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/ The Prologue./ Story: Humanity? Sanity? Sorry, I Lost Those./ by Perfectly Insane/-/

Pinkamena was walking down the halls of school, wearing a dark grey hoodie and jeans with sneakers. Her hoodie pulled back as it was too hot for that today, she had her hands in her hoodie pocket as to keep the many wandering eyes from being able to see them, they were still bruised from yesterday, but most of them were too full of shock to pay attention to that though. She had been deemed dead, everyone who knew her had already grieved for her and some were still grieving. Now she's back and still very much alive, and very different. Her posture and attitude were different, her entire fashion sense had changed from positive and cheerful to dull and negative.

Her hair was no longer curly and bouncy, but now it was silky and straight. The hall was more silent than it had ever been, no walking or chattering amongst the students, no burst of tears of joy or anger at seeing her alive, just silence. Sunset Shimmer and the rest either weren't in the hallways or weren't at school, some just didn't have the will to move on, others couldn't take the pain and just took a break from school, the rest were just unlucky to not be in the halls at the time. Just the sound of sneakers against the floor of the halls as the ghost of Pinkie walked towards Celestia's office, then the sound of the door opening and closing behind her. That was when the conversations and rumors started, some chatting amongst themselves, others trying to find Sunset or any of the others. But nothing could have prepared them for the truth, it would have been better if she never came back. _

Pinkamena threw the table across the kitchen room, slamming into the wall beside of Maud.

" THREE MONTHS MAUD! THREE FUCKING MONTHS OF TORTURE AND PYSCHOLOGICAL RAPE, YOU KNEW AND DID ABSOLUTLY FUCKING NOTHING TO HELP. IN FACT, YOU EVEN SUPPORTED IT, YOU LIED TO MY FRIENDS, THE POLICE, HELL I BET YOU EVEN LIED TO YOURSELF TO FEEL BETTER. WHAT KIND OF SISTER ARE YOU?!"

Maud sat there with her usual emotionless face, staring blankly at the raged face of her sister, she always did love to express herself. After Maud got the news that not only did Pinkamena survive the test, but she had become the leader of the family business, she went to school to clear things up, and then came home, where Maud was waiting. While right now she didn't look like it, she's quite good at calculating and keeping composure, Maud was just one of the few people she would show her emotions to.

" A smart one, Pinkie I- "

" Pinkamena! I am not that person anymore; I don't deserve the name."

" Pinkamena, what happened to you was unescapable. We both know that everyone in the family has to go through the test, dad did, mom did, even I did. Even Inky and- "

" Don't say their names, I don't even want to think about them experiencing that horrible test, the one they died in."

A long silence was shared between the two, both never fully getting over the deaths of their sisters. They simply weren't fit for the tests, but that doesn't make their deaths any less tragic.

" The point is sister, is that what happened was going to happen no matter what either of us did. Nothing me, you or anyone else could have done to even slow it down. If I had tried to stop it, and believe me I came very close. Then not only would they have killed us both, but they would have killed everyone we knew. They would have killed your friends, they would have killed your pets, they would have killed everyone at the school who knew you, they would erase any trace of you or me ever existing. So blame me and be mad at me all you feel like for as long as you want, but I made the smart choice and let you and your friends live, I'm your sister Pinkamena, I'll always choose what's best for you, whether it be personnel or business."

Again there was a long silence, but this wasn't one of grieving. This was a friendlier silence, one of understanding. Pinkamena walked over to the door, opening it but not walking out yet. She looked at Maud with a similar emotionless face, but her eyes betrayed her and showed slight signs of forgiveness.

" I'm going to go out and clear my head for a bit, get the spare table in the garage and start making something to eat. When I get back we'll discuss business."

Maud looked at her with a look of confusion and curiosity, there hadn't been anything business related things planned for a month. One of the rules was to give the new leader a month to get used to their new life and set everything straight, so there wasn't anything business related to do for a good amount of time.

" May I ask, what business?"

Pinkamena was already a foot out when she stopped, not turning her head, simply just remaining silent for a short time.

