WARNING: This is yaoi. Don't like? Then don't read it, silly.
DISCLAIMER: I (sadly) do not own Kingdom Hearts or any of the characters. This is a purely fan made fanfiction.
Here I am. Sitting on this old clock tower in Twilight Town, dwelling in my sorrows like some pathetic, brokenhearted, teenage girl. It does kind of make sense, though. No. I am not a teenage girl. I'm a teenage boy. But I did just get my heart crushed.
'Why in the hell was I so fucking stupid? It was right in front of my fucking face the entire time.'
Yet, I chose not to believe it. So technically, I chose this heartbreak for myself.
'Nice going.'
I think to myself as I sit on the previously mentioned old clock tower in Twilight Town. The place where I grew up.
Why am I doing this?
Because I just found out the one I thought I loved, who I also thought loved me back, was cheating on me.
Yup. Isn't it the most despicable thing a human being could do? I think so.
Who is this person, though? The one I keep saying "broke my heart"?
His name is Sora.
We had gone out for about a year. I loved him so much. We did everything together.
Really!
We ate together, hung out with the same group of friends, went to school together, even almost moved in together.
He even took my virginity.
Yeah.
Isn't...isn't that suppose to be special?
Ya know, like 'losing your virginity' is a big deal...
..right?
It didn't bother him at all, though. He could have given a fuck less.
Pardon the french.
I use to think he really didn't care about it because he had already lost his. (Mind you, he never would tell me who he lost it to.) That maybe it was because he thought we were going to be together forever. So he might have seen no reason to worry.
He didn't, though.
I was the only one who thought about things like that...
It's amazing how your whole world can change in one second. It especially hurts when you see it in action. Witnessing it. Your world being taken away from you, and finding out that your world never even loved you from the start.
That's right.
I saw it happen.
I...walked in on them. In my apartment.
It was going to be our apartment.
Sora was about to move in with me. But as you see, that didn't happen.
And what did they do when I walked in on them? You think they would blush and then try to 'explain', but no.
They ignored me. To lost in the pleasure to even acknowledge me. But, when Sora finally saw me, you could just tell we wasn't sorry.
He tried. He tried his damn best to come up with something. Anything. Anything at all.
But he couldn't.
He was far too late. I was already half way out the door. On my way out I heard him scream,
"I'm sorry, Roxas!"
But he truly wasn't. I just knew it. So I ran. Far, far away. I didn't even know where I was going.
Until ended up on the clock tower.
I feel so dumb. It was right in front of my face and I chose to ignore it. Oh, and it really doesn't help that the one that Sora cheated on me with? Yeah, a friend of mine. This really does suck. I've had thoughts of suicide. But then I'd just be 10x more pathetic than I am now.
Suddenly, a very familiar voice pulls me out of my deep thoughts and sorrow dwelling.
"Hey, Roxy."
I turn to face the person. It's him.
Axel.
A friend of mine that I've known since play pin days. He's a very tall, slender and rather attractive redhead with very interesting hair.
"Hey."
I reply, turning back to looking off the edge of the clock tower. I know what you're thinking. I just said that I thought he was attractive, didn't I? So why don't I get with him? He should get my mind off of Sora. Well, it really isn't that simple. It isn't a gay issue, though.
I'm gay. He knows this. He's gay. I know this. Oh which reminds me! He has a boyfriend. Well, more like had. That really isn't a problem anymore. His boyfriend was Riku. But you see, Riku is the one Sora had cheated on me with. So I guess those aren't really problems anymore. The problem is that it...could never happen.
It just...can't.
Axel and I were just too close of friends. I can't tell if he likes me back, so I do nothing because I am far to frightened I will mess up our friendship. And if keeping a close friendship is the only way I can stay close to Axel, then so be it. For now.
"So looks like we're in the same boat, huh?"
He say's, sadness obvious in his voice. I feel my heart sink. I hate it when he sounds like that. Which sadly, he sounded like that a lot because of Riku. But wait.
'How does he know about Sora and Riku? Did he know all along, and I was just that damn thick?'
