I know that Tony already seems to be out of the picture in the show (so sad) but the chemistry enchants me and I love the couple. Anyway, that's what FF are for this is one of my ideas on that fabulous pair starting on the finale of season 1.

First I thought to pretend season 2 didn't existed but some things pleased to me and could be useful in this story so I will take them and will be mixed everything. Loyal to everything until the end of the 1st season and bits of season 2 can be anything except that Tony leaves Jane's life forever.

DDD does not belong to me nor I tried to benefit from the program or the characters. I would love to write for the program but since it is not therefore I am satisfied to do just this.

Chapter 1 The road Starts.

'I'm Ethan, Jane's husband' Jane could not stop looking at him, this was something she never thought could happen in old Jane's life, she is not going to be this kind of woman, she wasn't, the former Jane was sad, dull, boring, come on, she wore brooches ... What was the new Jane supposed to do?

Stacy was a bit lost with the information, she also thought of the old Jane as someone who could never marry, it was a side of the old Jane than nobody could imagined.

"So, ok I'm a bit lost here, you say you are Jane's husband? By the way I am Stacy"

'Yes, but I think she does not speak of me eh? And, nice to meet you "

Stacy knew that she was the unique one of the two who could obtain data of this mess, "Well, since Jane doesn't say anything, tell me how long you've been married?" And why aren't you divorced? Because since I know Jane you've never come or called or something like that, what you say mister? "

He laughs, a laugh very deep and very nervous and uncertain, he didn't imagine his return this way "Sorry, I'm not laughing at you, just that Jane never had this kind of friends"

Jane remained silent, silently understood and appreciated what Stacy was doing and let it go "hey, what do you mean?"

"Come on Jane, a skinny, blonde ..."

"Heyyy" the two shouted at the same time

'Okay, okay, sorry, it's just that everything is so different and you're ... well ... in fact, you look very nice ... but so changed ... I'm a little lost here. As for your questions, we got married shortly after she finished law school and soon after was hired in her first big firm that was much bigger than the one she is now. And the other question was why we are not divorced? Right? "

Puzzled, the only thing Stacy could do was nod.

'Well, I ... after a few months even a year, maybe you know this, but I have to say it '

Jane cleared her throat by putting a bit of control over the mess that put her in an endless cycle 'Why don't we sit and talk a little more comfortable? "

'Well, I'd say there's the Jane I once knew' Jane's face showed only wonder, stood there, what was she supposed to say, she was discovering, through old Jane's husband that they were more alike than anyone might think, even her. "OK, sorry, I've missed you, you know?"

Everyone sat down, Jane and Stacy together on the white couch right in front of Ethan and him sitting in the seat from across.

Stacy put herself comfortable and looked at Jane and saw that she was still lost in the topic so she decided it was her turn to be all lawyer like "You were going to tell me why you are not divorced?, Right?"

'Yes, mmm ... Jane I never thought I could make you so much damage, the fights were pretty bad at the time and I felt like a loser all around you, I still feel that way and see how you live, by the way great Porsche Stacy! "

"It's mine," said Jane so proud of herself, she was beginning to understand the old Jane a little bit more, the reasons why she tried to outdo herself all the time.

"Oh, I could never afford that, I'm starting as a model and actress"

'Ooh good you are beautiful and I bet you'll have one soon' he said 'Jane, I did not come back to conquer you again'

'Hey Mr soon to be Jane's ex-husband, first finished your story just for me and then you can talk about what you ever you need to but first I want to know everything, so start, don't look at me like that' Ethan was puzzled by her protectionism. Jane looked at him and saw that he was not welcome even in front of her so he started to speak ...

