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Whispered Words

Heavy drops to the wet ground. Cold gusts filled the streets. Thunder claps roaring. I don't know if the drops were from the pouring rain or from my own eyes. I don't know if the breeze was this cold or it was just me. I don't know if the roaring were really from the skies or it was the breaking of my tortured heart.

I don't care anymore.

I already lost her.

Looking up, I instantly closed my eyes. I figured out that right now I was standing alone in the middle of a heavy rain. 'Hey, I was the only one here who was supposed to be crying...not you, sky...'

I don't care if got sick and would die right here, you wouldn't mind. Because you surely didn't feel the same. You don't need me anymore. You never figured me out. I would rather die alone than to feel this lonely and useless. I was tortured inside everytime I fake a smile in front of you and the others so you guys wouldn't see. Everytime you ask for advice on what to do to make him fall for you more, and I would answer half-heartedly, I would tell you secretly the things I want you to do to me. I feel like tearing up everytime you told me to go on ahead because you were waiting for a certain man to come pick you up. And I'm not the certain person, I'm not even a man to start with.

I die each time you look away.

He doesn't know you like I do. He would never be able to make you truly happy like I did all the time. He would never stay by your side forever like I would. He would never think about you when you two were away from each other like I do all the time. He can never be faithful like me. Your memories with each other would never last like our memories with each other would. He can never make you feel like the most important person in the world like I would. He would never sacrifice everything just for you like I would. He can never be a shoulder to cry on like I am to you.

He can never outmatch the intensity of my love for you.

'But if you're truly happy with me, you wouldn't love him. You wouldn't hug him in front of us, in front of me'.

I miss our usual conversations, our interactions and moments. I miss your calls every night. I miss our sleepovers, talking to each other and would end up being up all night. I miss our funny bickering. I miss your animated chops and whacks on my head, it makes my day. Whenever you smile, I can feel my heart fly but when I realized that the smile wasn't from me and wasn't for me, it would abruptly crashed down. Whenever you sing in front of me, I feel honoured but then again, the inspiration wasn't me. Whenever you sleep beside me, we look like more than the best of friends, but then it was my mind assuming that we were. Whenever you are in my arms and cry, I feel very useful but on the same time, I feel like joining you cry.

My delusions of me and you became horrid nightmares, reminding me that my love will forever be unreturned. My wishes were now nothing but burnt images. My mind continued to replay the times he held your hand and made you giggle. My heart was kicked, punched, wounded and sent straight down to hell.

When you met him and told him your 'yes', why did I suddenly look invisible to you? Or maybe it was just me.

Of all the people, why do I have to fall for you?

I didn't mean to fall in love. This is a mishap...

Why do I have to feel this way towards you? Towards my own best friend? 'A girl, dammit!'

What did I do wrong for the heavens to kill me slowly inside?

Why can't my love be accepted and returned?

If only you would notice my hidden feelings. If only you would leave him and choose me. I know these sound ridiculous, but these thoughts only live in my head and would be killed by cruel reality.

I may not be the most religious person you know, but I get down on my knees and pray desperately, tears flowing every night. I pray that your heart would just turn around and notice me. Somehow. Someday. I wish it will happen. I wish that you will see the spark in me.

But I know that it's too late. Too late to catch you, because somebody caught you long before I jumped. You're already gone. Gone with him. With someone who you think is better. Better than a fool like me. Better than someone who hides in an unnoticeable façade, someone who thinks that everything will be alright behind the tears. But nothing's 'alright'. Seeing you together doesn't feel right, although in other people's view, you're the 'perfect two'.

He's the luckiest person that ever lived on earth. For he caught the heart of the unreachable maiden that was with me all the time, but I didn't do anything about what I feel that's why I was outran. And now envy is creeping in my veins. He has the permission to touch your soft, fair skin everytime, run his hands through your raven locks, look deeply into your gray eyes, and feel your soft lips whenever he wanted to.

Those I couldn't do. I can never do. All I can do is to dream about it and choose to forget about it later, for my poor heart might fall apart like it always did. If I did tell you what I feel, how much I love you, how deep it was that I can't get back up, how I want us to be more than this, what would happen? The friendship that we've built since long time ago would falter and fall. It will cease to exist and never to return.

I don't think if I can take it if you were to walk away, disgusted by my feelings. I don't think if I can continue to live in this world, if you were to be so distant. I think I might go insane if you were to avoid me forever. But that would probably happen if he were to propose to you, right?

'It's hard to let go and quit loving you...tell me how...'

Everytime I try to forget you, I just keep on remembering.

The heaven's downpour continued to roam the place. It continued to cry alongside me. The thunder booming over my head was like the mourning of my dying heart. The darkness invading the sky was like that of my mind and the striking lightning was you. Your the only one I see and hear among the shadows. I decided to turn around and walk away. I was planning to drop by, but thinking that he might be there stopped me from getting any closer until the sky got dark.

I remained walking. I don't know where I was going. It's quite pointless to know. My feet set small splashes on the wet road, earning many stares from the passersby. I guess they're probably wondering why a lone stranger might be doing in the middle of the road, with no umbrella nor a single rain gear, just drenched in a winter coat.

Will I forever be this blind? Will I forever be the lonesome seeker for your heart? Will I forever be locked up in my own miseries? My golden eyes started to feel dense from the overflowing tears and I started to feel weak all over. All lights were suddenly out...

"R-Ricchan?!"

'But I can never be him...I am yours Mio, but you can never be mine...'

Those are the whispered words I wish you knew...

O/N: I originally planned this to be a One-Shot. Would you guys want me to end this story here? Please answer...i don't know what to do, end it or continue?

hey, it really is painful to fall in love with your best friend especially if that person has somebody else already and this Author-sama is going through it right now. That's the real reason why I had the motive to write this...

Enough with personal problems. ^_^ typos everywhere...what do you guize think about a dramatic Ricchan and suggestions for this story? Please let me know in your reviews down below!

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