Disclaimer: forget it. i'm not going to even play with this. we all know i own nothing.
Warning: mmm ... sadness? it might make you cry. ohhh and cursing of course.
Ok so i came up with this idea a while ago. i didn't write it till now. deal with it.
characters are ooc.
Unhappy homecoming
Allen walked into the head quarters for the dark order.. His home or at least that's what he'd been calling it for the past few years. When he walked in he wasn't greeted with his usual 'welcome home!' and 'good job.'
No instead he was greeted by sorrow, pity filled looks.. Only one thing shot through his mind. Kanda.
-Flash back-
"Kanda." Allen said following Kanda like a lost little puppy one night after Kanda had just got back from a tiring mission.
"What moyashi?" Kanda said a bit annoyed.
Allen walked up and hugged Kanda, in the middle of the hall. Thankfully no one was around to see. "I missed you. I'm glad you came back safe." Allen said quietly as he buried his face in Kanda's chest.
Kanda let out a sigh and hugged the young male back. "I missed you too." He said back in the younger's ear before pulling his face up and kissing his.
Too bad they didn't notice Komui, Lenalee, Lavi, Bookman, and a few others turn down the hall.
Gasps, yells, shoving, screaming, and cursing. All of them could be heard from the hall.
To be more clear. The whole group gasped when they saw them. Both Lenalee and Lavi ran up and shoved Kanda away from Allen. They yelled at Kanda and –surprise, surprise- Kanda screamed right back. Poor Allen was blushing a deep red. The couple was dragged to Komui's office. There they, well more Kanda, explained that they'd been seeing each other for a few months. It was quickly spread around the place about the two, and it's still to this day unknown who had told.
-End of flashback-
It had taken months for things to go back to normal. Now it was as if time had gone back. People gave Allen weary looks and most didn't even look at Allen as he pasted by them, desperately looking for his love.
He soon found himself in front of Komui's office. He burst in without a second thought.
"Where's Kanda?!!!" Allen yelled as looked at Komui who was briefing the vary person he was looking for.
The two men looked over at Allen then back to each other. Kanda gave a silent nod and stood up. Komui gave Allen a sad smile. Kanda walked over and lead a confused Allen out of the room.
"K-Kanda. What's going on?" Allen asked looking up at Kanda with worried filled eyes. "Why is everyone avoiding looking at me or giving me sad looks?"
Kanda let out a sigh. "It's nothing moyashi. Don't worry about it." Kanda planted a soft kiss on his lover's lips.
Allen kissed back and would have stayed there if the sound of running down the hall hadn't caught both of their attention..
"Kanda!!" Lenalee cried turning the corner. "Is it true?! Their giving you that 'death mission'?!" Lenalee cried worried for the older male before she noticed Allen in his arms. She covered her mouth realizing what she'd just done.
Allen's eyes widened. He stared at Lenalee as the shock sank in. He could barely hear Kanda yell at the girl who ran away immediately.
Everyone knew about the mission that was now deemed the 'death mission'. Everyone who went on it had gone missing.. Finders, exorcist, and even akuma had disappeared. No one knew what happened to those who disappeared.
Allen's eyes began to tear up as he looked at his lover. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out.
Kanda let out a frustrated sigh and picked up the younger one, who was hiding his face in his chest.
Kanda walked to his room, ignoring all the looks of sympathy. Everyone knew about his mission. They all knew that Allen was going to break down.
Kanda opened the door to his room and closed it locking it behind him. He walked over to the bed. He sat on it and hugged the younger one in his lap.
Allen gasped in air once he felt they had stopped moving. The tears seem to follow, without permission, to no ends. He sobbed in his lovers arms like someone had just died.
Kanda silently stroked Allen's snow white hair waiting for his lover to calm down to the point he could finally talk.
After about ten minutes of a stead sob Allen finally looked up at his lover, tears still following out of his pleading eyes.
"I have to go Allen." Kanda said shaking his head using Allen's given name to show further that he had no chose in the matter.
"But! But!" Allen let out another sob. "C-Can't they send anyone e-else?" Allen cried his childish selfishness finally coming out.
Kanda pulled Allen closer and stroked his hair again. "The only other person they could send was you." Kanda informed solemnly. "The higher up's wanted either you, me, Lavi, or Krory to go. Both Krory and Lavi are already on missions and there was no way in hell I was going to let you take this mission." Kanda stated the last past sternly.
"But!" Allen cried. "I-I don't want to lose you!!!" Allen cried throwing his arms around Kanda's strong neck.
