Torn : My heart's desires

Formally Now & Forever

We changed the name because we felt that the name didn't fit our story anymore. We don't know which direction this story is heading exactly, we are just writing. We are a team and 1 is a Ramy fan and one is a Bamy fan. We don't want our feelings to dictate what happens with this story though. We are just going to roll with the flow of it.

New Story by the writers of Meant to Be

Chapter One

Amy Juergens POV

(Character description)

18 years old and I'm moving to New York to go to Hudson University, My boyfriend Ben Boykewich of 15 months is going to school there too. I'm so excited, for the next month I'm going to a music program at the school. My parents are divorced and my father remarried his first wife Kathleen. So now I have a step sister named Grace, we are best friends. She is also going to Hudson University and we are sharing a dorm together. My little sister Ashley is in Italy for cooking school with her boyfriend Toby. My little brother Robbie is with my mom.

I want to get my degree and become a teacher or a writer. I love music, but I don't think I'm good enough for it be a career for me.

I love my boyfriend Ben. He is the sweetest guy I've ever known. His mother Sarah passed away when he was 9 years old. His father Leo is an amazing dad and person. My father and Leo are really good friends. Everyone expects Ben and me to get married, just like Leo and Sarah who were also high school sweethearts.

After my one month music program, Ben and I are going to Italy for the rest of the summer until school starts.

Amy POV

(Present day)

Graduation was a few days ago and I'm packing all my clothes and stuff for New York. As I sit down on my bed after I finish packing my stuff, my cell phone rings.

Amy: "Hey!"

Ben: "Hey, how's it going babe?"

Amy: "Good, just finished packing my clothes."

Ben: "Great, Do you want to grab a bite to eat?"

Amy: "Sure, that sounds good."

Ben: "I'll be there in about 30 minutes, love ya babe."

Amy: "Love you too."

We chose to eat at the best pizza parlor (which is owned Ben's dad) in our smaller beach town here in Pismo Beach, California. I've lived here my whole life, Ben and his father moved here after his mother passed away. They used to live in Los Angeles which is about 3 hours from here.

Amy: "I can't wait till this weekend when we head to New York!"

Ben: "I talked to my dad today and my cousin in Italy is getting married. So my dad and I are going to go over there to attend the wedding and visit with family. Then we can meet when your music program is over."

Amy: "It's going to be my first time going to New York and I wanted you there with me! You have been there many times and I wanted you to show me around."

Ben: "I'm sorry babe. I can show you around when we both get back from Italy and start school."

Amy: "Okay. What about that Maria girl that you used to see when you would go to Italy, she is still friends with your cousin. Are you going to be seeing her?"

Ben: "If I do see her, it wouldn't be on purpose."

Amy: "Whatever Ben! I'll just stay in New York for the summer and you can have fun with your other girlfriend in Italy."

Ben: "Come on Amy, you aren't being fair."

Amy: "Let's go, I want to go home."

Ben: "Maybe we need time apart from each other anyway."

Amy: "Are you breaking up with me?"

Ben: "No, but maybe we need a break. Time to see how we really feel and then continue our relationship when I get back from Italy."

Amy: "Fine Ben."

I get home and throw my bag to the floor. Hopefully this is just one of our petty fights that will be forgotten in a couple days. I take a shower and go to sleep.

The next morning I wake up and there is no text or calls from Ben. He usually text me "Good Morning Babe" or something like that. I wonder why he needs to think about how he feels… Just a week ago he mentioned something about us getting married in a year or so. I just need to focus on school! Ben is usually such a gentle person and would always apologize or fix things with us before we went to bed. Maybe he is breaking up with me and is just letting me down easy.

It has been a couple days. Grace and I are driving to New York together. I have talked to Ben once since he has been in Italy and he was just calling to let me know that he was there and is doing okay. On the drive there I decide to open up to Grace about my issues with Ben.

Amy: "I think Ben might have broken up with me."

Grace: "What happened, what did he say?"

Amy: "He said that we need time apart from each other to see how we feel."

Grace: "Wow that's crazy. He always seemed ready to run away and get married."

Amy: "I know but he really isn't acting like himself, maybe he thinks there is better out there for him."

Grace: "I doubt it, just give him time. He will come around."

After our 3 day road trip to New York, we finally get here and I love it! We get in late Sunday night, the beautiful lights and skyline is just amazing! We stay in a hotel tonight until tomorrow when we go and sign for our dorm and get our keys.

In the morning Grace and I get ready super early for our meeting to get the keys to our dorm. I'm wearing a black lace tank top by , Hollister Denim skirt and some cute sandals. I curl my hair which is usually very long but at the start of summer I decided to cut it, not to short it's still past my shoulders. My hair color is light brown and when I got it cut I put some highlights, it still looks natural. I finish getting ready by putting on some light make-up.

After our meeting we decide to visit the coffee shop near the library at our school. Grace and I sit there chatting while drinking some coffee and eating a muffin.

Grace: "There are a lot of hot guys here!"

Amy: "Shhh, what if they hear you."

Grace: "Look to the left, that guy looks like Damon from The Vampire Diaries and he is totally checking you out."

Amy: "I prefer Stefan, haha I'm just playing."

Grace: "He is coming over here!"

Amy: "Oh my gosh"

Once this very good looking guy gets to our table he introduces himself to us. "Hey I'm Justin; it's nice to meet you."

Grace: "Nice to meet you too Justin! I'm Grace, and this is my sister Amy."

Amy: "Hi, nice to meet you."

Justin: "Where are you guys from?"

Amy: "California"

Justin: "So Amy, would you want me to show you around New York sometime?"

Amy: "I have a boyfriend."

Justin: "Bummer, well we can still hang out and be friends. Here is my cell phone number if you want to hang out sometime."

He hands me the paper with his phone number, and leaves to his table. After this Grace and I get up to go to head to our dorms to get everything settled in. We are heading to exit of the coffee shop, I'm looking down because of some guys staring at both of us and I feel a little shy. I look up before we get to the entrance and I see him.

He is Tall, muscular but not too bulky, dark brown perfect hair, dark mysterious eyes. There is like an alarm going off in my brain or actually my whole body, I can't stop staring at him. I drop my purse and before I can pick it up, he picks it up and smiles with this OH MY GOODNESS beautiful smile, If I were to look up perfection in the dictionary it would have a picture of him.

He says "Here you go."

Amy: "Thank you."

"My name is Ricky Underwood, nice to meet you."

Amy: "Hi, I'm Amy Juergens, nice to meet you too"

I feel like sprinting out of here because my insides feel like they are going to burst any moment. Why is this happening? I feel like such a dweeb.

Ricky: "Can I have your number? Maybe we can hang out sometime?"

Amy: "Sure"

I tell him my phone number and he saves it on his cell phone.

As I walk away I have a million thoughts running through my mind. No, I'm not going to feel guilty about this. Ben can't expect me to wait around all summer while he has fun. Plus Ricky and I can be friends.

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Thank you so much for all the love and support with Meant to be, you have inspired us to start a new story. We will still update Meant to be but we love to write and this idea popped up and we thought we would roll with it and see what you guys think…