A/n- my new work? a collection of post-ep flash fics based on things characters (jane and Lisbon) may or not may think about happenings... with that, keep in mind: spoilers for the whole season 4.
4.1 -SCARLET RIBBONS
He told her the truth. No compromises. For once, he didn't lie. At all. And this time… she didn't even have to ask for the truth. He just looked at her in the eyes, and he told her.
"He is alive"
She didn't believe him. Maybe, she still doesn't. or maybe, simply… she can't care. Or she doesn't want to allow herself to believe it, because if Timothy Carter wasn't Red John, then… then, it's just a man, killed in cold blood for nothing. And if Carter died for nothing, then, the man she got to know, tried to protect is no more. If red john is still out there, and Jane is free, and failed to kill the monster, then… then, he can't really be free. He is free in the body, but in the soul, locked in a cage without exit, a life sentence he put on himself. And if Red John is still alive, it's for nothing.
If Red John is alive, and Jane killed the wrong man, and he is still ready to kill, then… then, she has failed. She couldn't control him, she'll never be able to.
She failed. She still does. She wonders if, at the end, she'll bury one, two or none. She doesn't know why, but she is scared to admit that she has any hope left. Many days, she thinks she'll bury Jane along with Red John. And that day, she'll bury once and for all her heart as well, closing her off from any feelings once and for all. Something that not Sam, her mother, or her father's deaths, combined, managed.