Hello guys, so this is my first emison fanfic. It follows the PLL storyline all the way up to 7x16 and after that it's my take on the story which is sort of AU. This story is full of angst and drama but I promise you'll like the ending. Any way without further ado I hope you enjoy it and remember to leave your thoughts on the review section...

The blonde watched him run around Spencer's backyard and she couldn't help the smile that seemed to take up half of her face as he squealed when Marco catched up to him, picking him off the ground and sending him to a cascade of laughter. She couldn't believe how big he was getting, it felt like it was yesterday that she was holding him for the very first time in that dim lit hospital room. But here they were sitting in Spencer's backyard while her son played with her friend's boyfriend.

"Still reminiscing?" Spencer eyed the blonde, before she sat down next to her on the terrace, placing a plate of cookies in front of her.

"I just can't believe he turned four last week" Alison smiled, turning over to face her friend "He's all grown up"

"Ali he's four, not eighteen"

"I know it's just that he was my baby…" The blonde sighed "He was the size of my forearm"

"Yeah well we'd have a problem if he was still that size" The brunette mocked and Alison chuckled, before they saw the little boy heading straight towards them as fast as his little legs could carry him.

"Mommy!"

"Hey bud, are you done playing with Uncle Marco?" Alison wrapped her arms around her son, placing a kiss on top of his brown hair, while Marco walked back inside, Spencer following close behind.

"No" Jamie giggled "He just went to get some watew" he stumbled over his r, since he hadn't the sound down quite yet.

"Water buddy" Alison corrected, as her son climbed onto her lap smiling fondly at him.

God, he looked so much like Emily. He had her eyes and her smile, and there was a little part of her that hated it because it reminded her of everything that had happened, everything they'd been through.

"That's what I said" He argued "Can I have a cookie?" he pleaded.

"Just one" The little boy

smiled before throwing himself towards the plate, grinning at his mother once the cookie was in his mouth.

"Jamie, are you ready for another round?" Marco called out coming back into the garden, Jamie jumping back into his feet, Alison's eyes following him as they ran into the grass.

"You have to stop thinking about her" Spencer sat in front of her friend.

"What?" The blonde frowned taken aback by the brunette's question.

"You know who I'm talking about, the way you look at him changes when you're thinking of her" Spencer explained, looking back to the garden where her boyfriend played with the four year old, "I don't blame you, he does look like her but she's not worth it Ali"

"I'm not thinking of her" Alison rolled her eyes "I'm just 'reminiscing', okay? I just miss when he was a baby"

"Ali-" Spencer wasn't able to finish her sentence when her house's landline rang "We are not done talking about this" she warned before she walked inside to get the phone. Leaving the blonde alone once again, leaving her alone with her thoughts, and the blonde knew Spencer was right. She shouldn't be thinking about her not after all these years but she couldn't help it, she couldn't help but wonder how different her life would be if she had stayer. If Emily hadn't ran away.

Alison was abruptly interrupted from her thoughts when she heard Spencer walk back outside, but she could sense something was different. Wrong. Her eyes were blank and her features were pale.

"Spence? Is everything okay?" The blonde stood up immediately, "What is it Spencer?" she urged.

"It was the police…" Spencer muttered "Toby is dead"

-x-

The brunette stared out from the taxi's window, staring at the houses as they flashed by. It had been ages since she had even been near Rosewood and quite honestly she didn't want to come back, but she had too. Toby was her friend, at some point he had even been her best friend; so when she got the call she drove to LAX and hopped on the first plane to Philly. Nevertheless, she couldn't quite wrap her mind around the fact that he was dead, all it took was a dear on the middle of the road and puff he was gone.

That however, wasn't what had her heart beating furiously in her chest. She was going to see them, all of them, including Alison for the first time in four years. It had been four years since she walked out on the best thing that had ever happened to her, four years since she had seen or heard her wife, well now ex-wife. The last she heard of them was a passive aggressive email from Hanna that had attached a picture of their newborn baby boy wrapped in a hospital blanket, which made her heart swell. Because she hadn't only walked out on Alison but on their son too and it killed her to think of what she had done, but it was necessary, she had done what she needed to survive.

Emily stared at her phone's screen staring intently at the picture and she felt her eyes water. She knew who the baby was, but she couldn't keep her eyes on the screen for long, not after she read Hanna's email. It had barely been two months since she left and she couldn't bring herself to go back home, not after everything that had happened.

"Coach Fields?" A voice brought the brunette out of her hypnotic state, looking up she found one of the members of her team standing in the doorway with her UCLA uniform.

"Yeah?"

"We're waiting for you in the pool"

The car doubled on the corner of the street and Emily felt chills run down her spine as she passed the familiar house.

"Visiting family?" The taxi driver eyed the brunette through the rear view mirror.

"Umh… no, a funeral actually"

"Oh I'm sorry to hear that" He turned on the corner again "I'm sorry for your loss"

"Thank you" Emily sighed, as the driver pulled over in front of the Radley.

"Well here we are, that would be $20.75" He smiled taking the cash from the brunette's hand, "Good luck"

"Thanks, I'll need it" Emily whispered as she got off the cab, standing in front of the Radley, and she couldn't help but remember what Spencer saying 'All roads lead back to Radley' and apparently she was right.

So that's the first chapter. Not to long I know but I promise the next one will be longer. Also I promise everything will be explained.

See you for chapter 2,

Han