Okay, I get it. I am a horrible person. But I swear! I had every intention of actually getting some writing done in the last few weeks! but then there was this whole thing with me and my friends that kinda distracted me for a while... anyway, in honor of Jessica's birthday being tomorrow, I thought I'd post this finally. The song is Dear by Miyavi, and it's not actually in English, it's just that I thought it'd be easier to understand if I used the English lyrics as opposed to the Japanese ones. If you want to listen to the song you'll have to look up "Dear from... Xxx" otherwise you'll just get "Dear my friend" which is a totally different song and isn't nearly as sad. Anyway, I know this is short, but it does have a sequel that I'm still working on. That one will be based on Itoshii Hito, another of Miyavi's songs.
On with the short, sad, show!
(dedicated to Jessica, whom I would be very lost, and very emo without. Happy Birthday!)
Dear...
What came to me in the misty morning was an unmistakable truth,
From the other end of the line,
Your faint, hollow voice,
"If we end this, maybe..." Trembling, I'm already alone.
Magnus lay on his couch, his phone clutched to his ear as he listened to Alec.
"I don't think I can keep up with this anymore..." The sadness in his voice made Magnus sit up, causing Chairman Meow to fall from his comfortable perch on Magnus' chest. He creased his eye brows.
"What do you mean?" He asked, his voice soft and confused.
"I mean, if we end this, maybe..." He trailed off.
"Are you..." Magnus' voice cracked and he felt an unfamiliar prickling behind his eyes. "Breaking up with me?" He finished, taking his lower lip between his teeth and biting into it nervously and sadly.
It was a moment before Alec said anything. "...Yes." Magnus nearly cried out loud, but stifled it by biting on his lip harder, drawing blood. "Good-bye Magnus." Alec said, hanging up. Magnus let his phone fall from his grasp and fell back onto the couch. Tears streamed from his eyes, falling down the sides of his face.
He'd thought that they'd been doing so well, that there was no reason to part. But there had always been a reason fro Alec to leave. Jace. Magnus tried to summon up any anger for the blonde haired boy, but he couldn't. It wasn't his fault, not really.
Tear-colored snow softly, softly dancing in midsummer,
Melts upon my cheeks, holding our memories.
What spins around me right before my eyes, is only the film of my memory
"From my tears... ?"
Your seemingly faint appearance
But even then, it's clear; you are still beautiful to me...
Magnus remembered a day that he had convinced Alec to go to the mall with him.
"Come on, Ally! It won't be THAT bad! I promise!" He said, attempting to pull the boy towards Hot Topic.
"No. I already know that you'll try to get me to start dressing like you and to buy stuff that you think looks good on me but in reality make me look ridiculous!" Alec replied, pulling his arm from Magnus' grasp. The warlock immediately lurched forward and wrapped his arms around him, successfully lifting him off the ground and carrying him into the shop.
"Put me down! You know I hate it when you pick me up!" They were at the back of the store before Magnus let the blue eyed boy's feet touch the ground again. Alec glared at him before setting off towards the doors. Suddenly he spotted a choker with spikes around it. In a burst of courage he grabbed it and went back to Magnus. The warlock looked at him curiously, but let him put it on.
Magnus grinned. "How do I look?" He asked, twisting his head this way and that.
"Hot." Alec replied, grabbing him and planting a kiss on his lips.
Magnus sat up, brought his knees up to his chest, and wrapped his arms around them as tight as they would go. Chairman Meow jumped back up onto the couch and rubbed against his side, meowing in a way that made Magnus think he wanted to know what was wrong. Tears still falling down his cheeks, he buried his face between his knees and tried not to think.
Tear-colored snow softly, softly dancing in midsummer,
Melts upon my cheeks, holding our memories.
When I wake up in the morning with you not beside me,
Lonely, lonely... Today is cloudy and rainy again
A week or so later, Magnus woke up around six thirty. Not by choice of course. It was the time Alec woke up to leave for the Institute when he stayed over, usually waking Magnus in the process. I guess my internal clock still hasn't reset itself... He thought rubbing his eyes and absently regarding the fact that the weather had gotten quite a bit more gloomy over the last few days.
Slowly, he got out of bed and walked over to his closet, picking out a pair of plain black skinny jeans and a plain black long-sleeved t-shirt. He had cancelled all his appointments for the week - much to his clients' frustration - and was looking forward to a day of moping around the house alone.
The first and the last love song I give to you, ironically, is a sad, sad goodbye song
Tear-colored snow softly, softly dancing in midsummer,
Melts upon my cheeks, holding our memories.
If, for example, if we were born once again,
I hope I'd get to meet you in the winter, which suits you so well...
He looked out the window and realized that it was snowing. Winter would suit Alec...He thought, a sharp pain tearing through him when he realized that he had never gotten to see Alec with snow surrounding him. It was a little ironic, since whenever he dreamed of him it was winter, and whenever he actually saw him there wasn't a snowflake in sight.
Magnus fell down to his knees as his body was wracked with soundless sobs - something he had kept from doing since that day.
The taste of your kiss I am nearly sick of, the days that the two of us painted
For me, for you, for the two of us, now... Bye bye.
Once again, I know this is sad, but I promise there is another part coming as soon as I can write it!
Team Magnus!
14! Whip Cream! I just lost the game! Only Jessica and my other friends will actually get that, and Jess will kill me for putting that in a story, but I think the basic idea of it is... Read and review! (P.S. Miyavi would make the perfect Magnus for the movie!)
~LuvableLittleMonster~