Disclaimer: The characters are Stephenie Meyer's. Based on the television show Felicity.

Prologue

(Bella recording her voice)

Hey, Leah.

It's been a while since we've "talked." I guess I should start off by saying, I'm in New York. Yeah. I know. What the hell am I doing in New York? I'm here because of a boy. You remember me talking about Edward Cullen? Well, at graduation, I found out that he was going to NYU. He wrote this lovely message in my yearbook, and I thought, "Why not? I only live once. Right?"

I've never done anything substantially impulsive in my entire life. I've sat on the sidelines watching all of my classmates just do whatever they want. I've lived my life the way I thought my parents would want me to live my life. I was going to go to UW to make my parents happy. I was going to be a teacher to follow in my mom's footsteps and have a nice, quiet life in a small town just like my mom and dad. If I'd stayed in Forks, I probably would have married Jacob and helped your mom with the fish fry every weekend after Charlie and Billy went on their weekly fishing trips.

I mean, I'm embarking on my adult life. A life without parents. A life that's supposed to be mine. A life that's supposed to be worth living. If I'd gone to UW, it wouldn't have been my life. You know?

I've never been on a date. I've never really kissed a boy unless you count that awkward kiss after the senior prom with Mike Newton.

So, then there's this boy. Edward Cullen. The boy I've always watched from afar and never got to know. I've shared classes with him. I've sat next to him. He tells me these things in my yearbook. He tells me that he wished he'd gotten to know me. He tells me he thinks we might have been friends. He tells me that he's going to be on the other side of the country after graduation.

So, what do I do? I change all my plans and follow him. Impulsive and maybe a little crazy stalker-ish? Definitely.

God, Leah. Did I make a colossal mistake? Talk to you later. I miss you.

(Bella burns a CD and puts it in an envelope to send to Leah.)