" As my first action as the new boss, we're going to plan to deal with one of our biggest rivals, The Apples."

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" DON'T GIVE ME THAT SHIT PINKIE! 'Personnel Business'? YOU WERE GONE SO LONG YOU WERE CONSIDERED DEAD! SO YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO GIVE US MORE THAN THAT!"

It had been about an hour since Pinkamena had made her appearance, pretty much the entire group had shown up except for Rainbow Dash, she had been absent about a week after Pinkie's disappearance. No one knew where she's been, she just up and vanished, except Pinkamena returned and Dash was still gone. Pinkamena had been outside in the courtyard when they showed up, it was lunch break and she wasn't feeling very hungry then so went out and put her hood on and sat against a wall with her foot on it behind her, plenty of people tried to talk to her and figure out where she was, but she scared them away.

Then while she was trying to clear her head and sleep, Fluttershy had tackled her crying and mumbling incoherently and began to sob into her shoulder. She didn't let a lot of people hug her, sometimes not even her family, but Fluttershy was an…. exception. Despite her messing up her hoodie, she still let her cry into her, she had others. Then after Sunset saw her, she screamed at her with a face almost as red as the streaks in her hair, then she remained silent.

After Sunset's outburst everything stayed pretty much the same, Fluttershy was still crying into her strangely muscular shoulder, while still mumbling. Rarity was trying to pull her off saying she was making a scene and that she was messing up her makeup, not even paying attention to Pinkamena as if she was choosing the silent anger over the Sunset's kind of anger, which was surprisingly worse. Applejack had remained silent the entire time, she was the only one who had just walked over here instead of running. She was unusually calm for a situation like this, it was impossible to tell what she was feeling, only her and Pinkamena would know why.

Other world Twilight wasn't here, she decided to go back to Equestria and try to use a spell that would work in the human world, she hasn't come back. While the human world Twilight has been spending countless nights of isolation trying to find out where Pinkie was and how to find her, she most likely hasn't gotten the news. Everyone else had decided it would have been better to leave and let them talk it out, the courtyard was clear from any student or teacher, even the teachers knew better than to interfere with something like this.

" No I don't, look I don't have time for this so this is what's going to happen."

Pinkamena shoved Fluttershy off of her sending her tumbling into Rarity, she then fixed her clothes putting the hood back over her head and her hands in her hoodie pockets.

" We're not friends, not anymore. So you're going to leave me alone and stay out of my business. We won't communicate in any way, no calling, texting, chatting, not even so much as a friendly gesture. I appreciate that you guys were worried about me, but I'm back and perfectly fine. So go find someone else to be your comic relief, maybe Derpy or Trixie. But the next time you talk to me or confront me without me giving you permission, this is going to get really violent."

Pinkamena started walking toward the exit of the courtyard, hitting Sunset's shoulder on her way out. The only one who didn't react was AJ, and she glared at Pinkamena when she walked past her, and Pinkamena looked back. Everyone remained silent, even Fluttershy stopped crying out of shock, not knowing what to do.

Even Rarity started showing emotions as her faced turned brighter than it ever had before, she was about to scream at her the same way Sunset did, but AJ stopped her with a hand on her shoulder. Her eyes and face showing no emotion, but she whispered to Rarity that this wasn't the time or place for more outburst and drama.

" What happened to you? Who took you or what was done to you that made you like this? What happened to the joyous Pinkie I knew?!"

Sunset had screamed at Pinkamena as she got to the door making her stop, Sunset's face full of tears and eyes full of sadness.

Pinkamena turned her head around, facing Sunset and the rest with a cold glare and menacing face they had ever seen before, on Pinkie or elsewhere.

" I lost my Laughter."

While Pinkamena was walking away, she thought to herself, what she would have told her if she really wanted to.

*They turned me into a killing machine, and now I'm their leader. This business, this life. There is no getting out of it, just lots of death and destruction. The Syndicate makes you either full or guilt and self- loathing, or turns you into a sadist full of bloodlust and dirty pleasure at every kill. The thing that makes me the perfect leader though, is that I don't really feel much of anything anymore.*