Author's Note: I have been thinking of this story for more than a year now and have decided to put it into words. I had this as a dream and I have all the chapters planned out. Summary explains most of it but I promise if anything gets confusing (which probably will considering my awful writing style) I will do my best and explain in the A/N's. :) suggestions are always welcome and I hope you like it.
"If they love you to death, never die on them"
- Drake
Love. It's beautiful but it does have it's consequences. Some times it's like a curse. Well not exactly like a curse curse. Curse like the difficulties faced by the people in a relationship with someone whom you know is the one.
I am broke. Completely broke and I can't be mended.
Things like wind blowing when you look at him, the moon being larger than usual, the happily ever after's all seem real when you fall for him. But it's not true. Life is not a fairy tale. Happily ever after's are not real.
—Flashback—
Tobias. I just love him so much. But sometimes it hurts. Love hurts, it's not easy to be in love they say!
We have been together since such a long time and we are now inseparable and I want us to be like this forever. Tobias is so loving and caring towards me that I know that there's nothing in this whole wide world that I want more than Tobias!
We'll be together forever and I believe this with all my heart. I was never this girly but that was before I met him. After meeting him, I discovered a whole new me which was hidden somewhere deep down.
Today marks the 3rd anniversary of our eternal love! Tobias has made me so lovey dovey and mushy now that sometimes I laugh on myself. Anyway... I'm so excited about today's anniversary party. We're not married or anything- though I want that to happen pretty soon!- it just marks the day we confessed our love for each other.
I'm in my room in my apartment-which is in Chicago- with Marlene and Christina getting ready for the big night and honestly... I'm nervous. I shouldn't be but for some reason I am. To be honest it's because Tobias has been acting weird since the last week or so. I've talked to Christine about it too but she says that it might be because of it's work or maybe some financial problems but if it had been so then I'm sure Tobias would have told me. Tobias works in a big company which deals with security cameras and stuff. Fun, right? It earns him good amount of money, can be said he's wealthy.
I have never been interested in his work and also his choice of interest, but I totally respect it and have no complains! As for me, I work in the tattoo parlour. I love art, it's the only way I lose myself and become something else, away from the world and worries. I let out all my feelings in those lines and express my self in them. Tobias finds it amazing, while for me it's magical.
Working in the parlour earns me good, mainly because it's a worldwide famous tattoo parlour, receives a lot of customers and also me being the head manager. And I work under this wonderful person Tori. She's amazing and very generous and extremely caring.
I just love my life here and can't ask for more!
I take a deep breath and sigh, for two reasons. One because I'm worried about Tobias and second, because I'm being attacked with makeup and curlers and what not by Marlene and Christina. It's been approximately 30 minutes since they have been working on me and I haven't even worn my dress yet. Ugh!
"Tris can you just hold for 2 more minutes. We are almost done now." Marlene says irritated by my whining every now and then.
"You're saying that to me for the forth time now Marlene!" I snap back. "And I haven't seen myself in the Mirror too!"
"Stop whining Tris. We are doing this for you only. And for Four too" says Christina. She winks my way. "Almost done! Just the final touches now!" She exclaims. I swear I will kill her if she speaks in her high pitched voice again!
She steps back a bit and so does Marlene to take a final look at me. "Can I see myself in the mirror now!" I ask.
Marlene laughs while Christina shakes her head. She must have seen the confusion written on my face because she laughs and speaks up the explanation "First you have to wear the dress and then you can have an overall look on yourself!" I roll my eyes and take the red dress, bought by my super friends, that Marlene hands out to me. Well At least there's a mirror in the bathroom.
I lock my self in the bathroom and strip. I put the dress over my head and down but meanwhile I also try not to look in the Mirror, well because I want to surprise myself too. I chuckle at my stupidness but Christina does things to you. After finishing up with my dress I take a deep breath and turn around.
