A.N. I will ship Chenny until the world ends. I can pretend that I'm not lonely, but I'll be constantly fooling myself. I can pretend that it don't matter, but I'll be sitting here lying to myself...
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl, if I did I would have never screwed up Jenny in season 3. She was so much more than that.
Sometimes I wonder how I would look at him now, if Dan and Serena had never made it in time last year...
Honestly, It's hard for me to open up to people. My problem is that I always tend to only see the best in them. I've got burnt so many times because of my own wrong assumptions that I'm starting to lock myself out. It's always easier to be harsh and self-centered, than to be vulnerable. That's where our opinions coincide.
I opened up to Chuck that night at the "Kiss on the lips" party... He forced himself on me.
But what's weird is that I never thought that he would've gone any further than just pressing his rough lips against my skin. He was desperately wanting for me to give in. Every since then I haven't stopped thinking about the pain in his eyes that always seemes to haunt him whenever he is around me. It almost feels like he's waiting for someone to make him believe that he can be more than this; more than the Chuck Bass that everyone knows.
They say that eyes are the mirror of the soul. That's not always right. It's impossible to see the reflection of Chuck's soul, his soul is behind of an oppressive wall and the only way to it is straight through that wall.
After his apology for what he did to me last year I couldn't stop thinking about him. About the disgust that I saw in his eyes when he was telling me how sorry he was. He gave a promise to me; a promise that when I'll move in with Lily and my dad, he won't be around...
I couldn't do it, I just couldn't... Lily was the only family that he had and once Chuck would be completely alone he would slowly destroy himself. The only thing that could save him (if that's even possible) was pure love. People who would love him for no matter what, people who wouldn't wait for anything in exchange, someone to be his; without regrets, secrets, hurt and schemes.
I couldn't let Chuck go. He needs everything that was left from whatever used to be his family. He needs Lily, Eric, Serena and now Dan and Rufus too.
And like it or not he needs me too. I was determined to get to his soul; and once I had made my mind there was no way back.
A few taps on my shoulder severed my thoughts and I turned my head to see my father's thoughtful face.
"Jenny we're here," he smiled and rolled out of the cab to step on the street outside the Van der Woodsen's penthouse, "It's time for a new beggining."
He was right. It really is.
I know that this chapter is pretty short but it's just a prologue. I would really appreciate your reviews, suggestions and critical remarks. Pretty much just anything that's on your mind. :)