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I'll be honest with you.

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I'm done with life.

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This is NOT a suicide note by the way. just felt like specifying.

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I felt like doing this so that I will not tear out my OWN hair.

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I know what you're thinking WHAT A BITCH

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It's just that the way that things are going right now are (to put it lightly) not the best.

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Basically, LIFE SUCKS.

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I've got so many things stressing me out that I don't know which way to turn.

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School (well, not anymore) , Family, Work, Examination Results day, weak willpower, fear/anxiety, uncertainty, General self loathing, anger and frustration towards others ETC.

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This might be the sugar crash from the energy drinks talking (IT PROBABLY IS) but I can't even be bothered to actively BREATHE right now.

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Thank the lord for the human body's automatic breathing thing and self preservation instincts for keeping me alive.

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I can clearly remember the last time that I was truly happy with myself.

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A time when I literally enjoyed getting up from bed and looked forward to what the day would bring.

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May 2013

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Don't ask me why. I don't really remember what happened during that period, but thinking back just gives me positive vibes, so it must have been good, (Right?)

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Here's what I remember from that time: the countryside, excellent weather, a sweet playlist of songs, the fact that I had no clue who the Kardashians were, solving Quadratic Equations, The Stories of Ray Bradbury, The absence of Exams and other small trivial things.

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Things have changed, haven't they.

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Where did I go wrong? (anyone thinking of HOW TO SAVE A LIFE can just leave immediately)

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where did humanity go wrong?

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memes? NEVER

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Anime? Nope.

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Money and the concept of Monetised online entertainment? DEFINITELY.

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Fuck off Logan Paul

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This document is a roller-coaster, I know.

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For me, Comedy is a wonderful thing. but it's a double edged blade.

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For me, Comedy can mask pain, but it does nothing to soothe it. it only delays the eventual EXPLOSIVE breakdown.

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Comedy's a Bitch.

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Comedy is exhausting

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But I don't know what to do without it.

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comedy is my escape.

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Be funny and likeable, or perpetually live in sadness.

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I was brought up with a "suck it up" mentality. but I don't know what to do now.

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WAIT A MINUTE.

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WHAT AM I DOING?

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WHY AM I TELLING YOU ALL THIS?

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