My breath hitches when I see the girl in front of me. I look so different from my normal self. I look pretty, actually very pretty. Christina and Marlene gave me smoky eyes, light red lips and perfect amount of mascara and other stuff that I can't name really, I'm not into these things at all. My red dress reaches just above my knee and perfectly fits my body. It has black laces over it and a small wavy effect on the bottom. It is a sort of a tube and shows very little amount of cleavage and shows off all the curves I have, well it shows off a lot a skin too. I feel a bit uncomfortable but decide to push the feeling away because it's just for one night and it's for Tobias, my Tobias. Oh God I'm being too girly.
My hair are curled up into a bun with perfect amount of messiness and some ringlets around that frame my face. Maybe this is all too much?
I take a deep breath and turn the door nob and step out. Christina and Marlene stop messing around my room and turn around. Christina is wearing a tight greenish blue dress with high heels and her hair flows down her shoulder with perfect curls and Marlene is wearing a plain white dress with some red curly frills on the edges and her hair is pulled pack into a high messy pony tail They both look so pretty! Christina squeals and Marlene gasps when they look at me.
"You look beautiful Tris! Four will drool over you" Christina screams so loud that I have to cover my ears at some point. I just giggle and thank her.
"I think I'm gonna cry, Tris" Marlene says and wipes away a fake tear. I laugh again at her and give them both a small hug.
"Thank you both so much for this. You both look so pretty! And I would have never been able to do this without you!" I say to both of them and they just proudly nod.
"We know, Tris." Marlene says in a jokingly proud tone. I chuckle and decide to let it go.
"Okay wear these now" Christina hands a pair of dark red coloured high heeled sandals with ankle straps. No way I'm gonna put these on.
"Christina. I'm not wearing these. Just too much" I say but she whines and pouts.
"Please Tris! Just for one night." Marlene says and Christina nods along. I sigh and give in. I put on the heels and try to stand up, I lose my balance a bit but achieve in maintaining it after some time.
"We're ready! Let's go,shall we?" Christina says excitedly. Marlene loops her arm with mind and says "We shall" I laugh along with them and step out of my room.
I won't call myself rich but I'm wealthy enough to buy a good apartment in a very well protected building which has 2 bedrooms, a living room, a kitchen and a dining. I've decorated it and moved in the furniture according to my liking and I love it here! I couldn't ask for more. I am truly grateful for what I have. My family lives in California. My parents are rich mainly because my father is a government official and my mom is a famous doctor there. My parents are very selfless and sometimes I wish I could be too but then I'm dauntless at the same time. That's what we call ourselves, me and my group. I don't know how but we came up with this term last year, actually Uriah and Zeke did. Anyway, my brothers lives in India with his wife Susan and works in a company that's dealing with cancer stuff. He's my genius nerd erudite brother! We visit each other often and share our times in our place, so I would say we all are close!
We reach the parking lot and decide to ride in my ML 63 and set off for the place where the bookings are done. All I know is that it's a beachfront hotel where they have booked the area near to the beach. Tobias and others did it because I love beaches and so does Tobias.
I sing along to the song 'Little me' which blares from the stereo and am soon joined by all the girls and by the time, after all the confusing directions and wrong turns, we reach the destination and we're all giggling and laughing. "Okay girls. This is it! Let's go" Christina shouts. We compose ourselves and move out.
The place is beautifully decorated! It takes my breath away as soon as I enter the place. There are balloons and lights and flowers, but the thing that impresses me the most are the pictures of the special memories of me and Tobias together hanging on a rope that's attached to the trees around the small beach. There are couches and tables around to sit, a bar and the best part is the sound of the water from the beach along with some soft smooth instrumental music playing. The place isn't too much and it's not too dull either, it's the best mix of everything put together for our party!
Uriah comes and gives me a bear hug while congratulating, the only matter is that it's just too tight. "Uriah—Breathe—can't" I manage to speak out, he just laughs and releases me. I laugh too and hug the others who congratulate. It's not a big bash, just me, Christina, Marlene, Shauna, Zeke, Uriah, Lynn and of course Tobias. Some other close people we know from our work will join us soon too but not much. Speaking of Tobias, I can't see him anywhere. Has he even come? No what am I thinking. Of course he has. He has to.
