Bella's Journal
April 28
Graduation is less than two months away, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared.
While I want to leave Forks and make a new start at college, I'm a little afraid to as well. Vampires are no longer a threat to me: Jacob and the rest of the pack finally caught and killed Victoria, and the Cullens left long ago.
When I was first accepting that they left, it hurt me so much. I really was in the five stages of grief. Thanks to Angela though, I came to realise it was a good thing they left. Of course I couldn't tell her the whole vampire thing, but now I've moved on.
I guess a part of the reason he left was because he wanted me to have the human life he and his family don't have. I've got it now. I'm not so afraid of aging anymore, which is good because I'm getting on for nineteen. That reminds me that they never age and will never have grandkids: that was always one of the sore spots for Rosalie.
I'm generally glad that in years to come, I won't be frozen. I can have my birthdays and commemorate reaching another year of life, rather than marking the anniversary I stopped changing from human to inhuman.
I got into several of the universities I applied to: NYU, Columbia, the university of Washington… several others too. I've decided I'm going to NYU, since their English program is really good.
I'll most definitely have to keep in touch with Angela. I'm not sure who else I'd be keeping in contact with, but that's the good thing about being human: having any number of choices and possibilities, instead of being stuck in an endless cycle.