Eternity of a Broken 'Forever'

Chapter One

"Our Lives without Each other"

By: Regina Guthrie

"Sometimes… You have to let things go Toshiro. She might be one of those things. There's other fish in the sea… And there's one out there that's right for everyone."

"Why'd you call off the wedding? I mean why all of a sudden you decided to? I still don't understand."

"Toshiro… I'm sorry, I know there is someone out there for you; you just have to keep looking. I won't forget you… and I…I love you too"

"Toshiro! Toshiro! Wake up, honey you're having a bad dream!" A soft sweet voice whispered to him as she began to shake his shoulder lightly. Her voice seemed worried and caring, although he still didn't want to wake up. He wanted to stay in his dream, even if it was a nightmare, Momo was present in it and he wanted to hear her voice; needed to hear her voice. But to his dismay the woman wouldn't stop and he was loosing sight of Momo's face little by little until his eyes fluttered open and... She was gone.

Toshiro shot up from his laying possission and started to breathe harder as reality hit him that she wasn't there. Collecting his thoughts he glanced over to his side to find his Fiancée sitting up by his side with a worried look on her face. Her beautiful long blonde curls were scattered all over her head from sleeping and her crystal blue orbs were flooded with worry. Toshiro smiled lazily at her, trying to calm the mood.

"Just a dream, nothings wrong." He explained while putting his arms out in front of her. She hesitated but climbed in and settled herself against his chest as he rubbed her back lovingly. She sighed out lowly and kissed his chest before looking up at him.

"You've been having these dreams a lot, and you won't even tell me what there about... I think you should see a councilor..." She whispered, her eyes still filled with worry. Toshiro shook his head and kissed her on the forehead.

"I'm just nervous, about the wedding and all. I'm sure this is normal for someone who's getting married to the most gorgeous girl in three months." He chuckled lowly to himself as her cheeks turned pink a little. She then giggled slightly and placed his hand on her stomach. Toshiro laughed as her budged out stomach moved on it's own. "And having a baby might have something to do with it." She giggled at him when he mentioned that.

"I guess your right, but there getting worse, sweetie. And it doesn't help when you won't tell me what's going on in that head of yours." She sighed. Toshiro shook his head and looked down at her as she smiled worryingly up at him. Toshiro lowered himself down and kissed her on the lips as he pulled her closer to him.

"I'm fine Ashley. Just give it time, it'll pass." He told her lowly even though he knew it was a lie. He wouldn't forget Momo. And he really did think that the reason he was having these dreams was because of the wedding and the baby. But they were just warning him that he was about to throw away the last hope for a chance with Momo he had. Ashley nodded as Toshiro began to lay back down with her in his arms. "I'm going to the daycare tomorrow, I have to get some files from Rukia... and maybe I could interact with the children a little before the baby gets here." Toshiro explained with his eyes closed. Ashley was already half asleep when he had spoken.

"mm... That'll be good." She mumbled as she snuggled closer to him and breathed out heavily. Toshiro sighed. Ashley's warmth was nice but he wished he had Momo in his arms. He still loved her more then anything. He thought he would have gotten over her if he got back with Ashley but it wasn't working.

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The hot beams of the sun shone down on Toshiro's mid-night black SSC Ultimate Aero as he speeded down the high way. People looked and glanced as he looked straight ahead, not looking or smiling at anyone like he usually did since Momo had left. His mind was too fogged. The wedding was in a month and he was beginning to have second thoughts.

He began to slow down when a sign that read 'Miami Day-Care Center' came into view and put on his turning signal. As he slowly crept into a parking spot he took a second to watch the few children inside play with blocks and dress-up clothes, plus other little things. He would soon be raising on of those. He climbed out of his car and made sure he had the doors locked before proceeding into the building.

The cool air whipped at his face as he searched around the room for the front desk. When he finally found it he walked up to where Rukia was tending to a small child that had appeared to have a scratch on his knee. She patched it up and told the little boy to run along as she looked towards Toshiro. They exchanged a smile before she ran in back and came back with a yellow folder.

