What Hurts the Most?:Sequel to Contact
Summary:(My first fanfic Not the best) After taking over the entire city of Steelport, The leader of the Saints looks back and realized What Really Hurt her the most. Songfic What Hurts the Most-Cascada (Cover) R&R please! I do not own any of the saints row games or the song used for this fic. ENJOY!
"This is really it." Said a really happy Shaundi.
"Yup, this is our fuckin' city now." Blaze replied taking a drag of her cigarette
"Hey, I thought you stopped smoking a long time ago?" She asked
"I'm stressed that's all." Blaze assured her.
"Why, we just fucked up the Syndicate we have everything."
"Yeah, not everything" Blaze said throwing cigarette to the ground and shaking her head.
(I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me)
"Is this about Johnny?"
"Shaundi… he was my best friend. "
"I know… and believe me I'm still pissed off at that asshole Loren."
(What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do)
"Shaundi, I love the support but you don't know what I'm going through." Blaze said her brown eyes looking up a Shaundi's.
"Blaze… yes I do we all were close to him you weren't the only one!" she yelled
"Look I know you Pierce and everyone else were close to him but… he was the first Saint I became Friends With, He's taken bullets for me and I've done the same for him." She yelled then gave a small smile before continuing. "For fuck sake he died for me just so I could get off that plane safely and not just me but… for you."
"Boss I-"
"I couldn't even look at my Saints that day and tell them he died." Blaze just glanced at Shaundi and suddenly looked at the ground. "I can't do the things I use to 'because all I can think of is Johnny being by my side the entire time."
(It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone.)
"I'm sorry I never saw it that way, I mean yeah I knew you to were close but, not like that." Shaundi sighed. "And I wish I told you I knew how you felt being that close to somebody and having them die… But I can't."
"I know… and I regret everyday leaving him by himself, I just wish I could've saved him like he'd for me in the past."
(Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken)
"I'm so sorry Blaze I really am… and if you need sombody to talk to I'm always here for you." Shaundi said moving a lock of red hair from her boss' face.
"Thanks Shaundi but I'm OK."
"You sure?"
"Yeah… can I just be alone."
"Your call."
Blaze always hid her emotions from everyone. She could never show her crew she had a weak side. After sitting alone for a few minutes she began remembering some of the hard working times she had with her Second and command.
S.R.2
"I dunno man" Blaze started out looking around the hotel that was under Stillwater
"Oh come on add stripper pole and some nicer furniture." Johnny argued his case
"You had me at stripper pole." She said giving him a small smile
"Fuckin' A" he said pulling out his phone.
" alright, we had time to relax now we have to get these bodies out of here." Blaze said leaving her spot on the old worn out sofa.
"This isn't what I had in mind for my day." Johnny said throwing a body on top of the pile
"We gotta clean this place out." She said pick up a body
"I'm not a fuckin' janitor!" he bitched
"No, Shit you're a goddamn diva." She shot back.
Johnny gave her this glare that caused her to giggle before he spoke up. "We can't run gangs if we don't have you know… A FUCKIN GANG!"
"You said it before half the old crew is either dead or busted by Troy… were gonna half to start fresh."
"Well let's get on this cause I'm done mopping up blood!"
"This kid Carlos helped me bust out but were going to need more whatchu thinkin?"
"I met some people in prison… let me make some calls, but once I find these bitches you gotta show them you're the real deal they wont just follow anybody."
"Won't be a problem, Send me the info once you got it."
"You got it."
"Yeah, loosing him was What Hurts the Most" Blaze said to herself getting up from her spot at the penthouse."
(What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do)
Blaze took out her phone and saw her screen saver was a picture of her a Johnny on her birthday. Never has her background ever made her cry since now. She would now have to move on and forget about the tragic death of her best friend.
(I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me)
"Rest In Peace Johnny." She said looking at her screen and smileing before walking into the Saints HQ.
(What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do)
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Ok this wasn't how I really wanted this story to go but it was so I could get this out of the way and focus on my new one… reviews are welcomed. = )
Don't forget to listen to Rascal Flatts-What Hurts the Most (Original Version) and Cascada-What Hurts The Most (Cover) thanks to the people who favorited this