This is my first fanfiction on infernal devices and it's written a little differently. I wrote it as a letter that Tessa is leaving for Will. I hope you enjoy it!
My dearest Will,
I waited in the library. I listened for your soft footsteps at the door- the footsteps that never came. I knew I was fooling myself, drowning in my own delusional hope. But as much as I knew I was fooling myself I also knew I would continue to sit there waiting- waiting for you Will. But I can't do it anymore.
I have never been so obsessed in any one person or any thing in my entire life. My mind continues to play, that moment, in the attic over and over in my head, continually mocking me. I have tried to see what I have done wrong. What did I do to upset you? Nothing comes to mind no matter how long I toss and turn in my bed thinking of it.
I didn't expect you to get on your knees and beg for my forgiveness, whisper in my ear how much you loved me or rush to me with arms wide open. I just wish you would collect the shattered fragments of my heart and put them back together. It wouldn't take much effort, a simple word would have done it, if you had just told me you were sorry, Will. Why is that one word so hard for you to speak?
What you did to me was cruel, giving me all I ever wanted then snatching it from my grasp in one fatal blow. For all the anger I feel inside I still know I will continue to wait for the word you will never speak.
In some ways you are far worse than these clockwork abominations will ever be. Because for all the pain they cause me they are just doing what they are told. It's not their fault. You on the other hand know what you are doing. In time flesh and bone injuries heal, I doubt mine ever will. Can't you see that we could be perfect for each other?
I'm going to miss you so much and you probably won't even remember me in a month's time. I know you more than you realise Will. You pretend to hate everyone but deep down you're just too afraid to face them. All the apparent drinking and dating it's all just a cover-up. I don't know who Cecily is or what connection you have but I just want to help you Will.
With all my heart I wish I could have told you this how I feel earlier but every time I felt the courage rising slowly in my chest it stopped dead- right next to the remains of my splintered heart. So I'm leaving I'm not sure where I'm going or if I'll be back but I'm going to find what I really am. I have already said goodbye to Jem and he says he understands. I hope you can find it in your heart to do the same. Maybe next time we meet it will be under better circumstances.
So with all the sincerity and love my heart can possess I bid you farewell,
Yours only,
Tessa
I'm not sure if I will continue this, I may write a reply letter or I may just have them speaking after Will reads the letter there is a few options I'm considering. It depends if people like it or not, so if you have enjoyed it or if there is anything I could improve please let me know. Thanks! Oh and I would also like to mention that I get the inspiration from msrachelberry 's amazing story "I never told you" I hope she doesn't mind.