"I believe these are the diagrams Ichigo scanned for you." She told him as she handed him the files. He nodded.

"Yea, I don't know what I would do without him." He chuckled before flipping through the thin papers.

"Me neither. Were you going to interact with the children today or was it next Tuesday?" She asked.

"Today." He replied as he looked over to the small gate that led into the play area. "I can show myself in." He informed before moving away from her and over to the gate. He eased it open as he watched the dozens of kids run around and scream. He was shocked at how many there were. And there wasn't one of them that looked calm enough for him to talk to.

Toshiro looked around and watched a few boys playing with plastic swords pretending to be pirates. There were two little girls and a boy playing house, five little ones playing with stuffed animals and barbies, while the smaller of the children were playing with blocks and Lagos. He couldn't see the other half of the children on the other side though. After a few minutes, Toshiro took a seat in a chair near the gate out and looked boredly at the kids around him.

He didn't even hear the gate open again, so when all the children stopped playing and stared he thought it was at him. There faces became mean and nasty as they stared. Toshiro sat up right and rose an eyebrow as a small boy stood up and put his hands on his hips.

"We don't allow cry babies to play with us! Go back home!" He shouted in his squeaky voice. Toshiro then noticed he wasn't talking to him when he glanced to his side to see the most gorgeous little girl he had ever seen in his life. She was only about two feet tall and she was holding a pink bunny in her arms. Her round face had pink splashed across her cheeks as her lips formed a pout. Her eyes were a beautiful emerald green and her hair was snow white and layered to her mid-back. She was wearing a purple dress that was spaghetti strapped and had a white bow on the hip of the dress.

"I-I had to come back. Mommy has to work so I can't stay home and there's no one to watch me." She said shyly as she ducked her head down lower. The little boy snorted.

"What about your daddy?" He asked rudely. Toshiro felt his anger increase as he watched the little girl begin to tremble. "What now? You gonna cry?" The boy teased as the other kids laughed. Toshiro stood up and glared at the children. They all stopped laughing.

"Do you think it's funny to pick on a little girl, kid? How about you come over here and I'll show you how it feels to be picked on by someone bigger then you." Toshiro threatened. The little boy stared at him in horror and ran into the second part of the day-care while the other children went back to playing. Toshiro glanced down at the princess before him as she stared, wide-eyed at him but then smiled. Toshiro felt a wave of emotion wash over him and he had no idea why. Her smile looked so familiar... almost like... like Momo's.

"That was nice of you to help me!" She squeaked lowly with a giggle and grabbed his hand. "You can come play blocks with me, we can make a castle!" She said happily as she led him to the blocks table. All the children looked at them and then left one by one to play with something else. Toshiro looked around puzzled, all the children were avoiding this kid.

"Why don't you have friends here?" Toshiro asked as he sat a pink block on top of the wobbly stack that was supposed to be a castle.

"No one likes me because I don't have a real daddy. Jimmy's mom said that kids that have only one parent end up to be bad people so he told everyone here and no one wants to be with a bad person." She explained as if it was nothing, but in her eyes said it mattered more then she let out.

"That's not true, you know that right?" Toshiro told her in worry.

"I know. Mommy told me that. I have a fake daddy anyway, but I don't call him daddy cause I think that's bad. We shouldn't call people that aren't our daddy's our daddy's because then it makes our real daddy's sad. Mommy and James say that's not true too, but I think it is." Toshiro froze when the girl mentioned James's name. He looked down at her as she tried to keep the blocks stable.

"I agree with you." He whispered. "What's your name, darling?" He asked anxiously. She looked up at him in shock.

"You don't know my name?" She asked. Toshiro looked at her strangely. Was he supposed to know her name? He shook his head no and she giggled. "Well I know your name!" She giggled.

