A.N.: Okay, so I'm making another story. This is my first Mediator fanfic though. Also, I thought of this fic before Twilight, so you can all pretend that Twilight never happened only because I can't get my ideas across with Jesse alive.

Disclaimer: I always forget these, so I will say now and this will be for every chapter: I don't own any of the characters you recognize, Meg Cabot owns them. She is their ruler. Evil Laugh

The Choices We Make

Life And Death-Chapter 1

I was given an entire week to make my decision. I didn't want to choose. I really didn't want to, but I had to. Jesse deserves it…

The end of my week ends tonight at dinner. I need to tell them all. It's time…

I sat down at the dinner table that night. The boys had finally learned that my mom and I were part of the family and that if we were served first, then they could argue for the rest. But tonight I didn't feel like eating.

"Susie, is something wrong? You're not eating." My mom had noticed that I was just pushing my food around with my fork. It's too bad Andy was such a great cook.

"Yeah, she's a dork." Dopey said. He laughed but Andy grounded him for a week. He's not aloud to make comments like that.

I sighed and finally put my fork down. "Mom, I need to tell you something."

My mom looked worried. "Sure honey. What is it?"

"Um, do you remember when we were in New York and I was always getting hurt and I was always in trouble?" I had had a whole speech to say to her, but I couldn't do it.

"Yes, of course. That's not something one forgets." She was frowning and she had also put down her fork so she could give me her full attention.

I hesitated before I said, "Well, I'm ready to tell you why."

She nodded and said, "Start explaining then."

Doc looked at me with a fearful expression and he said in a quavering voice, "Suze, are you sure about this?"

"Positive Doc." I looked him right in the eye so he could see that I was dead serious about this. He nodded but he didn't look too happy about it. "I'm a mediator."

Doc blanched but other than that reaction I got nothing. There was just total and complete silence. My mom finally broke the eerie silence by saying, "And what's that Susie?"

"A person who can communicate with the deceased." I didn't even answer that. To everyone's surprise, Doc did.

"What do you mean David?" Andy didn't look too happy at that moment.

"Andy, a mediator is just what he said: a person who communicates with the dead. Although, I don't only communicate with them. I also end up having to beat them up and stuff." Mom was looking like she was having trouble comprehending what I was saying. I'm not saying that it wasn't hard to understand, in fact, it's very difficult.

"But how who David know?" Sleepy asked this. I'm surprised he was awake enough to ask it.

"I helped him with a problem that he had at one point." I wasn't about to tell them confidential information.

Sleepy looked up at me and said, "Wait a second…that time when me and David found you underneath all the rubble at the Mission. Was that…?"

I nodded. I didn't explain it anymore than that. I did say that everything would be explained later.

"How long Suze?"

"How long what?"

"How long have you been keeping this secret from me?"

"I've been able to see the dead since I was about two. I never wanted to tell you because I didn't know how you would react." I didn't like keeping secrets from my mom, but that was one of the only few I had kept from her.

"Then why are you telling me now? Hmmm? Why now Suze?" She was getting frantic. Her eyes got big and I saw her shaking in her seat. Andy was trying to help calm her down, but it wasn't working to well.

"Because I have nothing left now."

Doc looked frightened, "What do you mean Suze?"

I could feel the air getting colder as each minute went by. "Listen, I don't have much time. I just wanted to tell you that I love you guys and you have to remember that."

"But-"

"No buts. Not now. Just make me one promise please. Just promise me that you'll keep him."

Mom nodded and said, "Of course Susie, but I don't know what you mean."

"You'll understand later."

"Oh, and by the way, Father Dom and Paul are mediators too. Although, Paul likes to call himself a "shifter" but whatever. If you have to know anything else talk to them."

Dopey actually spoke, "Is that why you hate him?"

"There's that and the fact that he tried to kill me, and my boyfriend, and other people. He also doesn't understand that I don't and didn't ever like him." I shrugged. There's nothing that I could do about Paul, he was just…Paul.

I went around the table and hugged each of them. Dopey looked kind of afraid of me, but I didn't care at the moment. When I got to my mom I started crying. I couldn't help it. This was really hard. But it had to be done.

The moment I sat back down into my seat two figures appeared at one end of the table. They were both gorgeous although in different ways. The woman was curvy and looked like an angel. The man had a perfect shape and looked like a Greek god.

"Susannah. Have you made your decision yet?" The woman had a silky voice. I remembered it from last week, but Sleepy and Dopey were ogling her. It would have been funny in a different situation.

I nodded. But before I could say anything, my mom asked, "Who are you people?"

The answered, "We have come to offer Susannah a choice. I am Gabriel, the angel of life. And I am Loki, the angel of death."

Before they could fully come to their senses I said, "I'll do it."

Gabriel nodded slightly and said, "Call him to you."

I pictured Jesse in my head and called him as such. He came less than a second later.

"Susannah, what's wrong Querida?" He looked down at me with a worried expression. When he looked up and noticed the angels and my family he said, "And while you are explaining that, you can tell me what's going on here?"

"Not now Jesse. Just hold me, please." I moved into his arms and just held on to him. Gabriel and Loki already assured me that this wouldn't hurt either of us, but I wanted to be with him until the last minute.

"Alright, we'll begin now."

I could tell my mom or one of them would have like to ask about the situation at hand, but they couldn't.

As the minutes went by I could feel Jesse's heart beating slowly while mine slowly started stopping. It was getting harder to breathe and Jesse knew it. He was muttering to me in Spanish. I looked around to my mom and said, "I love you."

I didn't even wait for any kind of reaction before I turned back to Jesse and gave him a passionate kiss. To my family, we were both half there. You know, he was becoming corporeal and I was fading like he used to be. "Jesse. I love you so much. Please remember that."

"Of course, Querida. I love you too, but what is going on?"

I just shook my head at him. A tear escaped through my eyelash and Jesse tried to reach it, but his hand went straight through me. That's when he started to get it. He screamed, "No, Susannah. You can't do this."

I have him a wan smile and said, "I love you so much. I'll wait for you. I promise."

He tried to reach for me, but he went through me. Some tears escaped from his lashes.

"I'll be with all of you. Forever. If you ever need me, talk to Father Dom or Paul. They'll be our liaison. I love all you guys." Then I became a full ghost and Jesse was a human.

Gabriel and Loki said, "It was her choice and it is now complete." Then they disappeared the same way the came.

And Jesse was left to face the world and my family alone.

A.N.: So, how was it? Was it original enough? Anyway, if you didn't understand it then email me and I'll explain it to you. Fanfiction doesn't allow me to put my email address here, but if you click on my name on the top of this page, then it will say my email address. I also take suggestions. So if you have any, feel free to tell me.

-Catty