All right, see you in the entrance hall at eight!
That was Harry Potter. I can't believe he asked me to Slughorn's party! As friends! Even though I'd rather not go as friends, it's still so nice of him! I know he fancies Ginny, though. She's so nice. She never makes fun of me, and she can usually help me find where my things have disappeared to. Like just last week she told me someone hung my dirigible plum earrings were on one of Hagrid's giant Christmas Trees.
So, anyway, he actually asked me to go to the party with him! He doesn't know it, but I like him as well. He's just so nice, and kind. It doesn't hurt that he grew a lot over the summer. He was so brave at the Department of Mysteries. Even when we found out Sirius wasn't there, he kept looking, to see what was wrong.
I understand how he feels sometimes, like he's all alone, and it's all up to him. After my Mum died, I was quite sad, all the time. I don't feel so sad all the time. I've got Dad. But he's got no one. So many people put their faith in him. He needs to learn that we will always be standing by him. Honestly, he can be a bit bigheaded sometimes. But I have to love him anyway. Oh my god! Did I really just say that? You can't tell anyone.
I know how he feels about Ginny. I can see it in the way he looks at her. I can see why too. She's quite kind, and really very beautiful. I'm just "Loony Lovegood". But I can't help liking Ginny. Even though they are all a bit close-minded, they are my friends. But really, Neville Longbottom didn't even seem to be listening the other day when I told him how Daddy had new evidence on why there are crumple horned snorkcacks.
I know Ginny, Harry, and Hermione really try. That's so like Harry. Always being kind and thoughtful about the way other people feel. They are all my friends. At least they act like it to me. I've never been able to tell if they really liked me. That's why I loved the DA. It was like having friends. I know Ginny really likes me, but I never could be sure about the others. Sometimes I'm their friend, and other times I find I've been left out. I hope they know it hurts me. I really don't have any friends but for them. So it would be so much easier if they could just tell me.
Do you know how that feels? To not know if you truly have friends? But I know you'll never tell what I've said. I trust you completely. People always badger me, saying I'm crazy, trying to get me to change who I am. I'm happy with who I am. It is bothersome though. I can't tell anyone, not even Ginny, about my feelings for Harry. Since I'm so different, they would expect me to like someone like me. I don't though. Can you imagine how they'd ridicule me then. I wouldn't mind, but I'd feel sorry for Harry.
Even though I really like Harry, I know how he feels about Ginny. He truly loves her. She's still crazy about him, even though she goes out with other guys. Boys come and go, but "girlfriends" are forever. Even if Harry asked me out for real, I wouldn't, couldn't say yes. I could never do that to Ginny.