel better about myself. And to be honest, Tyler was pretty fine. Tan skin, short dark hair, sweet dimples.
"Yeah, sure. I'd love to." I giggled like girls always did. "Great see ya' tomorrow!" He leant down and pecked me hesitantly. I let him and he grinned. "Bye Tyler."
The beginning of the day went smoothly. I only had Jasper with me in Math, and he didn't speak to me. I could feel his stares on my back. Not like the crude ones, checking out my ass, I think he was genuinely confused. Maybe he should as Edward Freakin' Cullen.
Lunch came next. I think this was my main fear. Who would I sit with? Would I sit alone, like before they came? I picked up something that looked lasagne - like and sat at a circle table in the middle of the room.
I was going for the confident, I don't give a damn, attitude so why not? I picked at my food slowly. I wasn't hungry. I was pondering throwing it away when I heard someone sit across from me. I looked up through my eyelashes, to see Alice with a plate of fries. "Hey. How come you've dressed all different?" She asked. I acted completely oblivious to her.
"Hello! Earth to Bella!" She waved a small hand in front of me. I looked at her as disgustedly as I could, and put my head down again. "What is up with you! Why aren't you speaking to me!?" She exclaimed.
"You know what Alice, why don't you ask your obnoxious, asshole brother over there." I spat the words at her venomously. She looked taken aback, but before she could reply I dumped my food and stormed to the library.
I was like a zombie for the rest of the day. I was looking forward to going home and relaxing. I kept seeing them looking at me, but I acted like I hadn't seen them and kept walking. Even though I wanted to break down and cry. Doing that to Alice had broken my heart, but it was for the best.
After Gym, I all but ran to my car. I was ecstatic to be able to get home. It had been a long day, and I had 4 more to come before I could change schedules. This week was going to be a long one.