'Well, we really didn't had a long relationship, we met and I was so attracted by her intelligence and wit, that at the end was what made me run from her. Look, Jane was the best in college when we met and I worked in the library of the law school, she was very nice and sweet, it all started from one day to another, we had our first date and was a fast evolving relationship. When I realized Jane was a lawyer was because she began to receive many offers and all I could do was look while I was still at the community college, we went on a trip soon after, before she chose the firm where her career would start, back then she had a great relationship with her mother they were very close I do not know if it is still the case, they told each other all, but she did not tell her of me I suppose it was the first symptom that I did not see or rather I did not care I just wanted to be with her, so before she decided to return to California, because she said that was home, we took a trip to Washington, I really had it all planned, we got married there, I was not sure, but I had my thinking and convinced her later we made plans for Los Angeles but suddenly she was filled with cases and with little time and I was a delivery boy who had left school." He took a deep breath to remember ...

'Okay MISTER keep telling me the story, don't be a martyr "

Jane was not very happy with this situation she was hurt, lost in her own life and did not like it at all, she could not bear that Ethan had valued so little to the old Jane, how could he flirt with Stacy in front of his wife? Because she still was, how he said at the door that she looked great, but do not want her back, it's not like she wanted it him back, but come on old Jane was a great woman even before she died perhaps without style, but nice, decent, a great lawyer and a good friend to Terri so how is it that the only person who was supposed to love her did not valued her that time or even now, at least not how it was supposed to be done.

'Okay, I guess you can't understand what happened with me or see the reasons for my actions.. but I will try to explain and also tell the story so maybe this will help with my relationship with Jane here today' At those last words Jane looked at the front and back to reality she was so lost in her own little world...

"When we came here, we rented an apartment, Jane has never been interested in material things, the Porsche was a surprise to me because of that, back then she just wanted to be a great lawyer, and she was she had lots of options to choose from she could choose from different cities or states, she choose the best, the one that would let her make pro bono as much as she wanted'

'Yes I understand I see Jane doing it all the time'

'The thing is that we rent...Well okay she rented the small apartment where the owner told me that she recently sub-rented or leased it or whatever...everything was so fast and after a couple of months I could not bear her success until that day she had not lost a case, the company was impressed, but our fights were pretty bad, one day I even threatened to hit her...'

"YOU WHAT?" Both moved from their seats uncomfortable Jane got up and looked at him like a monster and then she saw herself reflected in a mirror across her and the woman there was not her she couldn't be, Jane could not recognized herself and panicked, began to breathe fast, inside and out, breathe in and out …

"Jane darling ... are you okay" But Jane was lost for a second, where was she?

"Jane? ... Deb? Come on answer me Jane" she side look at Stacy "Jane!" Suddenly, she returned, and talked out loud a bit surprised by all 'WHAT? I can't breathe'

Inside and outside, inhaling and exhaling, inhaling longer, inside and out, and ...

Stacy did not know what else to do so she said the most common and stupidest question we all do when the answer is obvious. 'Are you OK?" In and out, longer, Jane began to tremble and hold her chest while her body bent a little, breathe in and out, her throat began to make strange noises with little whistles, in and out ...

"I ... I don't know", inhale and "Shit" she said in a low, deep voice ending in the same way "I do know" exhaleee "Panic Attack" inhaleeee "high doses of epinephrine' exhaleeee... Stacy approached her and now the two were standing near the door "also known as adrenaline" inhaleee and out, now that Jane understood what was happening she began to relax and control her breathing inn and her body. In and out almost normal breathing "Stacy, this should not be so" in and out "Jane wasn't supposed to be like this" in and out almost normal.

Suddenly she turned to Ethan "You tried to hit me, how could you?" Inside and out, now shaking "you were supposed to love me and you had to look after me, cheated me, who are you?" Jane began to be out of control and become something hard and aggressive with him.

"Look Jane, I never got to hit you, I was lost in this fantasy that I believed could happen to us... that was the end I could not bear our life in those days..."

Meanwhile, Jane was holding her chest and trying to get her breathing back to normal with Stacy at her side holding her from her side.

"You ... could not ..." Jane was on fire because of Ethan and all that was happening, if she could not defend her past life sure as hell she was going to defend the old life of Jane and all her kindness, but she couldn't say anymore because just then someone knocked at the door...