Okay so this is my first ever fan fiction... didn't want it to long in case no one finds it interesting... please be nice constructive criticism if any. I don't no own Castle enjoy!
No one understood! None of them actually knows what it feels like. To get caught up in a gut wrenching obsession, to question yourself constantly. Spending ever spear second you have scanning paper work over and over, memorising every single detail.
I would hear people say she just needs time to get over it. How would they know? Until they are in my shoes they wouldn't know how it feels.
When I met Royce it was different, he understood. He knew there was a deeper meaning to why I became a cop, he didn't even have to ask, he just new.
He once said to me "You don't get over it kid, you never will, but one day, you'll remember something that she did or said that will make you smile."
He was my favourite training officer, the one who taught me how to be a cop, to keep going despite the obstacles in front of you, to never back down.
And I had to arrest him today. Someone who I always new to be loyal and honest. He didn't realise how much I idolized him when I was younger.
What was even worse was telling him I loved him on the phone. Letting Castle and the boys hear me let out all these emotions and then just to declare it an act.
Why did he betray me like that? For money! He destroyed something that money couldn't buy today, maybe if I had the guts to have called him, it would be different.
So. Please tell me what you think and I hope it wasn't too bad...