Levi felt his knees hit the earth, the red mud below him squelching as he collapsed. His arms fell limp at his sides, the blood-covered swords in his palms sliding out of his slack grip. The green cape wrapped around his shoulders was torn at the fringes, the shredded straps holding it to his shoulders suddenly giving way and sending the light fabric sailing away in the cold breeze.

Levi muttered incomprehensibly to himself, his voice cracking at nearly every other word. He stared around him, his eyes wide and tears flowing freely from his eyes as he took in the carnage around him. He'd killed all the titans in the surrounding area, but it didn't matter to him anymore.

Nothing mattered to him anymore.

The wind picked up suddenly, rippling through Levi's blood drenched-hair and stained white shirt. His broken, hot tears barely had a chance to form in this wind before they were torn away from his face. Levi squeezed his eyes shut, a guttural scream tearing through his entire body and echoing into the still night air as he shrieked.

Levi had spent his entire childhood working against the government, surviving off stolen food and scraps.

And yet, never in his life had Levi ever felt so alone.

Levi's head drooped, blood streaming off his face and running onto his shirt. He pressed his hands against the sides of his face as he screamed again, tearing at his hair and leaning over in pain.

Levi's brain went on overdrive, memories flooding through his brain as he cried.

Erwin, with his bushy eyebrows, briefing him on a mission. Which one, he couldn't remember. He just knew that the thought of where he was now made him sick.

Hanji, too. Her loud, exuberant personality had always annoyed Levi and made him want to kill something. Despite this, he would give so much to hear her rambling again, if only one more time.

Historia Reiss. Levi didn't particularly care that she was the heiress to the throne; her happy attitude and overall positivity had improved the moods of everyone around her.

A lot of good it did her. Levi had to watch as her body torn to shreds by the rabid titans.

Mikasa. He hated the bitch with a passion, but he couldn't deny the fact that she had been a good soldier, and a great sister to Eren.

Eren.

Levi choked and clutched at his throat, gripping the soft flesh hard enough to draw blood. He coughed, new tears streaming from his eyes and dripping onto the blood covered earth before him.

Levi screamed into the air again, wrapping his arms around his waist and screwing his face up in desolation. Eren. The man that he'd loved more than anything else in the world.

A rush of memories flooded through Levi's head, making the pounding in his head worse. He keeled over, his forehead touching the earth and coating his hair in diluted mud.

Levi saw Eren's smile when he'd admitted his feelings to him. The happy, beautiful, giddy grin on his face as he'd kissed Levi for the first time, his hands gripping Levi's shoulders like his life depended on it.

Eren's sleeping features after the night they'd made love for the first time, a faint blush on his cheeks adorning his otherwise serene face.

The look of complete and utter happiness Eren would have after finishing a mission, the smile always sending shivers of happiness and joy up Levi's spine.

Levi clenched his fists on the sides on his face as one last memory surfaced. The shriek that flew from his mouth was louder than the last, and it held all of the pain and anguish Levi had felt.

"STOP! PLEASE! JUST-" Levi broke down, collapsing completely and sobbing.

"Just, please... no... I can't—I can't see him die again..."

Levi saw Eren, his right arm extended towards Levi as he ran at him, fear filling his eyes with tears as the titan chased him towards Levi. Eren's Maneuver Gear had malfunctioned, the ropes falling apart from overuse before he could get to safety.

Levi tried to save him. He really did.

But even Humanity's Strongest wasn't fast enough to save Eren as the Titan crushed him beneath its massive foot.

After he saw Eren die, Levi was in shock. His entire life seemed to flash before his eyes; every moment leading up to him falling in love with Eren.

And every moment leading up to him killing every last one of those fucking titans.

Levi's hands trembled as he looked down at his twin blades, their dulled edges glinting in the light. He still had one last replacement pair of blades, in case of emergency.

Levi felt his mind wander back to Paradis.

There was nothing for him back there. The entire kingdom was corrupt, its leader nothing but a fat asshole who didn't give a shit about the so-called 'expendable commoners' of his empire. Levi knew that if he were the only one to go back, there would be nothing for him there. Everyone he'd known; everyone he'd LOVED, had been on the mission with him.

And Levi was the only one left.

Levi ejected the blades from his swords' hilts, quickly crossing his arms and attaching his last pair.

Since joining the Survey Corps, Levi decided that if he had to fight with them and ended up dying, he would want to die fighting. As a hero. If only just to prove that the people of the underground weren't as weak as they'd been assumed to be. He figured that maybe it would give HIS people a reason to be proud of where they came from.

However, as much as Levi hated to admit it, he'd given up on that a long time ago. He hadn't even tried returning underground since he became a soldier, knowing in his heart that they weren't his people anymore. He was just too... different.

Even though he'd realized he wasn't a part of the underground anymore, Levi had still kept that belief.

That he should go down fighting.

That was probably why Levi was having trouble ending his own life.

Levi held the end of the sword directly above his heart, the blade piercing his skin lightly and causing blood to drip down onto his abs. He didn't even flinch, the pain inside of him far too overpowering.

Levi cried, screwing his face up in an emotionally pained scowl as he gripped the blade harder.

Levi shouted.

He shouted once.

Then Levi thrust the blade into his heart, gasping at the pain. His eyes widened, and he choked, blood filling his mouth and leaking down his chin.

"E-er-ren... I'm... I'm so sorry..." he gasped, taking deep painful breaths around the blade in his chest. He hadn't even released it with his hands.

"F-f-forgive me..."

Levi breathed out one last time, collapsing onto the ground. He stopped breathed moments after, his eyes losing their silver shine as the life slipped out of his body.

Levi's vision dissipated, Eren's beautiful, laughing face the last thing he saw before everything went black.