Alright, this is my first time writing a fan.fic on Gensomaden Saiyuki, so please be gentle on reviews! This is going to be short fic, depicting the bond and care between Goku and Sanzo. I don't know if this should be Yaoi though. I've never written one.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki or any of the characters!

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"Get out." Sanzo muttered.

"B-But why, Sanzo? Aren't you hungry? I could get you a meat bun if you'd like." Goku stammered.

"I SAID GET OUT!" Sanzo shouted, losing his patience.

Goku lowered his eyes, and then his head. Sanzo was always like this during rainy days. He didn't like it. He didn't want Sanzo treating him this way. Goku's eyes watered up and soon tears were falling silently to the ground. Wiping his tears away, Goku decided to try and cheer Sanzo up again.

"S-Sanzo, would you like a hot drink?" Goku asked timidly.

"Why are you still here? Did you not hear my words properly? I said get out and leave me alone!" Sanzo yelled once again.

"F-Fine, Sanzo. I'll leave you alone." Goku stuttered.

Goku turned his back and started walking to the door. Hesitating, he looked back. Sanzo was still sitting on the chair chain smoking, his back facing the door. Giving a heavy sigh, Goku walked out of the door.

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"Is that corrupt monk pissed off again?" Gojyo questioned.

"Don't say that about Sanzo… He's just in a bad mood." Goku defended.

"Ahh… He's always like that during rainy days," Hakkai added in. "Don't think too much about it, alright?"

"T-Thanks, Hakkai," Goku whispered. "I'm going out to get some food for Sanzo."

"Be careful." Hakkai commented out of concern.

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"Fucking hell. Why was I so thoughtless towards Goku? He's only a kid, trying to cheer me up." Sanzo thought to himself after a period of deep thinking.

"But I've always been like this, haven't I? No one can cheer me up, or erase my past. The wounds have never healed, and even if they did, the scars refuse to fade away."

Sanzo looked out the window and saw the figure of Goku running through the rain into town. What the hell is that kid up to?

"Was it really my fault that Master was killed?" Sanzo questioned himself inside his head.

"No it's not. You know that for yourself. You didn't even know demons broke into his room. It's not your fault at all." A voice inside him argued.

"Yes it is. I failed to protect the one that held such importance in my life. It's my entire fault."

"Is that why you're holding yourself in such seclusion? Refusal to open the door to your heart for anyone else's presence to enter? For the fear of getting hurt?"

"No, NO! That's not it! I just want to be alone. I just want to be with me. I don't need anyone else's interference in my life. I should care for myself, only myself."

"When you lose someone that you care for again, you're going to think back, point at yourself and laugh, Genjo Sanzo. The world isn't always what you want it to be like."

"URUSAI!!!" Sanzo scolded the voice in his head and shot a bullet from his gun to the ceiling. He was getting frustrated.

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"Did you hear that?" Gojyo asked Hakkai.

"Yes. Sanzo's in confusion, once again. Don't blame him. He's been through a really rough past, just like the rest of us." Hakkai said with a smile.

"Maybe none of us have truly forgotten our past…" Gojyo remarked.

Hakkai's smiling face fell into a frown and his eyes averted away. Thinking about Kanan only makes him more depressed. He wanted to forget everything. He smiled again and looked at Gojyo.

"But we will find ways to hide it, Gojyo. We will."

The truth behind the smile.

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Flashback.

"Master!!!" A young Sanzo yelled as he rushed into the room.

A dead, lifeless body lay before him. Blood continually flowed from his wounds, yet his Master's face was still smiling. Never did he once see his Master without a smile.

"Master… WAKE UP!!!" Sanzo cried.

Sanzo dashed to the body and shook it roughly. Tears dripped from the corner of his eyes as he tried waking his Master up.

"Master… It's not funny anymore! Wake up! I know you can't die!" Sanzo bellowed.

But deep down in his heart, he knew his Master was dead. The only person that believed in him and trusted him was taken away from him forever. Sanzo cursed the Gods out loud and kept shaking his Master's pale body. He lost the only person that meant the world to him.

His eyes averted to a nearby corner and saw his Master's blood stained robe. Crawling over, he held up the robe close to his chest and sobbed. This excruciating pain in his heart wasn't physical. He didn't want to be left alone in this world. He buried his face deep in the robe. The smell of blood seeped into his nostrils. His face was stained with the blood his Master had shed.

"M-Master…" Sanzo stammered before a few young monks dashed into the room to find the highest rank monk dead.

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Sanzo opened his eyes suddenly when he felt a searing pain on his finger. Dropping his cigarette, Sanzo realized he had fallen asleep while smoking. The cigarette had burned out.

"Fucking dream." Sanzo cursed.

"But isn't this reality? You have to face it… And perhaps prevent it from happening again."

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End of chapter!

How was it? I really love the anime!!! It's one of the shows that actually depict such depth of concern and feelings. PLEASE READ AND REVIEW!!! I will appreciate it very much, thank you!