Something is different with Cole.
I can't quite place it. Something's just....off. At first I thought it was because of the wedding, but that's not it. He's more confident, more secretive, more secluded. He leaves without an excuse, or even telling me where he's going. It hurts a little. I hardly ever see him, or know when or where he's coming back. I don't understand why that would be so hard.
Paige said that she didn't trust him. I told her that I was sorry. I am. But I know where she's coming from. Cole was a demon for a long time. I guess she notices the change in him, and assumes that he's a demon. I almost believe that there might be something there.
But then I must shake it off. Cole is my husband, and I love him. I trust him. I saw his demon side vanquished. In fact, I did it myself. He's not a demon. He's not. I know this to be true. I know that I love him, and that he loves me in return. I know for a fact that he trusts me.
But then why is he so secretive? Why can't he just tell me where he's going? The small side of me that believes he might still be a demon realizes how things happen so conveniently for him. His beeper goes off at just the right moment, to save him from a tough question.
And there are little things. Like the way he supposedly overpowered that demon with his bare hands, and stabbed him. How is that possible? If Cole is a mere human, how could he do that? I shake if off, try to let it go. I trust him, I think. I have to trust him. I love him.
Part of me wonders if I should've waited to get married to him. Maybe the wedding being crashed was some sort of sign. I realize now that the weirdness had started before the wedding. It just builds the fire of doubt I have. And doubt is never good. What if I'm wrong? What if there's nothing wrong? I don't know if I'm willing to bet our entire relationship on a hunch. Old Phoebe hated him for a reason. She told me to marry him anyways, and that's part of the reason I did, besides my doubts. And because Cole convinced me.
He's been doing that a lot recently. Gently coercing me into doing things that I don't want to. The wedding and moving out are the two things that come to mind, though I know there's others.
Oh Goddess. What if he's seeing someone else? What if he's cheating on me, and that's why he's been acting differently? Oh, I don't think I could take that. These little nagging doubts threaten to tear me apart. Everything he does, I now question. What is he actually doing?
He disappears far too often for my liking. I wish for once he'd give me a reason, a place, other than 'the office'. What if he's going to see his secretary, whom he's having an affair with?
Something Paige said comes to mind. What kind of job comes with perks like that? I mean, a Porscha? I suppose on some level he's been blinding me with his sudden romantic acts. He did send Piper and Leo on a honeymoon in Hawaii. But what if that was just to get rid of them? He brought me chocolates, though, and flowers. And rented us a hotel room. And let me work at the building. And told me we could buy it if we wanted to. I didn't at first, but he convinced me.
So where am I going with all this? Is Cole a demon or isn't he? What, exactly, is going on? Because I know that something is. He can't lie that well. No, something is different about Cole.
I can't quite place it. Something's just....off. At first I thought it was because of the wedding, but that's not it. He's more confident, more secretive, more secluded. He leaves without an excuse, or even telling me where he's going. It hurts a little. I hardly ever see him, or know when or where he's coming back. I don't understand why that would be so hard.
Paige said that she didn't trust him. I told her that I was sorry. I am. But I know where she's coming from. Cole was a demon for a long time. I guess she notices the change in him, and assumes that he's a demon. I almost believe that there might be something there.
But then I must shake it off. Cole is my husband, and I love him. I trust him. I saw his demon side vanquished. In fact, I did it myself. He's not a demon. He's not. I know this to be true. I know that I love him, and that he loves me in return. I know for a fact that he trusts me.
But then why is he so secretive? Why can't he just tell me where he's going? The small side of me that believes he might still be a demon realizes how things happen so conveniently for him. His beeper goes off at just the right moment, to save him from a tough question.
And there are little things. Like the way he supposedly overpowered that demon with his bare hands, and stabbed him. How is that possible? If Cole is a mere human, how could he do that? I shake if off, try to let it go. I trust him, I think. I have to trust him. I love him.
Part of me wonders if I should've waited to get married to him. Maybe the wedding being crashed was some sort of sign. I realize now that the weirdness had started before the wedding. It just builds the fire of doubt I have. And doubt is never good. What if I'm wrong? What if there's nothing wrong? I don't know if I'm willing to bet our entire relationship on a hunch. Old Phoebe hated him for a reason. She told me to marry him anyways, and that's part of the reason I did, besides my doubts. And because Cole convinced me.
He's been doing that a lot recently. Gently coercing me into doing things that I don't want to. The wedding and moving out are the two things that come to mind, though I know there's others.
Oh Goddess. What if he's seeing someone else? What if he's cheating on me, and that's why he's been acting differently? Oh, I don't think I could take that. These little nagging doubts threaten to tear me apart. Everything he does, I now question. What is he actually doing?
He disappears far too often for my liking. I wish for once he'd give me a reason, a place, other than 'the office'. What if he's going to see his secretary, whom he's having an affair with?
Something Paige said comes to mind. What kind of job comes with perks like that? I mean, a Porscha? I suppose on some level he's been blinding me with his sudden romantic acts. He did send Piper and Leo on a honeymoon in Hawaii. But what if that was just to get rid of them? He brought me chocolates, though, and flowers. And rented us a hotel room. And let me work at the building. And told me we could buy it if we wanted to. I didn't at first, but he convinced me.
So where am I going with all this? Is Cole a demon or isn't he? What, exactly, is going on? Because I know that something is. He can't lie that well. No, something is different about Cole.