Just then I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and find him there, in front of me smiling, a real genuine smile. He had his mouth slightly open as he examines me, I'll take that as good? I smile hugely at him when his eyes meet mine and put my hands around his neck and lean in to kiss him before he says anything. We stay like this for a few minutes and I feel him smiling as his lips brush mine. I pull back to release him and stand there with my hands still around him. I come back in my senses as everyone around me cheers and hoots. I blush and look down with a smile and Tobias chuckles whilst snaking his hands around my waist tightly.
"Happy 3rd anniversary, Tris. You look so beautiful, I almost fainted." he whispers in my ear and I feel chills. I blush hard, even if I get loads of compliments from him everyday since 3 years so I smile and give him a quick peck.
"Happy anniversary, Tobias." I say. I look directly into his dark blue beautiful eyes. "I love you." I say to him, with all honestly and love I can manage to show.
"I love you more" he says in a voice only audible to me.
I grin and kiss him for the last time before releasing him to go to others.
We reach where they are standing and get engrossed in whatever they're talking about. I meet a couple more invited people, thanking for their Congratulations and presence and blah blah, trying to put the attention away from me.
Thank god for my friends who understand me because they get them all interested in some talks which I don't get. I tune out from the conversation because I don't have interest in half of the things they're discussing. They talk about cars, new rockstars of Chicago, the latest trends and animals. Why are they discussing animals.
"I'm telling you Zeke. A zebra is black with white stripes" Uriah says in a decisive voice.
"Not! You don't know anything about anything brother. Zebras are white with black stripes." Zeke shoots back. Shauna and Marlene hit their boyfriends on their hand in sync and Everyone laughs.
"Grow up you guys" Shauna says. I just roll my eyes playfully and focus on Tobias sitting beside me. Everyone here is either dancing, drinking or talking but he's the only one lost in a deep thought. I nudge him on his side. He looks startled before looking at me but recovers soon and smiles at me, lovingly.
"Should I bring you a drink, tris" he says in a perfect British accent. I chuckle and show him the untouched wine glass in my hand. He grins and says "I guess you don't need it yet"
"No, all I want right now is you" I say slyly. He smirks his signature smirk which makes my heart flutter and folds his hand in mine. He looks deep in my eyes and I think we stay like this for a long time because I hear some throats clearing from beside.
"You guys done there?" Asks will. I just blush and look down and I feel Tobias chuckling. "Because we have a cake". Christina shouts and everyone around cheers.
"A cake?" I ask surprised. I didn't know we have a cake. What I expected was a small party actually, but I guess idea of small is different for my friends here.
"Yes Tris, a cake! Did you really think we would have let you go without a cake!" Lynn says in an obvious tone.
"And it's a dauntless chocolate cake!" Shouts Uriah. I smile at that and Tobias laughs. We all love a dauntless chocolate cake, which apparently can only be found in the dauntless bakery in our street and it's the most delicious cake I've ever eaten! Coincidently all of us live on the same street. We have our apartments in sort of a row, it's cool actually but sometimes it gets annoying too considering the fact that we bump into each other quite often, where often means at least 15 times in a day.
"Hey blow out the candles now! And Cut the cake with this." Squeals Christina and hands us a knife. I take the knife in my hand and twirl it. It is decorated with red ribbons, it looks good and it has a big T in the middle. I smile at it and look over Christina and she winks at me. I hand over the knife to Tobias for him to look at it and meanwhile mouth a Thankyou to her and look over Tobias who has the same expression as mine. We together hold the knife in our hands and look at each other. Our hands brush together and Tobias leans closer to me.
"Together" he whispers and I smile, a loving smile. And turn around to blow the candles that are now burning on top of the cake which is brownish in colour and has red flowers around the boundary and a blue ribbon, which is the sugar thing, covers the cake and meets the middle forming a beautiful flower having red sparkles on it. A huge heart is fixed on it on which "Our love will never die" is written with perfection.
