Sorry this update to my series is so late! I've been sooooo busy with school and getting a job!

Logan wakes with a start when he hears his brother screaming. He rushes to Nathan's bed and shakes him. Within a few seconds, Nathan is fully awake and beginning to calm down. He rubs the heels of his hands into his eyes and flops back onto the bed.

Logan sighs and shuffles back to his bed. He looks at the clock- 2:45. Rolling to his side, he tries to go back to sleep.

His parents don't come running when Nathan has nightmares anymore. Sometimes they still come in to check later, but the terrified screams don't set off alarms like they used to.

It's been one year since Nathan was kidnapped, but the memories are still there. He still wakes up sweaty and panicked. The episodes have died down, though. Instead of once a night or once a week, it's only once or twice a month.

Logan raises back up to look at the clock. 2:47- great. His brain is awake again. Once it's up, it's up. No sleep for him tonight.

A lot has changed in one year. Logan recently picked out a ring for Alexis. It's way over his budget, so it'll be on layaway for quite a while. No grad proposal for at least five months. He wonders when Nathan is finally going to pop the question to Lycea. They're really serious. Like, REALLY serious. Nathan is always with her. Going out to eat, watching movies, quick weekend trips to the beach or Disneyland. About a month ago, Logan finally demanded some "serious bro time". The twins spent a whole day together. It was awesome.

But, after that, Logan let Nathan go back and spend some time with Lycea. And, by "some time" he means 24/7. Looking at the clock again… 3:00. Great. There's a whole four hours until he can even begin to convince his dad to make pancakes.

Nathan doesn't go back to sleep immediately. He keeps thinking of his dream. After he killed the pack that kidnapped him, he thought the dreams would stop. He was sorely mistaken. The death of his rapist didn't stop the dreams. It only changed them.

Now, he never knows what to expect. Sometimes he dreams of being pressed down to the dirty floor. Other times, he sees the shrapnel tearing into his enemies. And, yet others, he'll dream of losing his baby all over again.

He doesn't understand it and probably never will. When Deaton told him he was human and NOT pregnant, he was filled with relief and utter joy. Later, though, he was filled with and emptiness. It felt like something had been taken away from him. The opportunity to create a new life and carry it within him- to protect it. Sometimes he feels like he has failed. He failed to protect the life inside him because he was selfish. He was selfish, scared, young, naïve, hurt.

Some days he hates Yiayia for medicating him. The days he sees a pregnant woman and her husband walking along- so happy, so together, so excited… Those are the days he finds himself absentmindedly resting his hand on his stomach, wishing there was a bulge instead of flatness.

Most days, though, he is one hundred percent thankful. He feels so indebted to Yiayia. He could never thank her enough for what she did. He was not ready to be a parent. Most days he is so happy things worked out the way they did. Today is not one of those days.

Once he hears Logan begin to snore again, he slips out of bed and slinks down the hallway.

"Dad." Nate rests his head against the master bedroom door as he waits. "Dad?"

Derek opens the door. "Are you okay?"

"Can we talk?"

"Sure." Derek puts some slippers on and exits the bedroom. "Do we need cookies?"

"No, Dad. Just come talk." Nathan begins walking downstairs.

Derek follows. When Nathan falls down on the couch, Derek sits down across from him. "What is it?"

"Would you give me the bite if I asked for it?"

Derek is stunned that his son went straight to the point. He never does that- not even when they do have cookies to eat during the conversation. "You've thought a lot about this."

"Yes, sir."

He sighs. "Can I ask why you want it?"

"I… even though I didn't want it back then, I was getting used to it. Now, it feels like something has been taken away from me."

"The power?" Derek questions.

"No! Definitely not that. I miss the connection that I had with all you guys. I wasn't technically under your leadership, but you were all still my pack. You're the pack I chose. You're still my pack, but… I want more."