(disclaimer : I do not own twilight or the hulk that right belongs to marvel and Mrs Myer)

if your reading this then you probably know a bit a bout me or at least a small part of my story but i'm going to clear some things up, so yes After Edward left I became severely depressed and for months I did nothing but sit at my window and looked out into our back yard just waiting for Edward to come back but after a while I realised that I didn't want them to come back and i didnt want to play their twisted game of let's make the human believe we loved her .

I didn't want to play anymore and I know now that even when I was without them I was acting like the fragile child they believed me to be.

When In reality I've been my own independent person since I was six years old and when i had to learn how to take care of my mother and I ,because she could barely take care of herself, i mean i love her and alway will but because of her negligence i was never given the chance to see the world as everyone else did ,which made me different and for some people different is a little strange, unusual or weird but to some different can be dangerous.

so when the day came that i started to show my differences something i never would have dreamed of happened ,

i was looking out into the forest watching the trees blow in the soft wind and the glass in front of me fog up from my shallow breaths ,nothing had changed it was the same view i had been looking at for the past few months and there was literally no change ,it was always the same and the only thing that HAD changed in the past few months was myself .

I stilled at that thought ,no i couldn't have changed i was and am still bella swan the one that was clumsy to a fault, the way to brackable human ,the one who was way to old for her age and the strong one that's always had to depend on herself ,

i looked closer then at the view that still hadn't change and then i caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the window only this girl wasn't me although she looked a lot like me ,

her warm brown eyes were hollow ,un seeing and her once sort of pronounced cheekbones were sunken in, like she hadn't eaten in months, she wore pajamas that hung off her almost to skinny body and if i was right it looked like she had cried a lot a some point because her skin was deathly pale and red under her eyes, she looked like she hadn't slept in years

and worst of all she just looked ... broken

i realised with a sudden start what i was doing ,this was stupid this girl could not be me i mean what the hell was growing up at such a young age for if i couldn't even take care of myself but this girl was ...ME

and in that moment i realised i was done with this , i AM stronger than this .

then stopped, getting up from where I had been sitting I grabbed my clothes ,had the quickest shower i have ever taken and got dressed not really caring if it looked good or not and then with a new lease on life then ran out of my house and got in my truck and drove as fast as i could to the the nearest gym which was In port Angeles , i WOULD change this .

When i arrived i shut it off and i jumped out of the truck ,walking up to the entrance with a out even tripping once and then i walked up to the front desk that had a rather strong looking man behind it "excuse me" I said grabbing the mans attention immediately and he looked up at me and smiled in a way that i'm sure made other girls swoon "can I help you?"he asked still smiling

"do you have any self defence classes?" I asked him and he nodded then pulled out a piece of paper from under the desk "of course,which one would you like to join? "he asked handing me a list of different types of self defence I glanced at it for a second before looking back up at him

"all of them " I said smirking at the shocked look on the guy's face this could be fun I thought to myself...