Disclaimer – Dark angel does not belong to me. I wish Jensen Ackles Did (L)

The Journey to Remembering

48 hours ago everything changed.

Max told me she was the girl I held and sang to. The girl who's eyes I dreamed in. why did she treat me so terribly? Was I that bad? How did I not know it was she was the one? All these thought where running through Alec head as he walked through the decrepit streets of Seattle.

48 hours ago I changed his opinion on me.

I told him… why? I can't believe I told him about our past. They past where he forgot about me, forgot about how much he showed his affection towards me, the way he sang to me, held me close and whispered in my ears the words I longed to hear. "One day…I will sing to you everyday. And I will hold you close and always protect you… I promise". I've only just realised that he is for filling that promise he made to me that cold winters night. Even though he didn't know it was I. why didn't he know? Am I that different, that bad? I mean I was bald then with just a barcode, how can he not remember my barcode?

*Note to self. Ask him how he didn't remember my barcode* max nod's her head slightly.

49 hours I sat on the space needle and thought back.

Flashback

I couldn't sleep, my eyes were heavy but no sleep would enter my soul. I wondered what would happen if I sneaked out… would I get caught…? No am too quick. My bare feet touched the cold-cemented floor I stood still making sure no one heard me slip out of bed. I was CO I could not be caught disobeying orders it does not set a good example to the younger X5's. I slow open the metal door trying not to make a sound. I stepped out and re-closed the door I turned left I headed to the library, it was so closed to Lydecker's office it was a risk, but I knew no guards would go there too, heard them moan about that place giving them the "Creeps" well they all give us the "Creeps".

I reached the library I headed to the top up three flights of stair and sat in the 'Drama' row I don't know why I was just attracted to that row. I heard music, a beautiful song 'Amazed' they called it. It was coming from Lydecker's office, what's he doing here so late?

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I rested my head against the shelf, I heard foot steps, I held my breath, I couldn't breath they going to get me for sure. A little head popped around the corner…

"Who are you?"

"I am X5-494… who are you?"

"I am Maxie. You look like my brother he's called Ben… what's your name?" excitement filled her voice.

"I don't have a name…" confusion fills his brow.

"Will you hold me?" Maxie whispered

"What?" X5-494 said with confusion a girl he had just met asking him to hold her.

"Hold me, I like you…your pretty… but if you don't hold me I'd kick your bum?" humour and excitement filled her voice. "Please?"

"Erm OK. You're beautiful… I've never held anyone before… what do I do?" Alec who was based on the floor with his legs crossed, his back straight and confused.

"Open your legs I will sit in the middle then you put your arms around me silly". Max replied like it was the simplest thing in the world. "This song is beautiful, this is our song. Mine and yours forever and when we're outside in the big world we'll be living together and having fun sounds good don't it?"

Alec wrapped his arms around her small frame. "Yeah it does Maxie. I promise I will always protect you…"

"Alec…" Max silently whispered

"What?" with utter confused X5- 494 replied?

"Alec… am calling you Alec…"

"Alec, Alec, Alec… I like it!" happiness filled his voice…"Alec, I have a name"

End of Flash Back

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I inhaled quickly. 'How did I not remember?'

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Too Be Continued