Life Lived At A Distance
Fandom : Dark Angel
Character : Ben
Word Count : 300
Rating : PG13
Written for the prompt : Dark Angel, Ben or Alec, at a distance
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Life Lived At A Distance
Years go by, he watches them pass. Some feel longer than others although he knows they aren't. Some are harder than others, harder to ignore what's inside and still hold on to the hope that life will begin to make sense. He remembers vividly the day they left Manticore, the belief they all had in themselves, in each other, in the world they were heading for.
Years pass and still Ben searches for proof of that belief, proof that they were right, a way to fit in and be like everyone else. He wants nothing more than to not be a product of Manticore, but this world still doesn't make sense to him. He has lost everything; brothers and sisters, security, order and he has nothing.
He found the Blue Lady. She has given him no answers, no matter how many times he asks. He watches other people come and go before her, sees the sense of a burden lifted as they kneel before her and when they rise again. He tries to be worthy of her, but like the rest of this world, he can find no sense, no meaning, no path.
Ben goes through life at a distance from the people and the world around him. It makes no sense to him. He does all he can to find some way in. His hope has gone, the Blue Lady will never accept him for one of her own, she knows where he came from. He has thought of going back, wonders if life would make sense there if he did.
There's nothing left to hope for now, but peace and an end to this. Until it's over, Ben will continue to live life at a distance.