"You won't lose me." Kanda answered gently.
"P-Promise?" Allen asked through new tears.
"Oh course. It's late. I don't have to leave till tomorrow morning so let's sleep together tonight." Kanda said kicking off his boots and lying down pulling Allen down with him.
Allen nodded silently. It wasn't till now that he noticed how tired he was. Allen settled in the arms of his lover falling asleep only minutes after.
The next morning Allen woke up to find himself alone in Kanda's room. He sat up quickly looking around to see if he could spot Kanda. But all he found was a note placed next to the hourglass that read 'Allen'.
Holding back the tears he got up and walked over to the table and opened the note.
'By the time you get this I'll be gone and off on my mission. I didn't want to wake you to say goodbye because this isn't goodbye. I'll be home soon so hold yourself together till I get back. Aishiteru.
Love, Kanda.'
Allen set the note back down and walked back to the bed. He lied facedown and began crying again.
"It isn't goodbye. It isn't goodbye.' Allen repeated to himself doing his best to calm down. 'Then why does it feel so much like goodbye!!!' He cried sobbing again.
After that day Allen walked around, his mood depressing. Everyone hated it.
A week pasted. Komui sent Allen on a mission. On the mission he quickly destroyed all the akuma. No remorse. No fear. No pain. Could be seen from him like normal.
Another week pasted. A longer mission. This one was to last two weeks. He had to retrieve some innocence that had been found. This mission went by without a hitch.
Allen and the finders that had accompanied him finally arrived back at head quarters. Allen took the innocence and headed straight to Komui's office. As he came up to the office he heard Komui's voice.
"Kanda hasn't contacted us since he arrived at his stop." Komui sighed out. "That was only two days after he was sent out."
"You don't think that he's gone now too, do you?" Reever's voice came.
"I'm afraid so. Damn it!!" Komui yelled as he slammed his hand down on his desk most likely sending papers flying. "I told them it this would happen!! Why didn't they listen to me!!!" Komui cried his voice full of remorse.
"It's not your fault, Komui." Reever said trying to calm Komui. He let out a sigh. "We're going to make him dead like the others right?" Reever asked reluctantly.
There must have been a nod because Allen heard the shuffling of papers..
"No." Allen whispered sliding down against the wall. "No. he can't be… He promised." Allen whispered desperately hoping that someone who come and tell him that he was just hearing things and the angry samurai was in the dinner hall eating his soba like the arrogant bastered he was. But no one came. No one told him that. He was left there, as his world fell apart, on the floor in complete and utter pain.
He didn't even notice when Reever walked out of the office door and saw him.
'No! Damn it he was the last person we waited to tell!!' Reever screamed in his mind as he looked down at the shaking body of Allen Walker. "Allen?" Reever said as he slowly bent down to touch his shoulder to get his attention.
Before he could fully get to Allen level said person stood up. Hair covering his eyes. He shoved the innocence he collected in Reever's hands before dashing off leaving Reever in shock.
He ran straight to Kanda's room. There was only one way to tell if it was true. The lotus. He had to see the lotus.
He ignored any and all calls to him. When he got to the room he was looking for he was out of breath. He threw the door open slamming it shut and locking it behind him.
He looked over at the hour glass with the note Kanda left him just three weeks before. It was empty. There was no lotus. There wasn't even a petal on the bottom of the glass. It was like Kanda's time just disappeared. Like it was never there to begin with.
Allen stared at the empty hour glass. Tears begin to fill his eyes.
"H-He lied." Allen whispered out as he walked to the bed not taking his eyes off the hour glass. "E-Everything we had, i-it's gone. Just like that." Allen felt the first tear slide down his check. But this time Kanda wasn't here to wipe them away. He wasn't there to tell Allen everything would be okay. To hold him and comfort him.
All the memories of their time together flashed in front of his eyes. Every time they'd spent together in this room. Every time they hugged and kissed.
"It's all gone. It's all over." Allen said mournfully as he laid his head on the pillow taking in what was left of Kanda's sent on the bed. His tears falling like rain.
Taiko: ok so everyone who likes this is lucky. cuz, one) it's only two chapters. two) i've already finished writing it (i'll have chapter two out soon.) and three) i'm pissed/depressed at the moment and if i had writen this after tonight god only knows what it would have turned out like. i most likely would have made it even darker with more chance of no happy ending.
Kanda: .........
Allen: .... Well ummm *looks away from Taiko* Review please. It'll help Tai-chan get he spirits back up. Please i beg you reveiw before she does something to me and Kanda *cries* Please!!!!!