"Everyone knows my name." He chuckled. She smiled and in a flash Momo's face was in the place of this little girls face. He blinked and Momo was gone. He was almost positive this child was hers and maybe, with some luck, his. If that was the case, the fight for Momo wasn't over yet, in fact it was just beginning.

"My names Momoka!" She told him. He smiled down at her and laughed.

"That, my dear, is a name suited for a princess." He informed her. Her eyes gleamed with excitement and she clapped her hands together.

"Really!?" She squealed. Toshiro laughed and picked up a plastic crown out of the dress up box next to him and easily set it on her head.

"Really." He insisted. Momoka laughed as the castle fell down into pieces and scattered everywhere. Toshiro laughed too.

"I'll just have to rebuild the castle because that's what princess's do, take care of stuff!" She insisted. Toshiro watched as she began to rebuild. After a few minutes Rukia came up to them in shock as she watched the two of them play. Her eyes became filled with worry as she approached them.

"There! It's all done! Now you can be the king of the castle and Mommy can be queen! While James gets to be the icky bird cage cleaner!" She laughed out of joy as Toshiro joined her. He felt as though he knew her all his life and she belonged to him. She was so loving and easy to get along with. He knew deep down she really did belong to him and she was his daughter, but he still needed proof before bringing it into the open.

"Toshiro, it's time for you to leave. The parents will be coming soon and I'd rather not mention to them that you were communicating with the children. Toshiro glanced up at her as Momoka frowned. She wrapped her small arms around his muscular one and shook her head.

"No! We haven't even got to play tea party yet! Just a little longer! Please, Rukia!!" She begged with a pout. Toshiro laughed and kissed her forehead before standing up.

"I'll be back tomorrow and we'll play tea party. I promise." Her eyes lit up at his words and she jumped up and down.

"Yay! I'll bring all my stuffed animals for you to meet tomorrow!" She said happily as she began to put the blocks away. Toshiro smiled and followed Rukia out of the play area.

"Toshiro, you can't come back. I can't allow you to see the children again." Toshiro's face fell dark and he glared at her. "Listen, it's for your good and ours." She tried to explain.

"I'm coming back tomorrow, I promised Momoka and I'm not going to brake that little girls heart. She has no friends here and I intend to fix that." He said sharply, even though he knew his plans were way different.

"Then I'll inform Momoka's parents about you, that way they know what's going on." Rukia said professionally. Toshiro laughed.

"You mean Momo, right?" Rukia's eyes widened at his guess, she went to say something but Toshiro continued. "Don't mention this to her or James. I have an evil side Rukia, one none of you have seen. And if you deny me excess to my daughter then I suggest you tell Momo and James to get a layer because I have a right to see her, if you don't want matters to come to that please keep this on the down low." He whispered to her before walking out of the room. Rukia growled to herself before walking back to the kids.

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"Sweetie did you have fun a day care?" Momo asked as she took a bight of her dinner. James looked at Momo with a glare, they both knew momoka had a hard time making friends and it was a tuchy subject for her. But Momoka looked up at her mother and smiled.

"Yep! Daddy promised to come and play tea party with me tomorrow! I actually had fun! He told me I was a princess and helped me build a castle!" Momoka said with excitement. Momo looked over to James and smiled.

"I didn't know you stopped by the day care today. That was sweet of you." Momo said has her eyes gleamed with happiness. It seemed as though Momoka had accepted James as he father. James began to say something but Momoka interrupted him.

"No! I said daddy! Not James! James never plays with me but daddy did and he was so nice and everything!" She gloated with a dreamy look in her eyes. She was happy she had met her dad and would be seeing him tomorrow. Momo's look disappeared and was taken by worry. James looked angry as he shot up out of his chair and glared at the little girl.

"If you won't call me daddy then who in the right mind are you calling that?" He screamed at her. Momoka flinched but then smiled sweetly. Momo looked at her worryingly.

"Toshiro Hitsugaya."

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Okay everyone! This is the sequel to "what money can't buy". I have this story planned out and it's ready for everyone to read. It's going to get better, I promise! Please review!