Stupid Boy

Edward's POV

Alice has not forgiven me for leaving Bella so she constantly plays a song by Keith Urban. I hate it so much because it reminds me how I stupid I was to leave my Bells. I guess she is not My Bells any longer.

Well she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

The torcher never stopped, Alice of course knew how much pain she was putting me through, but she never thought it was enough. I had to agree with her no matter how much tht song hurt me, the pain was never enough to equal the pain I had forced Bella in to.

Stupid boy…you can't fence that in
Stupid boy…it's like holdin' back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
"I can't belive she would do that , I mean jumping off a cliff. Its Edward for crying out loud." Rose's thoughts rang in my head.

Bella was dead? Bella killed herself? Bella and dead, or Bella and suicide did not belong in the same sentence. I punched the wall so hard that my fist went through the wall.

She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can't
I grabbed my jacket and keys and ran outside to my volvo. "Edward where are you going?" Alice ased in her thoughts. I ignored her, and went to my Volvo.

Stupid boy
Stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

"Edward don't go, Bella…."

"WHAT BELLA WOULND'T WANT ME TO GO. ALICE JUST FOR ONCE LET ME MAKE MY OWN CHOICES!." I yelled at her. She gave me a hurt look then ran inside. I didn't care that I hurt her, I was after all a stupid boy

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy
Stupid boy

You always had to be right
And now you lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive
Bella was the person who made me feel like my dead heart was beating again. I love her and I left her. I am so stupid! The only thing that will give me peace is death and that is exactly what I plan to do. That song that Alice kept playing still echoed in my head.

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy
Stupid boy
Oh I'm the same old, same old stupid boy

Bella couldn't live with out me and I will not live knowing that I caused her death. Call me a coward if you want to. I don't give a damn!

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone, long gone

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