Throughout my six years of life, you could say, I had lived through more than most. Although the fear I felt now, was much worse, worse than anything I've ever experienced; especially along side the thrills that came with it. But this type of fear was special, it was a nice exciting kind of fear which I wanted more of. Though there was an awful sense of guilt that came along with it; I felt like I was doing something wrong. Being in love with someone shouldn't be wrong. But it was, and I had to stop it.