Disclaimer: If I was secretly Ryan Murphy, wouldn't this be the plot of Glee, instead of fan fiction? I think so. Therefore, I do not own Glee, this is purely for my own enjoyment and has no monetary gain.
Author's Note: This is AU. Some background information might be useful, so here goes:
Kurt and Sebastian have a past of the romantic persuasion,
Kurt has only just meet/ started dating dear ol' Blainers.
The Hummel's and Hudson's have united.
Blaine is the villain. Assisted by Dave Kaforsky. I like their characters in the show, but I need them to be evil..for my evil plans. Muahaha.
I've also taken some major liberties with the timeline, so don't expect anything to be in order, canon-wise.
Lalalala…Can't think of what less might be of importance, so just ask me if something needs clarification.
Author's Note, Part II: I know this story seems like it starts in the middle, but bare (bear? I actually have zero idea which one is correct) with me and I promise it'll become clear. Unless my muse is misleading me, in which case this isn't going to be pretty.
But let's find out together. (And I really apologize for how long this note is, I've always been awkward with introducing myself.)
"I never thought I'd see you again." Kurt's softly spoken words jar Sebastian out of his thoughts, and he lifts his eyes to meet the other boy's timid gaze.
In all honesty, Sebastian never intended to see Kurt again, especially after the way they had parted. But something drew him to seek out the smaller boy; something in his basic instincts just didn't feel right. So here he sat, in a coffee shop in the middle of Ohio. Oh, how the mighty have fallen, he thought to himself.
Of course, he couldn't let Kurt know that his reappearance was driven by concern, so he let loose with a snarky, "Apparently, I did something terrible in a previous life and am now condemned to have to look at your gay-face until I can be deemed forgiven."
Kurt tried to hide the sting from that comment. He chided himself for thinking that maybe Sebastian still had a tender spot in his hard heart for him. Determined to not let Sebastian see that his reappearance affected Kurt in any way shape or form, he nodded more to himself than Sebastian, and turned on his heel, moving towards the exit.
Sebastian gave Kurt a slight head start; just enough to make sure that his presence wouldn't be detected, and started after him. He knew the best way to make sure that his boy was perfectly safe in Boring, Ohio was to check with his own eyes. He had to validate that leaving Kurt was the right choice, that somehow by breaking both their hearts he had managed to do right by the pale beauty.
Exiting the cleverly named Lima Bean with determination, he strode towards his Harley, pulling into traffic several cars behind Kurt's large Navigator. He followed Kurt to the Hudmel residence, leaving his bike down the street and out of view from the house. Sebastian hiked his way into the backyard and up the tree closest to the window he had remembered as being in Kurt's bedroom. He sat in his post the entire night, vigilantly watching his tender hearted love.
That night, Kurt had a kaleidoscope of memories in place of dreams. His mind is fraught with images from his past with Sebastian, all dancing behind his eyelids at warp speed. He has flashback after flashback, starting at the beginning.
The first time Kurt meets Sebastian Smythe is when the need for a distraction from the misery inside him has led him to the bookstore on a search for new sheet music. He'll express his feelings in song, even if it's just in the privacy of his bedroom. He's absent minded as he drags his fingers over the covers of Broadway classics he has long since memorized. He becomes so separated from the world that he walks into a broad chest. Strong arms reach around him to keep him upright, and as he gazes into amused green eyes, the misery in the depths of his soul is forgotten. From that moment on, he'll forever equate being wrapped in those arms, pressed against that chest as being home. When the stranger opens his mouth and says, "Hello there, Bright Eyes. I'm Sebastian," Kurt knows that he'll never be the same.
The first time Kurt kisses Sebastian Smythe is when Karofsky has stolen something precious from him. He's curled up in a pathetic ball on Sebastian's lap, sniffling against his neck. Sebastian is doing his best to coax the problem from the boy with gentle words and soft touches, but so far isn't making very much progress. Finally, he seems to get through to Kurt when he hears the other boy tearfully mourn, "He kissed me. He took my very first kiss, and made it something full of hate and disgust. Karofsky got something that I was saving for you!"
Kurt is too upset to realize the magnitude of his confession, but Sebastian catches it. And so, he gently repositions Kurt so that he can look him in the eye and whispers, "Well, we'll just have to do something about that, won't we?"
With a gentle press of Sebastian's lips against Kurt's, the awful memory of being hate-kissed in a locker room is replaced with the promise of budding love.
The first time Kurt tells Sebastian Smythe that he is madly in love with him is when he's holding Sebastian during a thunderstorm. It's the first time he's ever seen the older boy vulnerable, and it just serves to bring out Kurt's fierce protectiveness. Sebastian had shown up at his door, shaking from a mixture of being cold and frightened with tears streaming down his face, and nearly fell into Kurt's embrace the second the door is opened. Later, when they are curled up together with Kurt holding Sebastian's head to his chest, Kurt presses a gentle kiss to his hair and tells him, "I love you. I love you so much. It's okay. I'll protect you."
Little does Kurt know it's the first time anyone has said anything remotely like that to Sebastian.
The first time Kurt makes love with Sebastian Smythe is when he lets the hope that it will be the two of them forever consume his heart. He can't imagine his heart ever not threatening to burst out of his chest whenever he sees Sebastian's lips curling into his trademark smirk, and hearing him drawl, "Hello, Bright Eyes."
It happens on a quiet summer evening; about a month before he begins his junior year of high school begins. The windows of his bedroom are open, providing the couple with a soft breeze and the soundtrack of crickets. Sebastian is gentle with him, holding him in his arms and looking in his eyes while a string of sweet nothings flows out of his mouth. Kurt is positively overwhelmed with emotion, but he couldn't imagine a more perfect way to lose his virginity. When he orgasms, it's with a declaration of never-ending love on his lips.
The first time Kurt has his heart broken by Sebastian Smythe is when he's coldly dismissed after he attempts to visit Sebastian. He hadn't heard from the other boy in a couple of days, a pattern they seemed to have fallen into. Kurt had spent the last eight months at Sebastian's side, always loving him and being loved in return. Things between them had been so good, until recently. Recently, Sebastian had pulled away from Kurt, no longer telling him he loved him, insulting him, rejecting his advances. Sebastian also had become thinner, more pale, with dark circles under his eyes and cheekbones too prominent. Kurt was worried, to say the least. So when he showed up at Sebastian's house only to be meet with the sight of Sebastian loading luggage into the back of a taxi, he shifts from worrying to full blown panic.
He rushes to Sebastian, pulling on his sleeve, his nerves apparent when he hurriedly demands that Sebastian explain everything.
Sebastian heaves a long suffering sigh, and faces Kurt. "I'm going to Paris. And I'm not coming back."
Kurt doesn't resist the tears building in his eyes, pleading, "Seb, just talk to me. I love you, just tell me why you're doing this?"
When Sebastian refuses to explain himself, Kurt's desperation quickly shifts to anger. "So the last eight months meant nothing to you? I mean nothing to you? You son of a bitch, I hate you! I hate you!"
Sebastian pulls Kurt away from him, snidely saying, "God, how did I stand your gay-face and nonstop bitching? You weren't that good of a fuck. Hopefully the pieces of asses in Paris are prettier and don't talk."
With that, he climbs into the waiting taxi and leaves Kurt behind.
With that, Kurt falls to his knees, designer jeans be damned, and wails his loss.
Inside the taxi, Sebastian can't stop the tears from rolling down his face. He knows Kurt is strong and brave, and will be okay.
He just isn't sure he will be.
When Kurt wakes in the morning, it's with tear stains on his face and a heart that's been broken all over again.