I look over at Tobias who's grinning. "It's beautiful" I say with the amazement clear in my voice. He plants a kiss on head and says "I'm glad to you liked it"
"Enough with the love already! Cut the cake, I'm starving" Uriah whines. Everyone laughs.
"Together" I say back to Tobias and we blow the candles at the same times and start to cut the cake when we wear a loud "stop" from Christina. She takes out her phone and gives a thumbs up to us. I see many other people take out their cameras and phone too. Tobias chuckles and I roll my eyes playfully while all others just grin except Uriah who looks like he can kill Chris right now.
Finally we cut the cake and everyone around cheers and hoots. I smile hugely, so does everyone around. "Happy anniversary, Tobias" I say again to him and he says an "I love you and forever will" as a reply to which I just kiss him with all the passion. I feel him smiling as the girl says aww's and and boys shouting "get a room" I laugh too and pull back a little so that my forehead connects with his.
We all eat the cake and the food. Have drinks and dance till our feet give up. In my case I'm pretty sure my feet are swollen thanks to my heels. I remove them though, after giving up the fact I can wear them.
Everyone starts filing out after saying a last congratulations as the clock strikes 3 am in the morning and it's just our group left. Everyone's pretty drunk considering the fact that everyone's tipping over and giggling and making stupid jokes while me and Tobias are not that drunk yet. I'm still in my senses, just a little giggly. Tobias is... Well he's still him.
I take Tobias' hand and take him away towards the beach. Tobias snakes his hand on my waist and I do the same while the other hand holds the heels. I play with the water as i go, giggling every now and then. I look at Tobias to see he's deep in a thought and by the looks of it I don't think it's a pretty one! What he might be thinking of I wonder. Hmm maybe unicorns. I wonder where unicorns live. Huh. I'll research on that. That's a wonderful thought. Wonderful. There's so much wonder in our world. Wait what am I thinking? I giggle at my self and look at Tobias again. He's still stuck in a deep thought. The darkness makes it hard for me to look at his face clearly and my vision is gettin blurry too. Maybe I'm sleepy. Sleepy. It's a weird word. Sleeeepy.
No wait, I was looking at the serious Tobias, focus Tris. Don't let the drink get to you. Sober up!
Tobias is still thinking something. His thinking is bothering me now. He hasn't looked at me since the last.. Wait how long have we been walking? I'm surprised the beach isn't finished yet. His grip on me is hard and I know what he's thinking about is serious because I can sense the stiffness in him. Their are lanterns around but they don't give enough light to make me see him better.
"Tobias" I say quietly but he doesn't respond. I take his name again, louder this time but he doesn't respond again.I come to a sudden halt which makes me tumble over, well because Tobias grip on my waist is strong and he was still walking. But Tobias catches me before I fall down on the sand.
He looks surprised with my sudden stop and raises his eyebrow at me. I raise my eyebrow too."Okay, let me be the mature one. What happened" he says. I just roll my eyes at him. "You tell me, Tobias. What's wrong?" I ask him.
He just smiles and says "everything is alright." He holds his hand up to brush my hair back but I just swat his hand away. He looks shocked and hurt but recovers quickly and puts his hand in his pocket.
"Don't lie to me Tobias" I slur but manage to say It a bit sternly. I hope I did sound stern "I know you're hiding something. You've been acting like this since the last three months "
He looks away for a moment before looking back at me. He looks deeply in to me, I stare back with a look that says "tell me" he just sighs and shakes his head.
"We'll talk about this later, Tris" he says softly, which melts my stern look "I promise we will when the time comes. Okay?"
I know I can't force him so I just give up and say a weak "okay"He leans down and gives me a long lingering kiss on my forehead, and that's the last thing I remember about the night before everything blacks out.
Author's note: Okay yes the flashback will go on for a few chapters but I will clear the plot more in next chapters. Review and tell if I should continue? Thankyou so much for reading!