"Uh...H-how did you find out?"
He paled.
"I...walked in on them...ya know."
How can something be so fucking ironic?
"Heh, we really are in the same boat then. I walked in on them, too."
"R-Really? Um...where?" He asked, still very pale.
"...my apartment."
I reply, trying desperately to hide my sadness while flashbacks go through my head.
He slowly walks over to me and sits down beside me. I sneak a quick glance at him. He's more heartbroken than I thought he would be, It looks like he cried. I close my eyes as he gently rubs his thumb across my check.
I feel my heart skip a beat.
Axel is always so warm, I just love it when he touches me. Why did he do that, though?
"You're crying."
He said with concern in his voice. Turns out I had let out a tear and didn't even realize it.
I wonder though, was that tear because of Sora?
Or was it because I hate seeing Axel in pain? I push away my thoughts and remember that the attractive redhead is right in front me, obviously concerned. I stutter out incoherent words trying to not look stupid.
"Oh...um...I-I-" Fail.
He cuts off my meaningless stuttering by pulling me into a warm embrace. Typical Axel. Pushing back his emotions so he can take care of me first.
"Shhh...I know, Roxas...I know,"
He say's while rubbing circles on my back. I could fall asleep like this. No lie. It's just so comforting being in his arms. I can't remember a time in my life I've ever felt more...more...safe.
He let's out a low chuckle, as I accidentally let out a sigh of comfort.
"Comfy, are we?"
I blush a insanely dark shade of red. Still in his arms, I try to hide my face in his chest as he tries to pull me off to face him. I assume he want's to look at me to see my blush, then pick on me. So I continue to fight my way into his chest. Until,
"Roxas."
He say's, seriousness dripping in his voice. I'm caught off guard by this, so I completely freeze. He gentle grips my chin and slowly pulls it up to face him. We just sat there like that for what seamed like forever, when I know it was only a short amount of time.
Me frozen to my spot, face still flushed but more of a light pink, slightly teary eyed, him still gripping my chin gently.
Just like that. Perfectly still. Staring into one another's eyes. His are filled with so many emotions. I don't believe I've ever seen this side of him before. It's...intriguing...and...intoxicating.
'How could just two eyes hold so much emotion?' I wonder as I see sorrow, guilt, and something I don't believe I'm familiar with. I think it's...love. Sora never had that look in his eyes. I see why now.
He leans closer...slowly...almost...painfully slow. It happened.
He kissed me.
This is probably going to sound so cliché, but it's true.
It felt amazing. One thousand times better than I've ever felt while kissing Sora.
I feel electricity and adrenalin coursing though me. This...this is...everything I've ever wanted.
Our slow and gentle kiss turned into a rough, and full of raw emotion make out session. Until we realized we needed oxygen, so we parted. I feel my cheek. I had cried more. Tears of happiness. He slowly cups my face as we sit there panting.
"Axel...I-" I try but fail. I'm cut off by his lips, as he lifts me into his lap, and I wrap my arms around his neck and legs around his slender waist. Then, he opens a portal next to us. Part of me wants to ask where he is taking me, but the other half never want's him to stop kissing me. Let's just say the 'other half' got the better of me.
We break apart as he lays me down on the all to familiar sheets of his bed. I've been over to Axel and Riku's apartment many times, seeing as Axel and I have known each other for so long. Same for Sora and Riku. I lay there panting as he climbs on top of me.
"Axel-" I try but are cut off, yet again.
"Shhh. I don't want to hear your apologies for not telling me. Hell, I did the same thing."
'He read my mind.' I think as he leans down.
"I love you, Roxas."
He whispers in my ear, as I savor his warm breath against my skin.
"I love you too, Axel."
His eyes no longer have many emotions. Just love. Pure, beautiful, magical, love. Something in me tells me mine are no different. I let out soft noises and cries as he lavishes me with soft, and gentle, yet tender and loving kisses and touches. As he looks me in the eye and say's,
"Roxas, be mine. Please? I've loved you for so long."
As I reply with,
"I'm yours, Axel."
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