What About Me?

by jenna72

This is something that i might have put into a book called 'Ways To Live Forever' it's the diary of a boy with cancer.. so this is like part of an entry or something. he's just decided to come off the pills because they are making him more ill and not really prolonging his life much. he has 2 weeks left to live... and is pondering what happens when you die...

Here's another fact. The two main causes for death are cancer and car crashes. I know this because I asked Dr Bill.

He visited again today. With no more pills, though, there wasn't much point, except to comfort mum. But it's my choice... if they aren't making much difference, then why have them at all?

But if I'm honest, I'm a bit nervous. What does happen when you, you know, die?

What's going to happen to me when my two weeks is up?

Am I going to just be nothing? Nothing but a corpse rotting away below the ground (if that's what mum and dad choose – I said it was up to them to decide – which made mum cry even worse). I couldn't bear that. Almost twelve years of playing games, fighting with Ella, writing lists... and then just ... nothing?

I hope something happens. Something nice, preferably. Maybe Felix will be there. Though I'm not sure he made it to some place nice. He was Felix after all...

I hope he's somewhere nice. He deserves it, after all he went through.

But me? What about me?