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Author's Note: Thanks for those who reviewed my first fic, Cry. Please review this fic. Flames are welcome.

I was walking through the sidewalks.

"What is your mission?" asked a voice in my earpiece.

"I must destroy the teen titans." I replied.

"Why?" he asked again.

"To destroy and rebuild the city under your hand."

"Very good, Raven, I have trained you well."

What have I done? I lied to my friends, I joined the enemy, I lost myself, and I did it for an emotion.

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
I'm going under

"Titans go!" I heard him shout. He's here.

"Raven, remember, I still have your father under my command. It is either you kill the titans or I will set your father free. Free to spread my reign. Free to make your life as miserable as he can." Said the voice in my earpiece. "It will be your mistake."

I was attacked by a green glowing fireball through my chest and I sent her back by a black force, pinning her down to the ground, sending a force to her neck.

"Friend Raven, why?" she choked.

Just as her two other friends were to hit her, she brought them down in a split second. She covered them in a dark shield and sent a bomb inside. They were pleading for mercy. They were suffocating.

"Rae." "Raven."

As soon as Raven released her three friends, they lay motionless.

"Aaaaargh!"

A flash of his black cape passed my eyes as his fist was through my cheek.

"What did you do?" I heard him say. "Raven, you killed your friends, our friends."

No, I just can't fight back.

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again

"Raven, go!" said the voice again.

"I can't." I replied, defeated.

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

A tear almost went down my cheek. No, he can't make me cry. Stop!

"No!" I shouted. I turned into a black four-eyed bird.

My powers couldn't be controlled. I wasn't doing any of this.

Black needles were cutting through his flesh.

He was screaming. Desperately trying to stand up.

It was either my friends will die, or I will free my father. What will I choose? What must I choose? Killer or victim?

Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

My emotions were unstoppable. I was expressing my anger and hurt to him. It all seemed unfair.

Suddenly, I stopped, and crouched down to the ground, with my hands to my ears.

A blast of electricity was sent through my body, sending shivers to my spine. Am I the victim again?

I'm going under
Drowing in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

No, I can't be the victim. Never again will I be used. If I kill I will be free, but if I don't, I die under Trigon's hands.

What am I supposed to do?

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away

I have to find a way. No, I will not listen to his cries. I will not be fooled. I needed to complete my life mission. I stretched out my wings and flew to him.

But instead of defending, I attacked.

I won't be broken again

Just as I could feel his heavy breath through my face, I stopped dead in my tracks. I can't attack him. I just can't. Another shot of electricity passed my body as I fell to the ground, with my eyes wide open.

"Attack, Raven, attack!"

My lip was trembling, and sent another black needle to him. It went through his chest, and blood dripped as fast as the black ravens tears.

I've got to breathe I can't keep going under

I am a killer. An evil, despicable, and regretful killer.