As I stare at her with another man my heart start to break slowly and painfully. The pain never seems to seize. I try to make it stop I accept the fact that she will never be mine and that she deserve another man that will fill her heart in joy and love, but yet my heart didn't accept the fact that I let her go. Its seems that the more I try push away these feelings it comes back even stronger and more painful then it was ever before. Oh how I wish these damn feeling go away and yet it was these blasted feelings only appear when I see her and her boyfriend. Now I have a choice to make let this feeling consume me or move away from her so these feeling won't appear inside my body and make my heart's shatter.
Weeks after weeks I think and think wandering what to do I decided to let these damn feelings to consume me for it is not worth it to move away a childhood friend no matter what happened I will always be at her side. Then she announce that she is going to be married.The anguish feelings shatter my heart once more. I clutch my heart for this pains will last a while and I hope it will end soons
Well its the day that she will be married and yet the painful anguish feelings seems to calm down but I am not sure though. As I see her with a exquisite wedding gown that shows her curve at the right spot. I shook away that thought and continue to look through the aisle where a priest begin his sermon of the wedding the pain begin to develop once more I clutch my heart to stop it but alas it did not work this time. Time have seems like it begin to fast forward. Then I saw them kiss once more and my anguish pain consume me. Last thing I remember was a scream before I blackout. As I see darkness around me. I walk and walk endlessly then woke up but my eyelid did not fully open and I saw her and whisper towards her ear and said "I love you May. "As I close my eye out of weakness. What I didn't know is that I have close my eye once last time.
Brendan Birch have died from a broken heart and pushing it away the anguish feelings. 12/31/21 is the date of his death. For may he rest in peace.