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I knocked on the door. Kanda opened the door and looked annoyed at him. 'Go away Moyashi.' And he wanted to close the door in my face. But I did my foot between the door. 'No, Kanda wait! I only wanted to ask if you know where Lavi is.' I hoped he knew where he was. Today I had to tell him that I loved him. I tried to hide my love for him, but it wasn't possible. He cheered me up when I was down, he gave me a hug when I needed him, and he always made me laugh. Kanda looked still annoyed at me. 'I don't know where he is, neither do I know where Lenalee is, you and Komui should leave me alone.' I got a bad feeling in my stomach. 'Alright.. Thanks.' Kanda already closed the door again. Where could he be? He wasn't in the canteen, he wasn't in his room, he wasn't in the hospital. And Kanda said Komui was also searching for Lenalee. The two of them alone.. I walked to Lenalee's room. He probably wasn't there but I just had to check. I just wanted to open the door when I heard her saying something to someone else. I heard my name. 'Don't you think Allen will be mad at us?' I stood frozen for the door. 'Why should he?' The voice who answered her.. It couIdn't be him. There was only one way to know for sure. I opened the door and looked at them with horror in my eyes. It was him. He and Lenalee on her bed. I didn't want to look further but my eyes didn't stop.
He was on top of Lenalee with his shirt off, kissing Lenalee. They hadn't noticed me yet.
I felt like my heart exploded. I ran away without looking over my shoulder. I heard Lenalee calling me, but I didn't care. I just ran away from this place. After a half hour I stopped. I was wet of the rain and my tears. I hadn't noticed that I was crying. The picture of Lenalee and Lavi kissing was in my head. How? Why? When? How could they be together as a couple? I always thought they were friends. But I never imaged them as a couple. I thought Lenalee liked me. Sometimes she flirted with me. And why? If she didn't like me, I would think she liked Kanda. And why didn't Lavi tell me he liked Lenalee? He always told me who he liked. It hurt but I could deal with it. The most time it were stupid girls with big boobies and big asses. But the last questions when, I really don't have an answer on. When it happened. I never saw them flirting or talking. If I wasn't gone to Lenalee's room, would I ever notice? Would I ever know what happened between them? I don't think so, I would always be blind. And maybe someday, when I told Lavi I liked him he would tell me that he already loved Lenalee. And I would be heartbroken. I'm glad I didn't told him I liked him yet.